Knights Becoming and a Lady in Waiting

Reality

I started to do this as a comment on MuckFootMom's blog-- sort of an effort to cheer her up.  But it turned into a little mini-confession and a bit long (even for me) to leave as a comment, so...

Oh, Kim, I so very much understand where you're at.  Today was my first time with God in three days (other than a few dashed off prayers to not kill certain energetic little boys who will remain nameless).  My house has been cleaned-- mostly-- once in the last three weeks.  Tonight my husband made dinner after he got home from work and he bathed the boys, too.  We decided-- I decided-- to take a little time off school so Mommy would stop thinking of it as a chore and not a blessing.

You are NOT alone.

But, like you, I yearn to be more.  I desire to make that leap to God-centered over Chelo-centered, to Christ first over housework first, to loving my children more than I try to TRAIN them.  I despair because I don't seem to do anything well and do quite a few things miserably.  My failures rank far higher in frequency than my successes.

Tonight, I can say that's okay.  I've had time with God.  I've had a little break from the kids.  My house is bearable, if not perfect.  Tomorrow, I may again be on my knees in abject misery wondering why God saw fit to entrust me with one child, let alone four.  I may be crying in humiliation because my oldest son has once again managed to maneuver me into a screaming match-- and he won.

But for tonight, I have God's peace.  I'm going to pray you get a dose, too, and that it carries you through the next time you hit this low.  In fact, while I'm at it, I think I'll pray for a good measure of that peace for myself.  We could all use a little God help when we hit the bottom.  Sometimes, I think that's what the bottom was there for.

As the deer pants for streams of water,

so my soul pants for You, O God.

Psalm 42:1

thank you

6:34 AM, May. 3, 2006 .. Posted by MuckFootMom

Thank you, Chelo. I long to long for the Lord, to pant and thirst for Him, rather than just wistfully wish for a drink I'm too lazy to seek. Today is better, at least so far. I confessed and cried out to the Lord, and started today in the Word. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.

kim

Is that condemnation I smell?

8:14 AM, May. 3, 2006 .. Posted by InHizImage

No... "There is now therefore NO condemnation to those in Christ"
We'll just call it a reminder then. I woke up, started the normal "Get out of bed, kids!" stuff, walked by, turned the computer on, fixed breakfast, walked back to the computer and here I sit. Wait. Where was my time with God this morning?

Yep- logging off to go spend time with Him.

Thanks for the reminder *winks*

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9:20 AM, May. 3, 2006 .. Posted by HoweyHomestead

Good for you. Spending time in the Word puts such a clear perspective on things. The Bible says, "Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil." Our weapon in this world is the Word of God. It is so key!!
Blessings on your day!
Robbin