Posted in The Beauty Of Gods Provision

I woke up today very weepy for some reason.  I couldn't shake it, so I went downstairs and put on some worship music.  Usually when I get this way the Lord is pressing on my heart to intercede for someone.  I needed to find out who that person was, so I spent some good quality time with the Lord, albeit short, but quality none-the-less, yet I still didn't know who I was weeping for .  Weepy, weepy why I am so weepy?  Deep well of tears flowing! I decide to make a doctor appointment because I had a problem that popped up with my shoulder, which was causing quite a bit of pain.

So I went about my day as normal and then headed for my doctor's appointment at 3:30 p.m. I couldn't shake this weepiness, and it got stronger as I headed to the doc's office.  Then as soon as my doctor walked in the office I knew why . . . it all became so clear . . .

I was weeping for him! 

His head was shaven, eyes sunken in, cheek bones protruding and he looked thinner than I have ever seen him.  He is about my age, and this once strong, healthy, man - an avid runner, was now a lifeless shell.  He wouldn't tell me what was going on and avoided eye-contact and any potential for conversation altogether, so I patiently kept quiet and listened carefully for God's leading - being ever so careful, as I shared why I was in his office that day.  At the end of my appointment, when I was able to fully capture his gaze, I looked him in the eye and said, "It's Cancer isn't it?"  He said yes and bowed his head slightly, eyes down.  He allowed me to ask questions, and then slowly began to open up and share his story with me.  As an avid runner he was very "in-tune" to his body and when his hip started hurting he went to get it checked.  After some lengthy lab photos he found out he had a few tumors that were in his hip. It is an aggressive Lymphoma Cancer which has had him on Chemotherapy since the summer. I shared a few words with him and let him know we were praying for him and that he is to expect victory. There was so much more on my heart to share with him, but not enough time. He was very grateful for our conversation and thanked me. 

However it didn't end there . . . as soon as I got home Hubby was there and I shared with him what happened.  He led me to the living room and we went right into intercession for this man who the Lord wanted to reach in a mighty way.  When we were done the weepiness ended and joy returned.  Although we are going to continue to pray for our dear doc, we know God is already working on his behalf.  When God calls the intercessors it isn't always with an alarm and loud shout . . . sometimes it comes through weeping. That sweet, precious oil that flows from the throne room of God into the depths of our spirits, trickling ever so gently until it flows freely.  I am humbled and so honored to be able to pray for this man that God has brought into our lives.  We are believing for his complete healing, restoration and ultimate salvation and testimony of faith within the medical community.  To God Be The Glory.

The next time you feel weepy, maybe God is pulling you to pray for someone . . .ask Him and He will show you. We forget that sometimes when we go through suffering or pain it can be for a higher purpose, and in this case I believe the Lord allowed me to have a need to go to the doc so I could reach him and let him know there is hope in the midst of his horrible trial with cancer. 

There is a precious and very wise woman at our church who was recently diagnosed with breast cancer, and she asked the Lord, "Why?  Why at this time in my life when things are so wonderful, and I am serving you so faithfully?" He said to her . . . "You said Lord do whatever it  takes to bring my son back to YOU." 

We forget that our bodies are the Lord's, and sometimes, yes sometimes He will allow sickness or disease, and even suffering so that in the end he can bring beauty, healing and restoration of all things.  ;-)

 ". . . for he saith, At an acceptable time I hearkened unto thee, And in a day of salvation did I succor thee: behold, now is the acceptable time; behold, now is the day of salvation: giving no occasion of stumbling in anything, that our ministration be not blamed; but in everything commending ourselves, as ministers of God, in much patience, in afflictions, in necessities, in distresses, in stripes, in imprisonments, in tumults, in labors, in watchings, in fastings; in pureness, in knowledge, in long suffering, in kindness, in the Holy Spirit, in love unfeigned, in the word of truth, in the power of God; by the armor of righteousness on the right hand and on the left . . . " 2 Corinthians 6:2-7

Are you willing to do whatever it takes?  Whew . . . sobering, pure, hard reality, yet in pain and suffering we also see God's amazing grace, through faith. He is with us through it all, never leaving us alone and showing forth His amazing comfort through the Holy Spirit, holding us close . . . ever close, until the day of complete restoration.

God is so faithful, true and good and He LOVES each one! After all . . . He gave His only Son, Jesus Christ so we could have everlasting life.  The ultimate sacrifice!

<>< Kelly