My Journey - A new perspective

My Journey

Mar. 10, 2006

A new perspective

It seems the Lord has been changing my thinking on some things over the past year. I never thought my thinking on these things would change because I felt they were a part of who I was. As I see these changes happening in me I am sure of where they are coming from. I was okay with where I was but apparently the Lord wasn't.

I have always liked darkness. I like dark rainy days. I don't like the lights on in the house until I can't see what I am doing any more. I love the winter because there is more darkness than light. For some reason darkness seemed comforting and relaxing.

I am not big on going outside, especially in the winter. I love the look of the outside in the winter but I don't really want to go out and play in it. I don't venture out in the summer much either. Rarely do I go outside with my dc. I don't like working with the flowers or gardening much because I don't want to be outside, in the sun, getting sweaty and dirty.

Another thing I never thought would change is my dislike for going to Florida and being at the beach. I would have rather gone to Michigan in the winter or to the mountains. I would have enjoyed sitting by a fire drinking hot chocolate instead of sitting on the beach and being sticky and sandy.

For some reason over the past year I have seen my thinking change on all of these things.

I have turned the lights on more often this winter and am actually enjoying it. I love the sunny days and feel so much more alive and awake on those days. The dark damp days are affecting me more this winter than they usually are.

I have enjoyed going out more. I love the fresh air and how I feel when I am out. I love looking at all that God has made and want to be out in it. I spent a lot of time on my porch swing this past summer which is something I never would have done before. I also enjoyed working in my flower bed the entire summer and am very excited about having a garden again this year.

I have also desired to go to Florida. I want to be in the water, on the beach, feel the breeze...We had to go to Florida for my husband's grandma's funeral in November and I made sure we got to the beach. It was only for 15 minutes on the day we flew home but I felt so refreshed. I even have a picture of that day on my desktop. Ask my family and they will tell you this is a total turn around.

It seems that as I have grown closer to the Lord He has changed my perspective on these things. I never intended to change these things and truly felt they were who I was. It has been fascinating to see what the Lord is doing in my life with areas I am not even asking Him to work in. Imagine what He can do when I ask for changes. He truly is an awesome God!!

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Mar. 11, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by OreoSouza

This is amazing to me!! I want to look back and see what the Lord has changed in my perspectives over the year. Wow. This is so neat!

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Mar. 12, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by MSAcademy

How wonderful that God has opened up your eyes to new and wonderful things. I was like you - especially with the whole winter thing. I still love a good dismal rainy day though once in a while - to sit back, read and enjoy a nice cup of tea or coffee. Ahh!! Enjoy your garden this summer. We have to re-plant our entire yard this spring (our construction workers totally trashed the lawn!!!), so I'm looking forward to watching the Lord's handiwork spring up everywhere...I'm sure He'll need me to do the weeding though. hee hee

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Mar. 16, 2006 - Hi there!

Posted by Mommy2myBlessings

Hello!

This is Jenni from Church. I was doing a random blog search and found your blog...it looks great! I have one on here too...it is called The Full Quiver Homeschool House and you can find it here... http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/Mommy2myBlessings

Come by and check it out! See you soon!

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Mar. 17, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by rerlpr

I too seem to prefer more darkness than light. I don't want many windows and those I like covered. I never want to go outside and forget working outdoors in the summer time! but I've noticed since we built on a lr almost 5 years ago (it has 4 extremely large windows that have very little *coverings* on them) that my moods of depression don't seem to come quite as often.
What an amazing story you've shared here!
Leslie

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Mar. 22, 2006 - random blogger

Posted by emmaus

I sat this afternoon and hit the random blogger for a while. You came up twice so I figured it was a 'sign' and I should reply. I can't believe I found someone I know on a random blog---twice!

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Mar. 23, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by Janne

Wow!

I have always been very negatively affected by cold and darkness. Living in Florida this year, it has been the first time I have really felt "energized".

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Mar. 24, 2006 - Sounds Wonderful

Posted by dawilli

It is good to be pretty self-aware. Not to over analyze things, but to know where you've been and what the Lord has brought you to.
Enjoy the journey,
ali

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Mar. 28, 2006 - Thanks for sharing :)

Posted by TheFruitfulVineHomeschool

God is faithful to those who diligently seek Him.

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About Me

I am a mom of 6 dc living in the heart of the country. This is my effort at journalling what happens in our home and what the Lord is teaching myself and our family.