Feb. 27, 2006
I Resent This, God!
Romans 9:15-19:
For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I. If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. For
I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for
to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I
find not.
For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.
I messed up again today. Nothing new, of course. I am a good example of the verses above!
I was scrubbing down my stove, resenting the fact
that I am the only one in this house that recognizes the need to
clean. Poor widdle ol' me.
God is never surprised by how we feel, so I really believe it's okay
with Him to tell Him about what we're thinking and feeling.
I'm sure He must get weary sometimes of my
whining! How many books has He given me to read about having a
sweet godly attitude? How many sermons have I heard? Tapes
have I listened to? I know exactly what it takes to be a Titus
2-dyed-in-the-wool-Proverbs-31-Woman.
But just becaue it's in my head doesn't mean it's in my heart!
As you know, I'm trying to get back on my feet after
being sick for two weeks. The house is scary! And I was
feeling sorry for myself and grumbling to the Lord about how I resented
this and resented that and blah blah blah. Finally, I guess when
God thought I'd had my say, He spoke to me in a voice as soft as a
caress:
"If you want to be great in my kingdom, be a servant."
Ouch.
Why had I forgotten that one? I thought at one
time in my life I'd had that one figured out already! Why do I
have to go around this mountain again?
So,
I began to hum a tune I know that goes with that phrase, but still
thoughts came into my mind such as, "You know, God, I could be
researching a cure for cancer or winning a fashion design contest, or
writing the next blockbuster novel instead of scrubbing this stove. .
.I mean, there are only so many hours in my day, and do you really
think scrubbing a stove day in and day out is worthy of my time?"
Again that caress. Again that still small voice:
"No greater love have you than this than you lay down your life for others."
Double ouch.
You should see the shine on that stove!
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Feb. 27, 2006 - You've been TAGGED!
 Posted by Titus2woman
I haven't gotten around to reading yet~I wanted to quickly TAG ya! (and this looks like a post that's right up my alley!)
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Feb. 27, 2006 - Hey!
 Posted by friends4tea
Hi Karla,
Enjoy your clean oven! That's a smelly dirty all day task - but at least it feels good to have a clean oven to cook in when it's all over.
I spent all day getting rid of those red X's on my website the other day and you must've popped on by right after I was done - which I'm glad of! I'm learning so much! I'd love to help you out with your blog if you'd like me too!
Blessings,
Leah
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Feb. 27, 2006 - housework and health issues
 Posted by danib
Thanks for dropping by my blog, Karla. How'd you find me, if I may ask? Always interesting to find out ...
I enjoyed all your posts about housework. I sympathize -- I was set on architecture since childhood and have actually been involved in it ever since to some degree, but when God thinks I'm getting a bit big for my britches, He puts me in a housekeeping position (I've worked at a motel, at the front desk of a res hall with guest rooms, and more recently in a bed and breakfast!). I too go through days (weeks? months?) of self-pity over the sheer enormity of the mess in my home. And then I too face gentle rebuke from the Lord -- usually through my sweet dh.
We found a saying we want to post at our door -- a clean house is a sign of a wasted life!!! ; )
I understand how difficult life can be with health issues of any kind. I'm a type-1 diabetic of about 25 years and am severely anemic, my hubby has had his colon removed, and our daughter was 8 weeks early and seems to be somewhat ADD (though I refuse to have her diagnosed). Meals are impossible to plan until last minute when we know how everyone is doing, and we live so by-the-seat-of-our-pants that there's always a disaster.
Believe me, having the opportunity to blog about this stuff is so healing ... and hearing that I'm not the only one is so comforting.
Thanks for that.
Dani
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