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And follow where You lead, Where You're leading me All that I can do Is hold onto You And let you lead me through It's all that I can do
I know I said I would continue my attempt at doing the entire Moulin Rouge movie Icon Style on my next entry...but I didn't feel like messing with it this time...next time!!! Here is an icon for you...
SO yeah....continuing on the confusionness....I AM SO CONFUSED! YAY! No, not really...more BOO! Or actually, it seems to be more of a booHOO type thing lately...not fun! *sigh* I mean really...why does life hafta be so friggin' confusing...I just wish we always knew what was gonna happen, when, how and why...but like I said earlier...then there would be no need for God...we wouldn't need Him here for us to trust Him and have faith in Him. Life would just be...to easy, lol! I know that almost sounds nice, but then again, not really, cause how would we ever grow up and mature if we didn't have trials and problems we had to work through and trust Him through. That's what I need right now...trust and faith and LOT'S of it! I find myself constantly thinking about things, like future-wise. I wish I could just let it go and trust in Him completely and not worry about it so much. That way I could focus more on Him and my relationship WITH Him more. But it's SO hard!!! I'm always finding myself thinking, wondering, and sometimes even worrying about who I will one day marry and when, but deep down I know that if I just let it go and focused more on my relationship with God, and tried to learn to love Him and trust Him more with each day, my life would be so much better. But of course, because I'm so stupid and selfish, I just can't seem to give it up, for fear of, I don't know what...even though deep down I know if I just let it go and "gave Him the pen" eveything would work out beautifully and even if it meant going through some heartache in the process, I would be much happier/better off in the long run. I just wish I could REALLY get that into my brain and do it! So yeah...that is my life right now! Lot's of confusion...worry...fear...and stuff. But I guess that's usually what happens to all of us, especially after Highschool...you're trying to figure out what to do with the rest of your life, where to go to college, what to major in, how you're gonna go to college and all that great stuff. I thought I had it all figured out about 2 months ago...but then God threw me a curve ball(make that 2 or 3) and now I just need to learn to trust Him and let Him take the "pen" of my life and go crazy, so I don't have to(literally)...lol! I know what I want and what my hopes and dreams are for the future, but I guess what I really need to do is let Him show me what His plan for my life is. I think I'm going to pull a Mandy...Reflections of My J-Hi and Highschool Years...tehe...
6th Grade- Living in Tulsa, started my first year @ CTC taking 1 class...I was very shy, and dorky/nerdy, also very insecure. Didn't really get to know anyone that year as a result of my incredible shyness and insecurity. 7th Grade- Still in Tulsa, second year @ CTC, the year I met the famous Mandy, one of my best friends to this day, love her to death and always will! I was still very shy and insecure, but so was Mandy so we got along great, lol! I took my first Drama class, loved it. Took Spanish, failed it...took American Government, also failed it. That summer I went to Hawaii for 2 weeks with my bestest brother Ben, my almost-twin cousin Chris and my Grandmommy, it was AMAZING! 8th Grade- Still in Tulsa and going to CTC...only took 3 classes that year...didn't really meet/get to know anyone...Mandy went through an odd stage of anger and meanness/evilness. The beautimous year I started attending Fusion, met Jason Jackson the most amazing youth pastor I've ever known! Love that guy! Met alot of the people I still know, love and miss today. DNA @ Coffee Banc...the best! 9th Grade- Still in Tulsa and going to CTC, for the last year...the awesome year I re-met my best friend in the whole entire world, Danielle! LOVE YA GIRL! Also met lot's of other good friends that year, Tara(I miss that girl), Sharon, Loni, and Matt, the only guyfriend I think I ever had...love that guy! Still can't believe he's MARRIED now! LOL! The first CTC Talent show was that year, and according to just about everyone, my friends and I put on the two best shows of the night, YEAH BABY! You Lift Me Up! 10th Grade- Was a weird year...I wasn't going anywhere @ the time, as far as school goes...March of that year I got my first job @ Shake's Frozen Custard, loved that job! I was still attending Fusion, loving it! Miss it SO much! Becoming best friends with Danielle. 11th Grade- A good, but @ the same time BAD year...the year I moved to Austin, TX. Still working @ Shake's, til we moved in Dec. Best friends with Danielle and Mandy, still getting to know Loni and Matt. Met a few new people before moving, @ Fusion/DNA...got to get some good experience in leading worship, with the help of Andrew Bennett, love that guy too, I couldn't have done it without him! Met so many awesome people that I love and miss like CRAZY! I grew alot in my relationship with God that year, for many different reasons. It was a good year, overall... 12th Grade- Living in Austin...learning slowly to love it, and slowly getting used to it and getting to know people that I now love! Started attending FNL @ Shoreline, Mikey and Marie moved here, starting to get to know them better. Beginning to really love it here and not want to leave now, not even to go back to Tulsa! This has been a good year! So that is my life over the past 6 years! LOL! Now that I've probably bored you to tears....I shall end this very long, boring and uninteresting entry! Luv y'all!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo, Liz |
If you find this offensive...I'm sorry...I find it rather amusing!
It's like that one song...I Found Jesus! Nothing really against it, it's just rather silly to me...I mean you don't really FIND Jesus...was He lost???
And who could forget...So this looks like a job for me so everybody put food in me, cause we need a little crunchy, cause there's to many leftovers with out me...LOL! And who could forget, Physical Science and Writing Dev...the many hilarious inside jokes that evolved from those awesome classes! That was definitely a GOOD year!!!Comments
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