Let's Get Real - So Much to Say -- So Little Time!

Let's Get Real

Jan. 31, 2007

So Much to Say -- So Little Time!

It's been a long time since I logged in and blogged. (Or should that read blogged in?)

Things have been very busy around here. But today we had a snow day! That meant no cottage school. I got to stay home with just my own kids and make pancakes and read books and play! It was a good day.

There have been so many things I've thought to share with you. But one thing I want to share before I forget is about my little granddaughter at the Christmas program. Something she did made me think.

She was 19 months at the time of the program. She was Mary in the nativity play and another little boy in the church was Joseph. They were chosen to be Mary and Joseph this time because both of them in the two prior years had been baby Jesus. Isn't that cute?

Anyway, during the play everyone goes in before Mary and Joseph -- they came in later. My granddaughter pitched a royal fit because she couldn't get up on stage sooner! She was having a tantrum while we were singing "Hark the Herald Angels Sing!" It was funny, but it reminded me far too much of me in my life.

How many times do I want to hurry up and do something God knows is not yet the right time for me to do so? I get all worked up because things aren't happening fast enough, when if I would just calm down and listen, I would learn that when the time is right, I'll get to do it! But if I do it at the wrong time, it won't be in the flow of His Big Picture.

Another thing I've learned recently that I want to share is something God had to show me about forgiveness.

My adult son did something recently that broke my heart. He did it and he knew that his father and I disapproved of it. I cried over it. I was so upset with him. But a few Sundays ago when we were having communion at church, I knew I needed to forgive my son in order to be right with God.

And God began to show me that I am not my son's conscience, and I am certainly not his Holy Spirit.

I am trying to place my son and his choices in God's hands and not worry about it. I am trying to release him and trust God with my son's life. Not that I didn't before, but there's still that part of me that sees my son as that little boy that is still a part of me.

It has been hard letting go. But with God's grace -- I'll make it!

So much to say! So little time! I'll try harder to be more regular here!

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Jan. 31, 2007 - I feel your pain

Posted by ktneis

I was just thinking the other day about how to keep them from turning into adults. They are sometimes too young and inexperienced for this cruel life. But I have seen God work in my older sons. I worry and get sick over them and then one day God gave me the peace I was seeking. I cannot control any of their decisions I gave them all I had when they were growing up and now God is letting them learn from their mistakes. I have to learn to love them from a distance, this is new and its not easy. My preist has been helping me do this. i will pray for your family and for you to let it go and to accept what you cannot change, just pray. The bloggers that prayed for us are awesome.

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Jan. 31, 2007 - Untitled Comment

Posted by Majormom

Adult children, that's a tough one for me. I need to keep my mouth shut. After HSing him forever it's hard to watch what happens at the Juco without speaking out. What a joke the education system there is. I could really get on my soap box over it. I guess HS mom's never die.

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