For the Sake of the Call
Aug. 6, 2008 - Dismal Summary |
Friday, August 1st got off to a horrible start with drinking my first glass of water at 11am. I didn't sleep in until 11am, I just didn't drink anything until then. The first thing I ate was at 1pm. Old habits die hard.
- 11am 16 oz water
- 1pm BBQ pork, baked potato (butter & sour cream), yellow squash, 8 oz water, 1 oatmeal raisin choc. chip cookie (ww, sucanat)
- 6:30pm grilled hamburgers (ketchup, lettuce, tomato, vidalia onion), corn on the cob, baked beans,
Saturday wasn't much better. I drank a glass of water and had half a cinamon roll before rushing out the door at 10am, and didn't eat again until 2:30pm.
- 10am: 1/2 cinamon roll
- 2:30pm 1/2 corned beef sandwhich w/ provolone cheese on flax seed bread
- 4pm small piece zucchini cake (whole wheat flower & sucanat)
- 6:30pm grilled pork loin ribs w/ Soayki, wild rice, green beans, cucumbers, pineapple, roll,
Sunday, I tried to start out better with a half a grapefruit, but I only managed to take a few bites before we had to head to church and say good-bye to friends who were visting from out of town. I drank a big glass of water when we got home from church at noon, and ate lunch at about 1pm. We had friends over for lunch who brought brownies and cookies. I had more than my fair share of brownies over the course of the next couple of days. Bad bad bad. That evening we went on a bike ride to get ice cream. I only got a small chocolate dipped vanilla cone. That was dinner.
- 9:45am 8oz water, 3 bites of grapefruit
- 1pm 12 oz water, ham, corned beef, turkey sandwich w/cucumbers, lettuce, & tomato, potato salad, chips and salsa & cheese sauce, brownies,
- 6:30pm 45 minute bike ride, small chocolate dipped vanilla ice cream cone, water
Monday was another mediocre day. No exercise, no breakfast, not enough water oh and brownies . Brilliant! Typical of my life before I started this blog. Leftover chinese food for lunch, tacos for dinner (ground beef, refried beans, sour cream, lettuce, tomato, onions, taco sauce, dorittos, guacamole). Kettle corn.
Tuesday was the same. No exercise. No breakfast, not enough water, and a fudgsicle (sp?). I did weed in the garden in the evening, and as sweaty as I got doing that, I know I was burning some calories.
- 12pm 1 slice banana bread (whole wheat w/ honey)
- 2:30pm leftover BBQ pork, beans, cucumber slices, brownie
- 5:30pm stir-fry (wild rice, pork, zucchini, carrots, peas, Soyaki)
- 10pm banana split (2 scoops chocolate crackle ice cream, hot fudge, butterscotch/caramel sauce, 1/2 banana)
Today is Wenesday, and I got up early to go on a 20 minute bike ride (I got to see the sunrise!), then I worked in the garden for another 30 minutes or so. And believe me, attacking the forest of weeds definitely counts as exercise! I had a banana after my bike ride, and I've had about 24oz. of water, but I need to get off the computer and go have something more for breakfast and another glass of water.
I'm trying not to get discouraged. I've established years of bad habits that won't be corrected overnight, but I had really hoped I could at least make it through the first week without falling back into my old ways of skipping meals and not drinking enough water or exercising oh and brownies. I can tell physically that I felt much better the days that I was exercising and eating well throughout the day. The days I skipped meals, ate sweets, and didn't exercise, I felt weak and shaky. I almost think I put my body into shock by eating right and drinking plenty of water for a few days and then reverting back to my bad habits. Getting up early in the morning to exercise is really key, but then I have to be careful to sit down and eat before I get busy with other things. Take now for example.
Anyway, hopefully I can get back on track again and not just feel discouraged and throw in the towel. (That's kinda what I felt like doing earlier this week, but I'm ready to begin afresh.)
Grace and Peace,
Angel
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Aug. 6, 2008 - The Last Decent Day |
I didn't have a chance to post this entry. This was a good day. Now if only I could have sustained it!
Thurday, June 31st
6:45am 16 oz. water, 35 minute bike ride,
7:25am 16 oz water, 20 minutes Pilates JP
8:25am 3/4c. shredded wheat, 3/4 c. 2% organic milk, 1 tsp. bee pollen, 1/2 cinamon roll, 1/2 c. blackberries, 4oz. OJ
9:30am 16 oz water
12:30pm 1 yellow squash w/ cream cheese, 1 baked potato w/ butter & sour cream, 8 oz water
1:30pm 8oz water
3:30pm 2 cookies (from scratch oatmeal raisin choc. chip w/ whole wheat flour & sucanat)
5:30pm Amish chicken, noodles, & corn (organic cream of chicken soup, canned chicken, egg noodles, corn, creamed corn0, 16 oz. water
6pm 2 cookies
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Jul. 30, 2008 - Oreo double-stuff? What kind of diet is this??? |
10:30am 1/2 grapefruit, 1 cup Kellogg's mini-wheats, 1/2tbsp sugar, 3/4c. 2% milk
12:30pm 12 oz water (I should know better than to have my first glass of water at 12:30pm!!!)
1:15pm sandwich (1 slice organic whole wheat bread, 1 roma tomato, 1/2 cucumber, 2 slices lean honey ham, 1/2 slice Kraft American cheese)
1:40pm 8 oz water
2:45pm 11 Honey Almonds
3pm 16oz water
4pm 16oz water, 6 almonds/cashews
6pm Taco Salad (seasoned ground beef cooked in tomato sauce with corn & black beans, green leaf lettuce, tomato, vidalia onions, crumbled doritos, cheese, Catalina dressing, sour cream, taco sauce), 12oz water
7:30pm 2oreo doublestuff, 4 oz. 2% milk (2 is not bad, I've been known to eat 4 times that much!)
No exercise and oreos, what can I say? We planned to play tennis this evening, but it was sprinkling when we went to load up the van. My calories are roughly 1200-1300. 64 oz. of water is ideal, but I shouldn't have to guzzle it all afternoon since I didn't drink all morning! It's great that I ate breakfast, but it would have been better if it were earlier than 10:30am. Sigh. I have a long road in front of me. Tomorrow I get up earlier and exercise again. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Thanks for your support and encouragement!!! :)
Grace and Peace,
Angel
To find out what's going on in my life beyond my "diet" check out my other For the Sake of the Call. |
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Jul. 29, 2008 - Can I Really Lose Weight With All This Butter? |
There were good things today and not so good. I actually got up in the morning, but then ended up in bed later in the day. I was sore and achy and had a head-ache. Do you think staying up until 2am reading had anything to do with that? Here are the specifics:
7:15am 16oz water, 1/2 banana, 30 min. bike ride,
7:45am 16 oz water
8:10am 20 min Pilates mat workout
9:30am scrambled eggs (butter, eggs, milk, ham, cheese,), toast w/ butter & grape jelly, 5 blackberries, 12 oz. water,
3:30pm (Yep, 6 hours later) leftover beef stir-fry, 1 small white peach, 12 oz water,
5:30pm 12 oz 2% chocolate milk (Hershey's): What can I say? It was either that or oreos and milk.
7:00pm BBQ pork, yellow squash w/ butter & cream cheese, baked potato w/ butter(half as much as I usually use), sour cream, chives from the garden, 16oz. water
9:30pm 8 oz. water
DH is really bummed about the no eating after 8pm rule. He asks how we're supposed to enjoy our ice cream without the children. Sacrifices! ;)
I did well with water today: 80oz!!! 50 minutes of exercise is great too. The only set-back is the 6 hour lapse in eating. I think I need to eat more frequent smaller meals to jumpstart my metabolism. My body has gone into starvation mode after all these months/years of skipping meals and not getting the proper amount of calories, so it just holds onto fat and I'm not able to lose weight.
Alright, I'm off to bed so I hopefully won't be as exhausted tomorrow. I have work to do and can't afford to spend half the day in bed reading!
I pray you have a great day! I forgot to mention yesterday, but the couple of verses I've been meditating on the past couple of days are
"Whatsoever you eat or drink...do all to the glory of God," and "You are not your own, you have been bought with a price, therefore glorify God with your body." (1Cor. 10:13?)
Grace and Peace,
Angel |
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Jul. 28, 2008 - The First Day is the Hardest |
I wanted to go for a bike ride this morning. I was supposed to get up at 6:15am (craziness!) so that I could be back before my husband left for work. He ended up waking up in the middle of the night with a coughing fit; I woke up also, having already been awoken by my 7 year old climbing into bed with me. Isn't she too old for that? So when I awoke at 7am and then was told by my husband that it was wet from rain and not ideal for bike riding, I decided to just go back to sleep, knowing that the basement where I exercise (not that it happens often) was a mess. Excuses, excuses. So much for rising early! (As a side note, my husband actually brought the pilates machine upstairs so that I wouldn't have any excuses. He's being very supportive!)
Here's what the day ended up looking like.
10:30am small banana, 16oz glass of water
11am 20 minutes Pilates (with machine); 8 oz glass of ice water
2:30pm salad (2 cups green leaf lettuce, 1 freshly picked roma tomato, 1/3 cucumber (farmer's market), 2 slices lean ham, 1 oz. cheddar cheese, 1Tbsp. Blush Wine Vinaigrette)
4:15pm 16oz water
6:40 pm one helping of beef stir fry with brown basmati rice (beef, green beans, sweet peas, carrots, zucchini, onion,Trader Joe's Soyaki, Succanat, Cooking Sherry, Soy Sauce, Garlic Powder, Olive Oil, Butter ); 8 oz ice water
7:45pm 12 oz water
Old habits are hard to break. I can see that it's not as easy as posting a blog entry. I still skimped on breakfast and slept in too late. But no snacking and no treats and no seconds on dinner, even though I wanted more. I did a rough calculation, and I'm only at about 750 calories. Obviously I need to eat more. 52oz of water isn't bad, but I need to increase that even more.
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Jul. 26, 2008 - Dieting |
I know I said good-bye to HSB and started blogging here, but I've decided that since this blog is just sitting here, I might as well use it. Here's the explanation.
A few posts ago, I mentioned the word diet. I'd fully intended to begin a diet this week. I didn't. I need to. I hate it. The excess baby weight after four kids has lingered even though my baby is now 5 1/2. I'm disgusted by the inner tube/muffin top, and struggle with insecurity as a result. I don't know if it makes any sense at all, but somehow the extra weight feels immodest even. I don't know if I can explain it, except that I'm paranoid that it draws attention to parts of my body that I prefer would be unnoticed. Even my feet look fat. It's been bothering me more and more over the course of the past several months, and I need to do something about it.
The challenge is that I'm afraid of diets. My struggle in the past with border-line anorexia compels me to avoid dieting at all costs. I don't want to count calories or fat-calories or figure out correct portion sizes or watch my weight or any of that stuff. I know how obsessed I was with that in the past and I just don't want to go there again. Sigh.
Another part of the problem is that I don't know that I have really overcome this struggle. I still skip meals, I still have an unhealthy view of what my ideal weight should be, I still struggle with contentment with the way my body is, and I'm not sure I'd be content even if I were 20 pounds lighter.
So how does a person who truly needs to lose some weight, but has struggled with border-line anorexia in the past and still continues to do so even though it doesn't look like it externally, lose weight in a healthy manner? I don't know. If anyone can enlighten me, I'd really appreciate it. I do have a few ideas of how to start though, and I guess I'll just have to see how they work.
- No fad diets: I haven't read and don't plan to read any South Beach or Atkins or Mediterranean or French (although that one sounds intriguing) or _________ books. No diet pills, no Slim-fast, and NO cabbage soup diets either!
- Eat more: All the seasoned experts say that you need to eat less and exercise more, but the fact is that I don't eat enough and my metabolism has shut down. I need to eat more consistently throughout the day. I especially need to eat breakfast first thing in the morning!!!
- Eat less: I know I just said I need to eat more, but I also need to eat less when I do eat: one half a chicken breast for dinner not a whole, no seconds, try to watch portion sizes at dinner, don't eat half the chocolate chip cookies myself, eat something for breakfast other than chocolate cake.
- Exercise: working in the garden and chasing after the kids just don't cut it. I need real exercise. I hope to get up early and ride my bike before it gets too hot, do Pilates (hopefully 3 times a week) with workout tapes in the basement, and ride my bike to play tennis with my family in the evenings (1-2 times a week?)
- Eat more raw foods: I stocked up at the farmer's market and the grocery produce section this morning. Salads, fruit, fresh (local) veggies...now I just need to eat them myself and not just feed them to the kids!
- Whole grains: I've been adding whole grains to our diet for over a year, so this isn't anything different, I'll just continue to enjoy them.
- Nothing radical: I'm not going to eliminate sugar completely or high fat foods. I won't eat diet or lite or low-fat anything. Instead, I'm focusing on moderation, self control, and enjoying certain foods as special treats, not everyday occurrences.
- Prayer & Scripture Memory: The fruit of the Spirit is self-control. Gluttony is a sin. I need to yield to the Holy Spirit in this area of my life, surrender to Jesus, and allow God to be victorious. In my weakness, His strength is made manifest.
- Blogging: I've never been thrilled when people post about diets, but I think it would be good for me to record what I eat and how much I exercise to hold myself accountable. Since I hope to do this daily, I'm going to use my old blog as a place to record my progress. If you're interested in keeping up with me, encouraging me, or holding me accountable, you can follow my progress here. It will not hurt my feelings a bit if you don't really care. ;)
Those are my ideas. We'll see how it goes. I still don't own a scale, so I'm not going to be able to obsess over how much weight I've lost. Instead, I'll just have to judge how I'm doing by how my clothes fit and how I feel physically.
Do you have any suggestions? What's worked for you when it comes to losing weight or eliminating the muffin top?
Grace and Peace,
Angel
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Apr. 22, 2008 - RSS Feed for HSB |
My sweet friend Maggie has asked me a few times to explain the RSS feed thing for HSB, and I am long overdue in doing so.
First of all, RSS is, well, you'd have to ask my husband, but what I do know is that if your RSS is turned on, people can subscribe to the RSS feed and be notified when you post. I use the Microsoft Windows feed reader, some people use Google or Yahoo or Bloglines.
For the HSB blogs, you'll notice "My Blog's RSS" under the Links. Clicking on this link will enable someone to subscribe to your feed, IF it is turned on.
To turn it on, first log in to your HSB account,
Under "My Blogs" on the right hand side of the row that has your blog name, click on SETTINGS.
At the top, in red, click on the last option SITE FEED.
Next to "Publish site feed?" Select YES from the drop down box.
Beyond that, I chose 10 and With HTML as the answers to the next two questions.
Click SAVE CHANGES, and that should be it. Now anyone can subscribe to your blog, and be notified when you've updated.
Understanding this option has been a tremendous time saver for me as I used to randomly check blogs to see if they'd updated. Now, I just subscribe to my favorites and even if someone doesn't post for a month, I know when they do.
If you have any questions, feel free to leave a comment, and I'll do the best I can to answer them.
Grace and Peace,
Angel
P.S. Don't forget that I've moved. Come visit me at http://thesakeofthecall.blogspot.com/
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Mar. 21, 2008 - Signatures, Friends Page & Rosetta Stone Contest |
Hey, everybody!
I wanted to remind you that I've moved over to blogger in case you're still looking for me here. :) Come visit me and change your links and blog readers to http://thesakeofthecall.blogspot.com/ Thanks!
Also, as I still check back in and read through the Friends' page from time to time, I wonder if I could ask a favor. I don't know if you've noticed or not, but when you're reading through the Friend's page entries, you don't always know whose blog posts you're reading. The titles don't link back to the original posts, and there isn't even a note that says, "EEEEMommy wrote..." Sometimes I can figure out who wrote something, sometimes they post pictures and I recognize them, and other times I'm just scratching my head wondering whose blog post I'm reading. Take today for example, who wrote "Girl Time On Good Friday?" I'd like to comment, but I kinda want to know whose blog I'm commenting on before I do.
I've figured out how to figure it out (click post comment, click cancel, and you'll be at the original blog page), but the best solution to this issue (unless HSB changes things, which I requested that they do awhile ago) is that you utilize a signature and sign every post. I'll confess that I'm not very consistent in this myself, but it really helps when you're reading from the Friends page. If you've seen people with cool signatures, the might have gotten them free at My Live Signature, but just signing your name at the bottom is helpful. Thanks!
In case you haven't heard, JenIg has another fabulous contest going on. Here's the info!
Rosetta Stone has been the #1 foreign language curriculum among homeschoolers for a while -- next week they are unleashing a brand new curriculum, and you can WIN the *all new* Rosetta Stone Homeschool Version 3… FOR FREE!
This is a $219 program (and believe me it's worth every penny!) and the winner gets to pick from any of these 14 languages: Spanish (Spain or Latin America), English (American or British), Arabic, Chinese, Japanese, French, German, Italian, Portuguese, Irish, Hebrew, or Russian.
This will also include a headset with microphone, and students will participate in lifelike conversations and actually produce language to advance through the program. Rosetta Stone still incorporates listening, reading and writing as well, in addition to speaking. Many homeschoolers requested grammar and vocabulary exercises, and with Rosetta Stone Homeschool Version 3, they're included! For parents, the new Parent Administrative Tools are integrated into the program and allow parents to easily enroll students in any of 12 predetermined lesson plans, monitor student progress, and view and print reports.
To win this most excellent program -- in the language of your choice -- copy these (blue) paragraphs and post it in (or as) your next blog post -- then to enter the contest, go to the original contest page HERE: http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/JenIG/501132/ and leave a comment with the link showing where you blogged about it. And please make sure the link works to get back to the original contest page when you post it. And good luck! The winner will be picked randomly on March 26, and will be notified thru the link they left to their blog pg. And if you have more than one blog, you can post them and enter those separately for more chances to win. Yay for free stuff!
Grace and Peace,
Angel (EEEEMommy) :) |
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Feb. 10, 2008 - Moving On |
I'm filled with a little bit of sadness as I write this post. As some of you have already discovered, I've begun a new blog at blogspot, and have been double posting for the past couple of weeks while I play with colors and add links and personalize it. I've enjoyed the almost 2 years that I've spent here at HSB immensely, and have been blessed by so many friendships. Some of those have even resulted in real life friendships which I cherish!
I love the sense of community here at HSB, and the ability to click on Random Blogger and get a peak into the lives of homeschoolers all over the country. I never realized how much of an impact blogging would have on my life, but I sensed the potential that this forum had at the beginning, which is what led me to choose to begin at HSB. Now that I've learned a little html (or at least how to copy), I'd probably have been content to stay here indefinitely, even though many of my friends have switched to blogger already over the past year. But the one friend who I have known longer than any other, and who stood beside me at the altar, has been unable to access my HSB blog for some unknown reason, so she's the reason that I finally decided to make the change myself.
But, heh, it's not like I'm moving far! You'll all be able to access my new blog just as easily, and I'm accepting annonymous comments, so you don't even have to create a blogger account to leave me a comment. Just be sure to sign with your hsb name and I'll know who you are. I've added a whole list of links to my new blog. I tried not to omit anyone, but if for some reason I missed you, just let me know and I'll be sure to add you to the list. I already have most of you on my feed reader list, so I'll be sure to keep up with you as best as I can.
I owe you all a debt of gratitude for the support and encouragement that you've already given me here at HSB, and I hope that my move to blogger won't see the end of that. You're the best imaginary friends a girl could ever ask for! ;)
Please come check out my new blog here. And be sure to update your links, and your bloglines subscriptions, or whatever with my new feed and link. Thanks!
Grace and Peace,
Angel |
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Feb. 9, 2008 - Cheddar Chicken Chowder |
This is my second installment of my imaginary Suptuous Soups Saturday meme. :) If you'd like to post your own recipe, please leave a comment letting us know.
If you haven't tried my Italian Sausage and Tortellini Soup yet, you're missing out!
Visit MasonMoments for Stuffed Green Pepper Soup, and
ConservaChick for Fresh Green Pea Soup & Cottage Cheese Bread (it sounds weird, but we tried it last Saturday and liked it, despite the fact that the soup wasn't puréed completely since my blender started smoking!)
I'll be honest with you; I don't get into diet food! Give me a little bit of the real thing, and I'll be much more satisfied than with more of the "light/lowfat" version. But when a recipe comes from Cooking Light, and lets me use bacon and cheddar cheese, I'm all in! :)
This was a recipe that I got from a friend who was on Weight Watchers, but who also loved to cook gourmet. (She made the best cookies!) She loved that she could eat such a large, satifying, serving. I've been making it for several years now, and it's one of my favorite soups. I'm not even fond of peppers, but the red peppers in this soup add a wonderful color and flavor; even the kids eat them without complaint. I will say that the bacon is what makes the soup. Without it, it's a decent soup, but the bacon is what gives it the edge over other soups for me. (When I made it last week I didn't have any bacon, and while it was still really yummy, I was disappointed.) This soup is comfort food at its best...simply delicious!
Cheddar Chicken Chowder
Source:"Cooking Light, December 1996, p.85
2 bacon slices
Cooking spray
1 pound skinned, boned chicken breast -- cut into bite-size pieces
1 cup chopped onion
1 cup diced red bell pepper
2 garlic cloves -- minced
4 1/2 cups fat-free chicken broth
1 3/4 cups diced peeled red potatoes
2 1/4 cups frozen whole-kernel corn
1/2 cup all-purpose flour
2 cups 2% low-fat milk
3/4 cup (3 ounces) shredded Cheddar cheese
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon pepper
Cook bacon in a Dutch oven coated with cooking spray over medium-high heat until crisp. Remove bacon from pan. Crumble; set aside. Add chicken, onion, bell pepper, and garlic to bacon fat in pan; sauté 5 minutes. Add broth and potatoes; bring to boil. Cover, reduce heat, and simmer 20 minutes or until potatoes are tender. Add corn; stir well. Place flour in a bowl. Gradually add milk, stirring with a whisk until blended; add to soup. Cook over medium heat 15 minutes or until thick, stirring frequently. Stir in cheese, salt, and pepper. Top with crumbled bacon.
Servings 7, Serving Size: 1 1/2 cups
Per Serving (excluding unknown items): 306 Calories; 7.5g Fat (22% calories from fat); 25g Protein; 33.7g Carbohydrate; 2.9g Dietary Fiber; 58mg Cholesterol; 376mg Sodium. Exchanges: 1 1/2 Grain(Starch); 3 1/2 Lean Meat; 1/2 Vegetable; 1/2 Non-Fat Milk; 1 Fat.
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Feb. 8, 2008 - Joy Comes in the Morning by Abiding |
"When he falls, he shall not be hurled headlong;
Because the LORD is the One who holds his hand." Psalm 37:24
Joy comes in the morning. The sun is shining, the pity party has ended, and I am blessed.
I appreciate the outpouring of love and encouragement after yesterday's depressing post. I was so blessed by imaginary playdates and e-mails and phone calls. You are all wonderful! Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Looking back, there are several root issues that brought on my desolate attitude: fatigue and exhaustion, disappointment, weather, confinement to my house, dehydration, poor nutrition, discouragement... But the biggest reason for emotional outburst is that in the midst of everything, in the time that I should be clinging to my Source, I had left my first love. I have been worried and bothered by so many things and have neglected the one thing that is necessary. When I should have been turning to Him, I was searching for others.
God often blesses us with others to encourage and challenge us. He designed us to function within the body of Christ. He encourages us to fellowship, to bear one another's burdens, to confess our sins one to another. All those "one another" verses are critical because he didn't create us to live in isolation. But He is the true vine, and we are called to abide in Him so that His joy may be in us and our joy may be made complete. Bottom line, I haven't been abiding. It's a serious issue that needs to be dealt with. I appreciate your prayers, and I challenge those of you who may be feeling the same way I was:
Are you abiding?
Grace and Peace,
Angel |
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Feb. 7, 2008 - A Hermit |
I just called a friend to cancel our Botany co-op.
She's sick, her kids are sick, my kids have been sick and they're still recovering.
I haven't gotten sick yet, but I'm drained from a week of being up through the night with sick kids.
It didn't make sense to meet.
Besides, I'm feeling grouchy and grumpy and like I could cry any minute.
Strike that, I am crying this minute.
I don't especially want anyone to come over...oh but I do.
I'm lonely and sad and desperately need a friend.
It's so easy for me to become a hermit. To get discouraged with life and crawl into my shell.
It's hard to keep making the effort. To keep reaching out.
It's easier to hibernate.
It's cold and dreary and I'm so tired.
I wish I could hibernate....oh but I don't.
I'm lonely and sad and desperately need a friend.
I appear so confident.
I appear to have so many friends.
Then people assume that I don't need their friendship.
They assume I have other friends, so they don't call, they don't write, they don't comment.
If only they realized how much I long to be friends with them.
I'm lonely and sad and I desperately need a friend.
I'm sure I'm the same way.
I assume people are too busy; I don't want to bother them with my phone calls.
Sometimes they are too busy!
I assume people have friends, and that they're all getting together to do all kinds of friend stuff together.
Maybe they aren't.
Maybe they're lonely like me.
In my sadness and desperation, I've been turning to the computer.
I try to think of clever things to say.
I try to write endearing posts, and leave encouraging comments in the hopes that people will reciprocate.
I pray that their comments will somehow fill the void.
And then few people comment.
It's just as discouraging as when I finally pick up the phone to call someone only to get their answering machine.
So I want to be even more of a hermit, to shut down the machine, and walk away...oh but I don't.
I'm just sad and lonely and desperately want a friend.
Even when you do leave comments, I want more.
It's not enough.
I want to dialogue and debate.
I want to know what you really think.
I want to make you laugh and cry all at the same time.
I want to spend hours with you!
Blogging is so unsatisfying.
It would be nice if the sun would come out.
It's not so easy to be a hermit on a warm spring day.
When kids aren't sick, and everyone is looking for an excuse to go outside.
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Feb. 6, 2008 - Are imaginations a gift of God too? |
I wonder, does having a vivid imagination make it easier to have faith?
Of course I know that faith is the gift of God; I'm not intending to be heretical or blasphemous...I'm just pondering. Are imaginations a gift of God too?
I don't have any difficulty having faith in God's protection; it's quite easy for me to imagine angels in tents around my house. Is it more challenging to believe in angels if your imagination is lacking?
Does the ability to envision fairies and elves enable you to grasp the reality of an unseen God who created the world with a Word? Does curiosity about gnomes and goblins make it easier to acknowledge the real existence of angels and demons? Does fancying that pixie dust can make you fly prepare your mind to accept miracles?
Has God given us imaginations so that we can dream about what Heaven looks like? Are we able to grasp its existence and aspire to someday dwell there because we once dreamed of beautiful palaces in far off lands, or enchanted cottages?
Is there a connection at all between faith and imagination?
For me, it is a delight that although I've had to grow up and recognize that there are no such things as leprechauns; I don't have to stop believing in streets paved with gold and a Savior seated at the right hand of the Father. Because there really, truly is such a wonderful place as Heaven, and I know that I'm going there someday! Someday I shall see my Bridegroom face to face. Someday I'll live with Him for all eternity. And if I use my imagination, I can almost picture it....
And he carried me away in the spirit to a great and high mountain, and shewed me that great city, the holy Jerusalem, descending out of heaven from God,
Having the glory of God: and her light was like unto a stone most precious, even like a jasper stone, clear as crystal;
And had a wall great and high, and had twelve gates, and at the gates twelve angels, and names written thereon, which are the names of the twelve tribes of the children of Israel:...
And the building of the wall of it was of jasper: and the city was pure gold, like unto clear glass. And the foundations of the wall of the city were garnished with all manner of precious stones. The first foundation was jasper; the second, sapphire; the third, a chalcedony; the fourth, an emerald;
The fifth, sardonyx; the sixth, sardius; the seventh, chrysolite; the eighth, beryl; the ninth, a topaz; the tenth, a chrysoprasus; the eleventh, a jacinth; the twelfth, an amethyst.
And the twelve gates were twelve pearls; every several gate was of one pearl: and the street of the city was pure gold, as it were transparent glass.
And I saw no temple therein: for the Lord God Almighty and the Lamb are the temple of it. And the city had no need of the sun, neither of the moon, to shine in it: for the glory of God did lighten it, and the Lamb is the light thereof.
And the nations of them which are saved shall walk in the light of it: and the kings of the earth do bring their glory and honour into it.
And the gates of it shall not be shut at all by day: for there shall be no night there.
And they shall bring the glory and honour of the nations into it.
And there shall in no wise enter into it any thing that defileth, neither whatsoever worketh abomination, or maketh a lie: but they which are written in the Lamb's book of life.
Revelation 21:10-12, & 18-27 |
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Feb. 4, 2008 - Eli's Time to Shine |
If anyone is wondering how the New York Giants were able to upset the undefeated New England Patriots, I've got your answer.

In honor of the occassion, my father pulled out this vintage 1986 Giants World Champion sweater. Looks like something from the eighties, doesn't it? Being collectors, there's hardly anything that we ever owned that my parent's don't still possess somewhere in their house. This gem was on the bottom of a pile of clothes in my parents' bedroom. And you must agree that it's priceless! Did I mention it's a sweater? I wish I could still fit into a sweater I owned in 1986 (I was 11), don't you? :)
Although it would have been fabulous if our Colts could have made it to the Superbowl again (can you imagine (Manning v. Manning on Superbowl Sunday); and though we would have cheered our hearts out for Brett Favre (Go, Pack!), we're thrilled for Peyton's little brother. We didn't have quite as much fun this year as we did at last year's party, but we still had a great time shouting, "Boo, Patriots!" and I was on the edge of my seat with flushed cheeks and a knot in my stomach until Eli through that pass to Plaxico, and then I jumped up and down and screamed as if it had been Reggie Wayne in the endzone. :) And did you see the pride in Peyton's eyes for his little brother? Pardon me, I'm verklempt.
It was a great game, and a wonderful time with family. I'm sure the Mannings are celebrating now! Congrats, Giants! Congrats, Eli! It was your turn to shine, and shine you did! Back to back brothers as Superbowl MVPs....very cool! |
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Feb. 2, 2008 - Italian Sausage and Tortellini Soup |
So I had this great idea that since February is National Soup Month, I'd post some of my favorite soup recipes on Saturdays through the end of February, and call it something clever like Sumptuous Soups Saturday, and make my own little button, and put up a Mr. Linky, and we can all swap our recipes. Sounds like a ton of fun, right? Well, as it turns out, JANUARY is National Soup Month, and I missed it. It figures. I also haven't the time to figure out how to make one of those cute little buttons, and I doubt I have the artistic talent, so it's a no go. However, since I know how disappointed you all are to hear the news, and since I do have some splendid soup recipes, and since it happens to be Saturday, I figure I'll share them anyway, with or without a clever little title. And if you have any desire to bless me with your own soup recipes, please do! When it's cold and gloomy, there's nothing more comforting that a rich bowl of soup with bread. Better yet: bread bowl soup! Yummy! I love creamy soups especially! So do share, if you please! Just leave a comment with a link to your post if you decide to post one. :)
Now, for a family favorite we enjoyed just this week. I got this recipe from my mother-in-law and tweaked it until it was better than any soup you can get at the Olive Garden! It's that good! It's full of heartiness and flavor and is delicious with Sourdough or Italian bread. Enjoy!
Italian Sausage and Tortellini Soup
1lb. sweet Italian Sausage, casing removed
1 cup onion, chopped
16 oz thinly sliced favorite mushrooms (I mix one 8oz package of white with 1 8oz package of baby bella)
2 large cloves garlic, minced
1 ½ cup dry red wine
1/2 Tbsp. dried basil
1/2 Tbsp. dried oregano
¼ tsp. ground black pepper
6 cups beef broth or (6 beef bullion cubes and 6 cups water)
1 (16oz) can whole tomatoes, undrained and chopped
1 (8 oz) can tomato sauce
olive oil
2 medium zucchini, sliced
1 large carrot, thinly sliced (or a handful of baby carrots diced into chunks)
20 oz. fresh or 10oz dry cheese tortellini (I use Buitoni's from the refridgerated section)
Sauté sausage, onion, and garlic in Dutch oven/large saucepan over med-high heat until cooked through. Add sliced mushrooms and olive oil (if necessary) and sauté until mushrooms begin to soften. Add spices and wine. Simmer for about 10-15 minutes, allowing wine to reduce, stirring occassionally and scraping the bottom of the pan. (Sometimes I do this much the night before, and put it in the fridge overnight so that the flavors meld.) Add broth, tomatoes (with juice), tomato sauce, and carrots. Bring to a boil, reduce heat and simmer 40 minutes, or until vegetables are tender. [At this point, soup may be covered and refrigerated for up to 2 days (or frozen for longer)---which allows the flavors to meld beautifully]. In a separate pan, sauté zucchini in olive oil until soft. Return soup to boil, add sautéed zucchini and tortellini to soup and cook until tortellini is tender: approximately 10-12 minutes. Season to taste with salt and pepper, garnish with sprinkled Parmesan cheese. Serve with thick-crusted bread (sourdough or Italian), and a glass of red wine if you like. Enjoy!
Note: This soup is very forgiving, feel free to omit the veggies you do not like, add others (like peppers), decrease the wine or substitute (when I made it this week, I realized I didn't have any red wine, so I used sparkling grape juice and white cooking wine, it was a little sweeter than normal, but it worked), increase the garlic, adjust the amount of spices to your taste, add more liquid if it's too chunky (I like chunky!),...any way you make it, it's simply delicious! |
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