As a mother of adult children (and three still at home) I am so discouraged at times -- feeling like, what's the point? Where's the fruit of my labor? Did I not obey God and raise my children in the way of the Lord? What did I do wrong? Why are these things happening? Why do some adult children make choices that are so far from what they were taught?
I really don't know.
I don't know if it's genetic, or socio-economic, or if I.Q. has something to do with it. But the fact is, some kids who are home schooled grow up and do amazing things! And the sad fact is, some kids who are homeschooled grow up and disappoint their parents.
There's no way of knowing whether or not the rebels who are home schooled would be more rebellious if they weren't home schooled. I come from a very long line of strong-willed people. My ancestors risked their lives in Russia and Germany to come to this country, to fight in the Revolutionary war, and to head as far west as Oregon as pioneers. Is that same fortitude in my adult children that causes them to venture where I don't think they should? Would they venture even further had they not been home schooled? I really don't know.
I keep thinking back to the Garden of Eden. Adam and Eve, who had a perfect Father, chose to do wrong.
The more my adult children find their own walk with the Lord, and make choices I don't agree with, the more I am beginning to realize that the devil wants to destroy me, my faith, my beliefs, and my ideals. Sometimes he uses my children as his tools. Yes, it is up to my children to decide whether or not to be that tool in the hands of the devil. But I really believe that home schooled, Christian kids, can be under a greater attack of the enemy than children who are not a threat to him and his kingdom.
We must not let the devil have the victory. We must keep praying positive prayers over our children! Our children ARE blessed and ARE serving the Lord by faith in the Name of Jesus! We need to take authority over the devil and his slimy schemes in the spirit realm in the Name of Jesus, and command him to leave our children alone.
Now that they are grown, all we can do now is pray with faith. Wringing our hands and worrying accomplishes nothing. Butting in and causing strife isn't productive. We have to find the spiritual fortitude to stand up, take our rightful place before the Lord and by the blood of Christ, command the evil forces to stay away from our children! We must believe in God's protection and pray Psalm 91 and other scripture daily over them and ourselves. We cannot give in to fear because fear is the opposite of faith.
I am preaching to myself, dear friends! I find myself too often being discouraged and teary eyed and angry about the choices my adult children make. When really, I need to get angry at the DEVIL and tell him to leave my children ALONE because I have dedicated them to the Lord and they are HIS and HIS ALONE!
It's not that my children are more horrible sinners than I am. I am a sinner saved by grace, too. I just wonder why they make certain choices when they were taught so differently? Why have they succumbed to the world's values in certain areas when we taught them what was truly important? Is it because we were poor and in the ministry? Do they resent not having the things their friends had? Didn't I teach them what really mattered? Didn't those lessons get through?
I honestly do not know.
I must get myself to the point where I am standing on God's Promises and not giving in to the devil's schemes to give up on this great fight for the souls of our chidlren. My prayers cannot be hindered where my children are concerned because in this culture they need those prayers desperately!
STAND! We must STAND and not faint when it comes to fighting the enemy! Faint not! Oh, Lord, give me grace and build my faith!
Ephesians 6:11,13,14



