I can't tell what kind of mood I am in, and whether it is good or bad. I think it's mostly bad.

  As you probably know, I am moving...actually, today, although I will say tomorrow  because it's only 1 o'clock in the morning.

  Texas awaits me...Now, I must say, I love Texas, and I have awesome cousins and all kinds of family there...the guys are sweeter, the food is better, and the people are nicer...even the houses are cheaper. But I'm going to miss my friends SO FRICKIN' MUCH!!!

  Today was a strange day for me. I got up. One of my best girlfriends and my (most trusted, and safe) guy friend, Willy, had stayed the night the night before. He had to go to work early the next morning, so his mom picked him up while I was still 3/4s asleep, and my girlfriend and I slept for 2 more hours or so.

  When we finally awoke, I walked aimlessly around the house, doing little jobs my mom gave me to get ready to move. Tayva was actually the one to give me the  most direction about what to do, seeing as I was so disoriented I could hardly think for myself.

  A bit later on, I threw on some strange clothes, and hopped in the car with my  mom, The Tinas, and Tayva. We dropped Tayva off at Mountain View Diner to be picked up by her parents, then went to Taco Bell and a few other places to do some light grocery shopping...The adults were about to go pick up a prescription or something when one of them suggested I go to Willy's work (he works at a coffee shop) and hang out for a few minutes. Seeing as the alternative was to stand around a drugstore, and I wanted to spend as much time with my friends as I could, I opted for the coffee shop.

  I ordered a Chai Smoothie, made by Willy himself, and got introduced to some of his coworkers. They were all really nice. Apparently his boss has no flaws as well, lol...I envy him.

  Anyways. When he got off work and our moms came to pick us up, they took us back to my house for a little while. The time I spent there was spent loading up the truck, hanging out and laughing with some of my close guy friends. It was around that time that I figured out that once I left for Brenna's house and stayed the night, I wasn't going back to my house...that was going to be the last time I saw it. So my sister and I went through the rooms and said goodbye...naming memories that happened in each of them. I was nearly in tears by the time we got out...then I hugged my friends, and when I got in the car with Brenna's mom (Ms. Carol) I was just sobbing my EYES OUT!!!

  Kaitlyn, Kullen and I sobbed all the way back to Brenna's house, and could barely stop ourselves, even as Ms. Carol tried to make light conversation to take our minds off of anything depressing.

  When we arrived, we reminisced, received gifts, looked through scrapbooks, and ate REALLY good food.

  After all of that, we left for youth group at the Bridge. The lesson really helped me deal with some 'prejudices' I have towards Mexicans. I don't think all Hispanic people are evil, or nasty, or anything like that...It's just hard for me because of past experiences to look at a Hispanic male without a red flag going up in my head. I try not to let it happen, because I know it's a prejudice, and tonight's lesson dealt with that.

  After class, I hugged some of the friends I'd made at the Bridge, and we left for DQ, where we spent an hour or so hanging out and saying our last goodbyes, then we came back to Brenna's house, and we just finished watching 'Mean Girls'.

  But anyway. Something that I learned today is that it's always hard to see the beginning of something beautiful when you're coming to the end of a great phase of your life...but God is the only one who knows. He's the Master Artist, and the only one with the ability to create something beautiful out of my life, and I may as well get used to changes while I'm still young, because while God is in control, my life is NEVER going to be predictable!