Aug. 11, 2008
3 Months Now
Today is now 3 months since dad passed away. The days go by so fast and some so slow. We celebrated my daughter, Hannah's b-day on the 3rd of this month. Even though we had a good time it was also kinda sad cause dad wasn't there. I know he was here in our hearts.
There are times that we are talking and having a good time talking bout dad like he was on the side of us and there are times that we start and then we just sit and cry.
Oh, how I wish that he was still here with us. There is so much that I still need dad to show me how to do this and that around the house. He would not only show me, he would make me do it, cause he would say that he will not always be around to do it for me. Little did I know that it would have been this soon.
Not to much else to say that God Is Good All The Time. I'll have pictures later of Hannah's b-day.
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Jul. 11, 2008
In Heaven
This is something that I found and wanted to put up for my kids. Today is 2 months that dad was killed by a drunk driver. Times I'm sitting and waiting for him to come home but that is not gonna happen cause he is already home. He is with our Heavenly Father, Jesus. When I saw this picture is just did something to me and had to post it. Love ya and thanks for all the prayers.
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Jul. 2, 2008
My Mom
This entry will be dedicated to my mom who is a strong, awesome woman of God.
My mom is an awesome woman. She has been the strong one of the family. She might not think she is.
She has kept this family together. She has also helped me not to hate the guy that killed my dad. I had so much hatred that if he would still be alive I would go and give him a piece of my mind. But I can’t cause he is gone.
She has been a wonderful wife, mother, grandmother, sister, aunt, sister-in-law and so on. She has blessed so many people that she doesn’t even know it. For the funeral, right before it was finished she went up and call all of her kids and spoke maybe for 15 minutes and those 15 minutes was awesome. She ministered on how wives if you love your husbands tell them that cause you never know when it will be the last you hear from them. When she was finished she had a standing ovation. She said that it was God. I believe her cause she had a speech all prepared and she didn’t even use it.
Since we have been home, she has blessed us. She has ministered to us. She has shown us how to love her mate till the end. She still loves him and it hurts to see her in so much pain. A lot of times she is so strong that her emotions don’t show, but there are days that we talk and then cry cause it hurts so much that I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.
My days have been sitting around mom and absorbing her love for God and for her family. I keep thinking that this is a nightmare and that we will wake up and dad will be walking in the door saying “What’s for supper? And sorry that I worried everybody and that I was alright.” And then I realize that day will never happen again. But I know that I will see him again and I will still be able to learn the stuff that he wasn’t able to show me.
My 6 year old daughter had a dream one nite not long after dad’s accident. That her and Grandpa was sitting in a hallway and that they were visiting each other and that he told her to let us know that he was alright and not to worry that he was in a better place and that he was not hurting and that he loves us and he will see us soon. And then she got up and started walking away and that she was crying and that her heart was hurting. And then he went away. So when I’m down and out I think of her dream and have reassurance that I will see him.
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