Listening to the Father's Voice.

Jun. 15, 2008
Immeasurable peace, joy and love

Posted in Fellowship with God

I haven't written in quite a while, so I thought, "I can't let my almost 13 year old son to 'out blog' me!"...lol.

Anyway, God has been amazingly good, as if you didn't already know that...hee hee.

His love is so deep! Here is how I explained it to someone recently. It is like standing on the edge of the Grand Canyon and looking down. Your depth of field gets thrown WAY off and you start feeling dizzy! God's love is just like and it is GREAT when you ask Him to show it too you. It is such a rush to just get a peek. Ask Him today, ask often, you will LOVE it and fall more deeply in love with Him. It has given me such confidence in His ability to provide, to care, to answer my prayers that I am overwhelmed with HIS peace.

"The amazing grace of the Master, Jesus Christ, the extravagant love of God, the intimate friendship of the Holy Spirit, be with all of you." 2Cor. 13:14 (The Message Bible)


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Feb. 16, 2008
The Good Wife's Guide...

Posted in Diving Deeper

I received the following in an email the other day. I have posted some of my thoughts on the subject after wards. Many of you may have already seen/read this before, I have. I personally find it a wonderful example of Jesus and his love through serving.

An Actual 1955 Good Housekeeping article. 

The Good Wife's Guide

 

* Have dinner ready.  Plan ahead, even the night before, to have a delicious meal ready, on time for his return.  This is a way of letting him know that you have been thinking about him and are concerned about his needs.  Most men are hungry when they come home and the prospect of a good meal (especially his favorite dish) is part of the warm welcome needed.

 

* Prepare yourself.  Take 15 minutes to rest so you'll be refreshed when he arrives.  Touch up your make-up, put a ribbon in your hair and be fresh looking.  HE has just been with a lot of work-weary people.

 

* Be a little gay and a little more interested for him.  His boring day may need a lift and one of your duties is to provide it.

 

* Clear away the clutter.  Make one last trip through the main part of the house just before your husband arrives.

 

* Gather up schoolbooks, toys, paper, etc and then run a dustcloth over the tables.

 

* Over the cooler months of the year you should prepare and light a fire for him to unwind by.  Your husband will feel he has reached a haven of rest and order, and it will give you a lift too.  After all, catering for his comfort will provide you with immense personal satisfaction.

 

* Prepare the children.  Take a few minutes to wash the children's hands and faces (if they are small), comb their hair and, if necessary, change their clothes.  They are little treasures and he would like to see them playing the part.  Minimise all noise.  At the time of his arrival, elimintate all noise of the washer, dryer or vacuum.  Try to encourage the children to be quiet.

 

* Be happy to see him.

* Greet him with a warm smile and show sincerity in your desire to please him.

 

*Listen to him.  You may have a dozen important things to tell him, but the moment of his arrival is not the time.  Let him talk first - remember, his topics of conversation are more important than yours.

 

* Make the evening his.  Never complain if he comes home late or goes out to dinner, or other places of entertainment without you.  Instead, try to understand his world of strain and pressure and his very real need to be at home and relax.

 

* Your goal:  Try to make sure your home is a place of peace, order and tranquillity where your husband can renew himself in body and spirit.

 

* Don't greet him with complaints and problems.

 

* Don't complain if he's late home for dinner or even if he stays out all night.  Count this as minor compared to what he might have gone through that day.

 

* Make him comfortable.  Have him lean back in a comfortable chair or have him lie down in the bedroom.  Have a cool or warm drink ready for him.

 

* Arrange his pillow and offer to take off his shoes.  Speak in a low, soothing and pleasant voice.

 

* Don't ask him questions about his actions or question his judgment or integrity.  Remember, he is the master of the house and as such will always exercise his will with fairness and truthfulness.  You have no right to question him.

* A good wife always knows her place.

 


I have seen this article more than once and sat listening to others criticize it with an "I am not letting my husband or any man walk all over me like that" attitude. I look at this a bit differently. We are to be servants, first to God and Christ, next to our husbands and then to our children and then everyone else falls in under that. I can understand how hard it can be to serve in a world with a "woman's lib" attitude (my mother, though a Christian, is of this attitude). I also can understand and see the cause of this attitude in others. Injustices done to them or their mothers of abuse and control (such as the case for my mother) can open the doors for the enemy to walk right in, set up and fortify the strong holds of independence, and self serving and then our desire to show our husbands respect (this is a love language for them ya know?) , as we are instructed to do in Eph. 5:33 (and see how effective it can be in 1 Peter 3:1-2) goes right out the window. When we do not show them respect, we begin the cycle of them not being able to show us love (also Eph. 5:33 and 1 Peter 3:7).
Some of you may be saying or thinking...I have done this and my husband has no desire to lay down his selfishness and honor me in any way. He never asks me how my day went. Even if he does, he doesn't really care to listen.I really do understand. I have been there and you know what? My retaliating got me NO WHERE. In fact it made matters worse! My husband slipped further into a shell. You see, my husband tends to be on the passive side of things. I tend to be on the aggressive side. You and your hubby may have reverse roles from this and he gets aggressive with you and you want to "turtle up" and quietly sit back and think "there is NO WAY I am going to try and serve him like this magazine article would suggest! He doesn't deserve it!" He may not deserve it, but Jesus has placed you in a situation of choice. You will step out and do it for Jesus?
Let me quote 1 Peter here; "In the same way, you wives must accept the authority of your husbands. Then, even if some refuse to obey the Good News, your godly lives will speak to them without any words. They will be won over by observing your pure and reverent lives. Don't be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God. This is how the holy women of old made themselves beautiful. They trusted God and accepted the authority of their husbands. For instance, Sarah obeyed her husband, Abraham, and called him her master. You are her daughters when you do what is right without fear of what your husbands might do." (1 Peter 3:1-6 NLT)
I do not believe this last statement about "what your husbands might do" was not implying you should allow physical abuse or place yourself or children in any danger. What the Lord has been showing me is, if I clothe myself with the beauty of the spirit, the more time I spend in His presence the more meek and quiet - at ease and not fretting or worrying - my spirit will be beautified due to the peace that would rule and reign there and my trust and security would be in God.
My provision comes from God, not my husband. My comfort comes from God, not my husband. My daily concerns are left at the feet of God, not my husband. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is caring for me and all I need will come from him. That nothing my husband does will remove God's hand on my life. This means that I can trust God to come to my rescue...here is the big one....EVEN IF MY HUSBAND FAILS.
WOW! That was a real revelation to me this week! I can trust God just as the women of old, and accept the authority of my husband. It doesn't matter if I think he is making godly choices or not. It doesn't matter if his choices cause us to not have any income for a whole month or two or even three, because my provision doesn't come from my husband. My security doesn't come from my husband.
Can you see this? Do you see how spending time with the Lord, getting intimate with the Lord, will place in you in a position of meekness and quietness of spirit. Your spirit will rest in peace because your confidence and trust is in the Lord to provide your needs rather than in your husband to provide and fulfill your needs, which he could never really accomplish anyway.
Think back to the day you got married. What did it mean to you? To your husband. This is the relationship Jesus wants with you. That closeness of spirit, he sees you and looks at you with the look of the bridegroom watching his bride walk down the isle. Song of Songs says in 1:1 "Kiss me and kiss me again." (NLT)  Another version says it like this "Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth." Now, yes, I know that this book is a book to show a husband and wife how to live together, but it is also a wonderful love letter (very romantic one I might add) from our heavenly father to us. The kisses of his mouth represent that intimacy with Him. He wants to go to the places of your heart that you have never let anyone into, not really, and take those things and give you more of Himself there. Then trust can be deepened because you know He is totally trust worthy. He wants to heal the deep hurts. He wants to love you in those areas, those places so closed up in ways that only He can heal and love. He is the only one who will never hurt you as you open the doors of your heart to him there. Oh, opening those doors will be painful, no different than re-opening a wound that needs to drain so it can heal. Let Him prove to you His trust worthiness. Let Him come in, in the only way He can do it, gently and lovingly, and bring a peace to those secret places, that truly passes all understanding.
Bless you all and have a wonderful weekend. I hope you all are feeling challenged or encouraged to spend that time with Jesus and give Him your burdens. Get to know him as the Bridegroom who deeply loves his bride, because He really does love you that much!
If you are enjoying the article I posted at the beginning of this blog and are feeling the Lord to lead to you to show honor and respect to your husbands in this way then you may want to check out this book by Lori Flem
She takes this concept and practically applies it for the "modern" woman/wife for today's world. This article brings up some good points that I think should be very relevant to the Christian woman today, however things are not quite the same as they were then. Kids were gone most of the day at school and mom was free to be working all day at home, cleaning, baking and cooking (except those with very little ones - but even I remember those days and found it much easier to keep a cleaner house when the kids were not being taught by me). Lori will give you some practical ways to Bring Home Daddy from one home schooling mom to another (and she has twice as many kids as I do!).

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Jan. 29, 2008
God Blesses this House, but He Doesn't Clean It!

Posted in Lets Get REAL

My mom, who is a personality consultant, has coached me well and....well ladies for us "not naturally organized types" the "Maintenance Program" (the staying organized by maintaining our home) is one we will always be trying to figure out. If it is a priority it will get done. However, as my mom puts it, I have just put my priorities on other things. Which she (who is VERY NATURALLY ORGANIZED and I really could have used that personality stuff for her when I was growing up) says that only after the personality insights, she is now understanding better how I think. I put relationships before house work, cooking, or anything else that deals with inanimate objects. If I have someone to do it with me I am more apt to do it than if I must do it by myself. I am in need of MAKING the Maintenance Program a priority in my life. It is between me and my Lord. As He is the one who created me with this relational personality. He is the one who has put passion in my heart for people and it is I who must learn to allow Him to direct that passion, and to keep my spirit at rest in Him when I know I need to "MAINTAIN" the house, the kids, the laundry, etc. As He is also the one who has blessed me with my house, my kids and our laundry.

 

I did find a comment from a seminar or some speaker once that was a bit piercing to my soul. It went something like this...With more blessings come more responsibilities. Hum, sounds like something my mom would say...lol. No really, I began to realize that with more "STUFF" came more responsibilities. Now that doesn't mean that I am not still working out my salvation with fear and trembling. There is a closet under our stairs that when I think I might need to find something in there, I tremble, every time...lol. But I did do a purge of some un-needed laundry, and a couple of rooms as well as toys, this past summer. This helped some. I know that this summer will be FULL of purging needs and I am praying I have the courage to face them and "Just Do It" (no I do not own any Nikes, but they had a good slogan). One recommendation that was also made was to be sure that if you keep something that it has a home, if not then either

a) you need to make a home for it - be it a basket or shelf or bucket or b) you need to throw/give it away!

 

I did get rid of a TON of stuff that would have made an amazing garage sale this last summer. I didn't keep it for the garage sale “we would one day have.” Instead I sent it to one of our church’s outreaches to give away or sell it in one of their garages sales. It was WONDERFUL being free of it all! We even had our garage back (till dh moved his office back into the house!)

            I am hearing the prompting of the Holy Spirit in this area again and he is telling me to "Get on the Band Wagon!" I know that as I get rid of the privileges that I really don’t need the responsibility load will be lightened and then I won’t have to be doing chores (hopefully) till 10pm every night to try and “maintain.” I will be freer to have people over as my house will always be ready for them. I will be free to do more without guilt, because my chores are done and my responsibilities are then taken care of. I look forward to the end result of this process. The process is itself not a pretty one, but I know what freedom feels like and I want to be bound no longer!


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Jan. 3, 2008
What a Year!

Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom

2007 was an amazing year! So much happened that I thought I would blog it, as this is the first year I could have sent out "Reflections of our Year" with cards but didn't because I just haven't had any time to sit and write until tonight.
Last January God began taking me on a journey. It was difficult and bitter sweet. I learned that I had some hidden pride to deal with. I learned that I needed to ask God if I was to step out and help others, even when they asked. This I like to call this "authorization to assist". I learned last year at this time that when I had done this with someone that the help they requested and I offered was taken all wrong and thought of as being prideful and controlling. Hum, so when I feel the need to help, I've now learned to step back and ask the Lord if I should and then be okay with letting it go if He says no.
In February of last year, the Lord removed the last of my "crutches." Even my hubby was too busy to spend much time with me as the Lord was dealing with his fear and distrust in God to provide. The loneliness began to set in and depression constantly was at my door, hounding me to let him in to mess with me. I did let him in two or three times and it wasn't pretty, the bruises and scrapes I endured from it, not to mention my family having to endure a messy house and no dinners because I was too emotionally crippled to do anything. I went to a women's retreat help for our church's women and rejection and abandonment hit me like a load of bricks and the loneliness set itself high above God. The Lord spoke to me there very clearly that I was in this lonely state because He had placed me there. That it was for me to understand my best friend and where she was at and suffering so I would be able to relate to her situation better. I told the Lord that I would bear it for her, as my heart ached for her heart to return to the Lord. The Lord also stated that I didn't have to be there alone. That He wanted to join me, but that I needed to ask him to come and be with me during my loneliness. It was a time of being in the desert, a parched and weary place, but the company of the Holy Spirit was refreshing and kept me walking and not giving up. During all this my best friend's heart was grabbed hold of by a new understanding of the love of God (for it is His kindness that leads us to repentance, right?). She is nearly back to herself now and we are enjoying our friendship together again!
WOW! What a year!
As a family, we took our first real family vacation. This is the first time off my hubby has taken since our youngest son (now 9 years old) was born. We took two and a half weeks to travel to Texas and back! It was so much fun. Our country is so amazing in its diversity of scenery, landscape and culture. We drove through almost a  quarter of the states! We saw everything from evergreens and forests to mountains, plateaus and desert. I met a brother, a cousin and an uncle in NV that I had never met and also had the privilege of meeting my biological father. At the end of that same month, my hubby and I were flown down for another uncle's 50th wedding anniversary. I met all of their kids (all 7 of them!) and more cousins. It was so exciting and exhilarating. The emotions of myself and others were staggering. In it all, the Lord revealed how deep his love for me is.
As we began our homeschool year number....I need to count....9???? WOW where has the time gone???? We have grown in so many ways!
We are doing well and going at a great pace. The year closed out for us with friends and family, a new outlook on life and a rejuvenated and intimate relationship with the Lord. We definitely have found we've been bitten by the travel bug and know that there are opportunities with our church for some travel around the US. We are prayerfully considering these and asking the Lord for direction in both this and our business. I can hardly wait to see what God has in store for us this year!


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Nov. 27, 2007
THANKSgiving

Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom

What a wonderful and beautiful Thanksgiving weekend we had this year. We went to my parents' house and had a wonderful feast. On Friday we decided to go to the mountain with the kids. What fun we had. The sky was very blue and the snow what about 2 feet deep (that was my guess). The kids played and then learned a little about this active volcano we live near. The full moon was beautiful and at the end as we were getting into our car, the Lord let us see a little black, four legged, fluffy creature with a white tipped tail. It was a fox! It was so cute. We tried to get pictures, but because it was so dark and the fox was black all you could see in the picture was two glowing eyes. It was really quite funny. Saturday we relaxed and then spent three hours trying to find the tree lot we bought our tree at last year. At one point we were only two miles away from it and decided it must have been somewhere else...aaaauuuugghh!  After that three hour search we got hungry so we gave up the hunt and went out for wood fired pizza. Sunday proved to be better tree hunting day (I am sure due to the fact that I asked google for directions...lol). We arrived half an hour before they closed and found just the right tree. The kids were having so much fun running through the "forest". The sounds of giggles from Michaela and laughter from the boys was music to my ears. They helped cut the tree down and since our oldest got to finish the last cut last year our second oldest insisted it was his turn this year. He was so proud, like a strutting rooster in a hen house full of hens. Dad carried out to the car and tied it down. As he slid off the back of the car roof the kids yelled "look it's Santa!" when all we could see were his feet and some legs. We then came home and had dinner and decorated our beautiful tree. Of course the kids' ornaments took up all the room and so my ornaments are still in their boxes. I think I need two trees if I am ever to get to put up my ornaments again before any of them move out.
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Oct. 24, 2007
Blessings

Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom

Today has been a long day. We have a break from the YMCA this week and that has been nice. I have been plugging away at school, however, I dream for the day that my children are self learners and that I might have a bit of free time. Is this just me???? I think not.
For now I know God has called me to this adventure we call home school. 
So for my sake I am going to list 10 ways that God has blessed our home schooling and then go pray for some renewed energy and vitality in all I do
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God has blessed us/me with...
1)  a  school room to school in.
2)   the means to get our curriculum
3)  me this year esspecially with a hubby who sees the need and has a desire to participate some in our schooling.
4)  children who are close to us
5)  children who are close to each other
6)  friends to school once a week with
7)  friendly neighbors who are possitive about our homeschooling
8)  family that supports our home schooling choices
9)  a church family that supports our home schooling choice.
10)  a family unity that has an amazing relationship with Jesus.

Thanks for listening/reading my post today. I am humbled that anyone would care to do so. I hope that you are blessed by the Father in your homeschooling and can take the time to meditate on how God has truly blessed you.
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Sep. 21, 2007
What a great start to a new year!

Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom

We are now 2 weeks into our 8th year of homeschooling! WOW! I can hardly believe it has been that long since we started this wonderful life adventure.
Our curriculum line up this year is;
Math:
Epsilon by Math U See
Level B and C of Rightstart Mathematics

Typing Instructor for kids:
They are LOVING this and learning much

Brainbuilder:
Not loving as much but definately is helping with the ADHD, ADD, and short term memory issues.

Tapestry of Grace:
History Core readings
Literature
Literature Student Activity Pages
Hands on/Arts/Crafts
Church History (this has been esspecially interesting to me and my boys)
Geography
Writing
Language Arts

My oldest, boy of 12, has done nothing but tell me how much he is enjoying his History and Literature readings...imagine that...a boy enjoying history and literature...reading no less. It has been a wonderful first two weeks. As Tapestry lends itself to co-oping so well we are co-oping with another family this year. Next week we hit the Byzantine Empire and the Rise of Islam and then we get to hit our ancestors, the Vikings (the kids can hardly wait!). The best part is, we are all studying the same thing together at our own levels. I hope that next year I can join in the fun by doing the Retoric level myself!
I hope all of your weeks have had a wonderful start!
Thank you Lord for this wonderful opportunity to homeschool freely!
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Jun. 18, 2007
WOW!!! What a weekend!
We had our conference this weekend in WA. I worked a booth for Tapestry of Grace with a fellow TOGger and had a blast! We were very busy and only about a 40/60 to those who knew of Tapestry to those who had never heard of it. Several people returned the next day to ask more questions and to look more carefully through the sample provided. The days were long, my mouth dry but my heart soared to have such a wonderful opportunity to share Tapestry of Grace with others. If you have not had the opportunity to learn more about Tapestry of Grace please check out my link on the home page of my blog.
Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend with Dad!
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Mar. 21, 2007
Thoughts of Spring

Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom

Spring is when the sun peeks out
and temps us all to play.
Spring is when the boys and girls
bring flowers and brighten mama's day.


Yesterday my children were bringing me the flowers from outside in to give to mama. It was so sweet and I love those little thoughts and chipper voices "I love you mama." They make such lovely memories. What a wonderful way God has in showing His love for us. However, I was busy checking my email when they brought them to me so I just laid them down on my desk and proceeded to forget all about the flowers.
How often does God try and show His love to me and I just say "Oh that's nice, dear" and lay it aside for what ever seems more important at the moment? I was saddened by this thought this morning when I had to throw the wilted presents away from my sweet, thoughtful children. I am so glad that the Father loves me still and never throws away my thoughts of praise or worship as they are just like those sweet, fragrant flowers that the children bring to us. Take some time today to just worship the Lord and tell Him how much you love him and remind yourself of His amazing love and grace for you!
Thank you, Father, for showing me a glimpse of your love. Show me more of your love for me as I continue to seek you. Help me to appreciate even the small things as you give me this fresh revelation of your love.
Amen.


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Feb. 21, 2007
Vision or Blidness
In Prov. 29:18 it says "Where there is no vision, the people are unrestrained, But happy is he who keeps the law." The Lexical aids say this for "unrestrained" "In Proverbs, the sense is to let something slip through the fingers by ignoring an opportunity. It probably means undisciplined in Prov. 28:18"

So then I had to ask myself  "How many times have I missed an opportunity because the Lord led me to a particular curriculum or style of teaching for a certain child of mine and it just didn't "fit" the way I would do things? Because I couldn't see how it would help I did do or get it? Therefore how much money have I ended up spending because of my own foolish ways?"
In the long run my spending was undisciplined in the area of curricula. I know I am not the only homeschool mom who has struggled with this. I know there are many others out there, for I have spoken to many of them.
I also like the way the Message Bible puts it..."If people can't see what God is doing, they stumble all over themselves; But when they attend to what he reveals, they are most blessed." This way of saying it can totally describe our school years before I sought the Lord on our Curricula choices, it was chaos. However since I have been asking and praying what we are to use (only the last  two years have I actually followed His lead) we have been truly blessed as He has revealed those things. My 9 year old son who had previously cried and cried over the simplest of math concepts is now thriving and doing very well in math, because of the curricula the Lord led us to. God was patient with me. I didn't buy the first two years I felt prompted to. Then last year, when I wasn't planning to attend our convention, they showed up and I went so I could look at it and it was exactly what our end of year tester was suggesting for my son to do. Hum, what time and energy I could have saved if I had just followed the Lord in the beginning!
I hope that you will let the Lord guide your choices even when you are unsure as to whether or not you will be able to impliment it. He will guide your teaching as well. I have learned I must place my complete trust in the Lord no matter how small the "thing" or matter seems to be. I must choose to listen and follow.
Luke 9:23 - 27 Says (Message Bible) "The he told them what they could expect for themselves: 'Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat - I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I;ll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you?.'" Imagine if we follow His lead completely the "real you" in our children will be able to blossom and how much farther they will be inspite of us.
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Jan. 31, 2007
Pride goeth before a fall....

Posted in Lets Get REAL

Okay, so I am going out on a limb here and telling the world (or at least it feels that way) that I truly DO NOT have it all together! Some reading my past blogs might think I have it all figured out or you might think that I think I have it all figured out. Well, not so my dear sisters, not so. I am far from having it all figured out. God just keeps pruning and pruning and then when I am thinking there isn't much more for him to prune he shows me another dead branch.
So what is this newly noticed dead branch, you ask? And how does one go about lobbing it off???? Got me on the second question, but the first I can easily answer. The new dead branch is one of distrust. I was raised in a home where the mind set exampled for me was "As a woman I must be strong and not depend on anyone for help. I must never show weakness. I am a woman and as much as it is okay for me to love a man I need not be dependant on one." Etc.
I first want to apologize to anyone who may have read previous posts on my bolg who thought "WOW! She is full of herself!" I never meant to sound prideful. I only wanted to share what God was showing me and doing in me. I am sorry.
Next, I would like to share more of what God is doing and how I am still trying to figure it all out. I try to write here once a month to keep my blog current and have come to this site more times this month not knowing what I was supposed to write. I had no words of encouragement or "wisdom" to offer. I now humbly come and say what has gone on in the past week.
God has shown me my distrusting heart, and that in this distrust I have feared his rejection as well as the rejection of others around me. I have not trusted that His love is unfailing but that, in many ways I have been striving to gain acceptance and love from Him. I still do not know what this trust looks like. I know that He is asking me to walk in the opposite spirit of this but I do not know what trust is. I was not trusted (even though I didn't really give reason to my mother to distrust me) as a kid or teenager. My siblings all gave reason. I was raised as I said above with not trusting others, especially those in leadership. I struggle trusting other women, people, even God.
I am in a trying season right now in which I MUST place my trust in God where the past could easily replay and it is not pleasant. But I hear Him calling to me to just trust Him in what He is doing. That He has it all worked out. I cannot see it. I am totally filled with anxiety over it. I do not want to go back to that situation in the past again. I felt left alone and abandoned by all around me, and by God.
So, I am following my own advice in previous posts, by coming against this attempt of the enemy to pull me into depression, self-pity, and the like. However I would greatly covet your prayers at this time that the Lord would give me a clear picture of what trusting Him looks like and that He would strengthen me to walk in it.
Thank you for letting me be real with you.
Blessings,
Patty T.


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Dec. 13, 2006
Got Joy???

Posted in Spiriual Life Lessons

Today my topic is Joy. I know that God has created us all to have His joy and when we walk in that joy there is a marked difference in our countenance. However, so many times we are either "happy", which is based on "happenings" or we are sad. Joy is present whether we are having a good time or not. It is not based on our circumstances. Then why, might you ask, does one struggle so much with walking in Joy when things around them are in chaos? The Lord answered that question for me in the last two weeks. I was wondering why I couldn't get His joy in me. And then it happened, God showed how I was being self - focused. When you focus on you then your circumstances are all you can see and it will steal His joy from you. I began to stop looking at my circumstances and started focusing on looking for opportunities to minister to others. I wanted my joy and I wanted to please the heart of my Heavenly Father. I make jewelry and sell it and I had an open house at my aunt's house. I was very nervous as this is the side of the family that I tend to be the butt of the joke.....often. I knew that the Lord wanted me to walk out my restoration so I did this show anyway. The week before I was very anxiety filled and sought the Lord about this. He reminded me that I was being self focused. I repented of that and then He also reminded me that I was looking into the future with eyes of rejection instead Jesus' eyes. I repented of that as well. I rebuked the enemy for trying to take my focus off of Jesus and rebuked that spirit of anxiety I had felt all week. Then I received God's gracious mercy and forgiveness and I choose to walk in His Joy. Then I prayed and asked God what the sale was really all about. He told me that it really wasn't about whether I sold anything or not but that I was to walk out my restoration and look for opportunities to minister to others. God is soooooo good! I choose Joy and He gave it to me. I choose to look for opportunities to minister and He gave those to me as well. Some were just in the form of serving with out being upset about the inconvenience of the timing. My aunt has a special needs son who is in his thirties and he came out about 40 min. before my open house was to start, and asked if I could help him wrap the gifts he had just come home with for his mom, because he didn't know how to do it. I did, with joy, not worrying about the fact that my stuff wasn't completely set up or priced yet. It was fun, we laughed together and I was okay with "not looking all together" when people started showing up. It was not an inconvenience because I was looking for ways to minister. I also was able to minister to another of my cousins who has just gone through a nasty divorce and her ex is not being very nice now to their daughter. She is hurting and I was able to share the love of Jesus with her and let her know that He wants to heal her hurting heart. It was awesome to see what God could do as I focused on Him and what He wanted me to do. Yesterday I went to the grocery store and as I got out of my car I decided to choose Joy. I wanted to allow the Joy of Jesus to overflow from me to others as I was there, even if I never "spoke" to them. I decided that who ever I made eye contact with I would smile with the Joy of Jesus and let it sink into them. It was fun to give away joy but also there were some sobering moments when I saw people look away as if they didn't deserve to receive joy. How it must break the Father's heart when we turn away His forgiveness and grace. Are you FULL of Joy? Have you turned away God's Joy because you didn't feel worthy to receive it? Have you turned away His forgiveness and grace in areas in your life because of "unworthiness"? If you struggle with forgiving yourself then you are not receiving God's forgiveness. Repent of that un-forgiveness toward yourself, rebuke the enemy for trying to use condemnation on you to keep you from receiving God's love, grace, and forgiveness, receive the forgiveness of God for you, and replace it all with joy!!! God's Joy is a gift for you to receive but you must walk it out to receive the fullness of it. Receiving and gift and opening a gift are two different things. A gift is of no value or use if it hasn't been opened. Open your gift of joy, walk in it. How many people can you make smile today with just a smile from you? Let Jesus put a bounce in your step and make others wonder and even ask you "What is so different about you?" and then seize your opportunity to minister to others and tell them what Jesus has done for you!
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the Law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death." Romans 8:1-2
"God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we [ I ] might become the righteousness of God" 2 Corinthians 5:21
"Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful." Hebrews 10: 22 - 23
In Nehemiah 12: 43 is says "And on that day they offered great sacrifices, rejoicing because God had given them great joy. The women and children also rejoiced. The sound of rejoicing in Jerusalem could be heard far away." WOW!!!!! The sound could be heard from far away! They had GREAT joy. This took place as they were dedicating the rebuilt wall of Jerusalem and just after the sanctification of the priests and the choirs singing praises and thanksgiving to the Lord. Get out your praise and worship music, dance before the throne of God, let it be heard from far away. Place walls of boundary up for the enemy (satan) to see that you are set apart for the glory of God and to do His good and pleasing will!

Father I pray a blessing to each and every person who reads this. That you would let these truths sink deep into their soul and take root and grow. I ask that you would water it with your word and bring a sparkle to each eye and a smile on each face that can not be removed. Thank you Lord for strengthening each woman, man and child that reads this and bringing them closer to knowing and experiencing your grace and love to a greater measure than ever before. In your son's name, Jesus, I pray, Amen.


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Oct. 31, 2006
What kind of homeschooler am I????

Posted in Just for FUN



Mr. Potato Head You have your ideal of how things should look, but youre flexible enough to allow for change. You are not bothered by changing methods, mid-course if necessary. You use an eclectic combination of curriculum sources. Visit this blog: http://www.GuiltFreeHomeschooling.blogspot.com to take this test yourself...Its pretty funny.


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Oct. 18, 2006
Refreshing and New Courage

Posted in Fellowship with God

My husband and I have been taking a class at our church called "Jesus Ministry II", as sequil to "Jesus Ministry" (here I will refer to the class as JM2 for short hand reasons).
A lot of the class is the discecting of your heart. Seaking the Lord on your areas of offendability, as well as the levels of offendability in each of those areas. Now some may agree or disagree with me here, but I have come to believe and am convicted that I have no rights. No right of intitlements either. Jesus didn't even claim any rights, no right to be an authority on His own word (the scriptures), no right to live, no right to be understood. In fact if you look at His life He only claimed the right to be misunderstood. Then if I should be like Him I too only have the right to be misunderstood. Now, let me tell you, that when I am seeking Him it makes this unoffendability thing a little easier. However, when I am out of fellowship (in sin) with the Lord my "defenses" go up....way up.
Let me explain what defeses are. They are much like Octapus ink. An Octapus, when feeling threatened, will put out ink that will look to it's enemy like...an Octapus while the real octapus quickly excapes. It is very effective and will save the hide of the octapus in its life often. As humans, we too put out an octapus ink when feeling threatened. If you have read my other post, "Freedom...Do You Have It?", then you are aware of the four R's and praying that God would reveil and you would recognize strongholds in your life.
Let me use myself as an example. A deeply root stronghold in my life that the enemy would love to regain ground on and tries very hard to take back. This stronghold for me is a fear of abandonment and rejection. I am not totally free from it but am working "toward the goal to gain the prize", as Paul puts it. If someone I care about does something that might strike that fear of abandonment/rejection in me then I ink if I don't recognize the stronghold playing out. The enemy still goes after that one using different angles to gain control of that territory. My offendability level at what someone says or does should be waving a very big red flag with a sirien that I am passively or aggressively inking, and that I need to give that area over to the Lord.

Your "ink" (defenses) can be passive or aggressive. Here are some examples of passive ink;
Silence, Victimization/emotional maniputlation, Isolation/running, avoidance, body language, Others may have to wrk hard or wait a long time to renew intimacy after speaking into your life (this translates into "making others 'pay' a cost for speaking lovingly and gently into your life).

Aggressive ink might have some of these reactions;
Defensive Posture, blame/defelction (oh can I be guilty of this), retribution, comback/competition, cutting them off before they can finish, body language, denial, Obstinate until the speaker is deflated and defeated, anger Disqualifying the speaker from speaking into your life by pointing out his or her sin or weakness (this would be another of my ink).
Now, some of you might think, "Yeah, but not everyone should be able to speak into my life. If they are not spiritually where I am or not even a Christian then how would you explain that!" Okay, let me give you a biblical example. Have you read the story of King David in 2 Sam. 16 where he is running for his life from his own son Absalom who was rebleling and trying to seize David's throne? In verses 10 and 11 A rebel Named Shimei whose allegiance was with Absalom came out while King David was fleeing Jerusalem and began to taunt and curse David. One of David's own men pleaded with David to allow him to take of Shimei's head in the most literal sense. David's response was amazing;
But the king said, "What have I to do with you, you sons of Zeruiah? If he is cursing because the Lord has said to him, 'Curse David,' Who then shall say 'Why have you done so?' David said to abishai and to all his servants, "My own son seeks my life; how much more now may this Benjaminite! Let him alone, and let him curse; for the Lord has bidden him." 2 Sam. 16:10-11 (NRSV)
"David believed it was possible that Shimei was a tool in God's hand...and he was willing to listen to what Shimei had to say, believing that even in the midst of the cursings God could speak through Shemei. [David was hungry and desparate to hear from God.] He was willing to receive what was said to him in case even a tiny bit of it was legitimate. What an incredibly humble posture! Imagine listening for something from the Lord, some word of correction, in the cursings of a rebel - on one of the owrst day of your life! While the enemy hurled curses, hoping to finalixe David's defeat, David pressed throught ot victory, believig that God was in control. he believed that God had something good for him even in what seemed like a disaster. The harder things were, the more desperate he was to hear from the Lord, in any form! His utter lack of defensiveness arose out  of  his confidence in God's love, mercy, and power." (taken from Jesus Ministry II manuel brackets are mine)

Are you ready to lay down your defesiveness? Are you ready to take humbleness to the next level? Do you make others "pay" a cost for speaking into your life? (this would include children when they ask you what the speed limit is and you know it is because they are wanting to see if you are following the law - yes I was guilty and yes I inked on my 11 year old son and had to repent later as he wasn't doing anything direspectful)
In our class on Sunday night, the intructor (one of our pastors) commented 'that to the extent that you are will to let others (esspecially your spouse) speak into your life with out you getting definsive and inking (getting offended) is the extent of your hunger and desire to let God speak into your life. Your relationship with your spouse will be a reflection of your relationship with God.....Oh how true this is.
I found this verse today and it explains exactly how I have felt since I have recognized my defenses.

The high and lofty one who inhabits eternity, the Holy One, says this: "I live in that high and holy place with those whose spirits are contrite and humble. I refresh the humble and give new courage to those with repentant hearts."
Isaiah 57:15 NLT

As I have been letting my husband speak into my life, no matter what, and not deflect or ink on him, he speaks to no cost of his own, I am the victor. I am the one who gains the prize. My blind spots are exposed and I can repent of my sins and gain refreshment and new courage, and my God's voice is more easily heard.



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Sep. 25, 2006
Special "BOB"

Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom

The other day my son piped up in the car after church..."Mom, who is 'special Bob'?"
I turned half way in my seat to kind of face my oldes son behind me and repeted "Special Bob?" "Yeah!" he quizzed, "who is special bob?" I then faced my husband, who was driving, and looked at him quite puzzled at my son's question. I tilted my head to one side and raised my eyebrows. My husband went to thinking and then asked our 11 year old son, "Do you mean Special Ed.?" With the light bulb above our son's head appearing as he replied "Oh, yeah, that's it! What does it mean?" I then caught on to what the boy was asking, and questioned "Where did you hear that?" I wanted to know what context he had heard it in so as to know what was really meant by the statement. Our son went on to explain the day our neighbor lady was talking about her cat who thinks it is a dog and will chase and meow after dogs 3 to 4 times it size, as if that would scare the dog. She then refered to it as being special Ed. I explained what she ment and what the Ed. in Special Ed. meant. I thought it was cute how he thought Ed. was someone's name. I got to thinking about it all and latter that day God asked me "Are you 'Special Bob'?" I replied, What Lord? What do you mean?" He hasn't answered me but, as I have pondered this question I have to say that I am not 'special Bob', however I am 'spcial Patty'. For the Lord knit me together in my mother's womb and I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am not an acident, or mistake or and ooopppss. I am God planned person, woman, who is special in God's eyes and I know that He loves me very much.
So, in conclusion, I ask you this question...
"Are you a 'Special Bob' or Nancy or Kyle or Taresa, or .....?"


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Aug. 30, 2006
Share with me a Day in your Homeschool life, Moms.

Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom

  • Do you use a particular "style" of homeschooling? 
  • We use a classical line-up with a Charlotte Mason twist. We are pretty relaxed homeschoolers.
  • How long have you been homeschooling?
  • We have been homeschooling from scratch. We are entering our 8th year...WOW it doesn't feel like it has been that long!
  • Why did you decide to homeschool?
  • It wasn't my first choice, but the Lord knew we needed it. It has really helped me to not be so self-focused in life, first off. Our homeschooling choice was directed completely and totally by the Lord.
  • How would you describe a typical homeschool day at your house?
  • We live to learn. Sometimes we just get in the bare basics because the Lord really moved in our devotion/worship time and sometimes we get in a full day.
  • Do you have a set schedule that you follow?
  • I have read Managers of Thier Homes and even set up a schedule by it. I do this each year before school starts and before we start summer (as our schedule is different). I do not live by it religously, it is a guideline for us. It really helps me to see where we need more focus and where I may be wasting time. It also, I have heard, good to have a plan. However, although I plan I try to stay more opportunity focused.
  • How do you stay organized and on track?
  • I have color coded all the kids school supplies. Each child has a color and their pencils, scissors, ruler, pencil box, etc. is in that color or we use a sharpie marker to write their name or mark it some way in that color. This lets me know who left what out and those invisible children (I am sure they visit your house too... you know the ones "Idunno" and "Notme") do not visit too often. I also do 9 weeks of planning at a time (this way if we get off track it doesn't mess too much up in my system). I use color coded file folders or you could use a color coded lable. Each child has a hanging file folder with 9 color folders in it, one for each week. Then on Mondays they are to pull out any worksheets in there and their assignment sheets for the week and place each day's work into the slash pocket folders in their 3 ring binder. They know that when all the work in that pocket folder is complete and the assignment sheet too, they are free for the day.
  • How much do you spend on homeschool supplies per year?
  • On school supplies, only what we don't have left over from the year before. Probably around $25 - $30 for all four kids
  • On currciulum, Well it took me the first four years to figure out my style as I just didn't have anyone to mentor me in this area. Now I have learned about each of my boys learning styles and found that some of what I was using worked for some of my boys and others need something different. This year I am thinking I will spend the most at $600 for the year. Next year I am thinking I should be back to my normal $200 - $300 with each year there after being less as I have found curriculum that is good for all my kids (Classical style unit study) and a math curriculum that is NOT consumable.
  • Is your extended family supportive?
  • Yes for the most part. I do not have any family that is constantly on me, however I do not have family that will help, out at the drop of a hat, when I need a helping hand either.
  • What advice would you give to someone just starting out?
  • It depends on their situation. If they are pulling children out of a school system (public or private) then Take it easy, Unschool for a while and learn to just live together. 
  • For everyone no matter the situation, Do NOT rush into ANY curriculum! PRAY, PRAY, PRAY! Seek the Lord, don't just ask Him, SEEK HIM, for a vision for your homeschool. What does He see your homeschool looking like? Remember that He will be strong in your areas of weakness, yes even in schooling your children. Learn together, and have LOTS of fun! Above all academics teach your children to Love the Lord with all their hearts, mind, soul and strength and teach them how to love to learn.
  • What are your thoughts about socialization?
  • This isn't one I think about much. I am a somewhat social person myself. I understand the need of the social homeschool kid out there. Personally my definition of socialization is "To teach my children how to relate to others of all ages and walks of life so that they can be an effective evangelistic tool in the hand of God."
  • What are the top 3 homeschool supplies that you couldn't live without?
  • 1. My bible. My quiet time with God sets my day. I am not naturally a morning person, but I have learned to be one so that I can start my day in the lap of my Daddy, my Heavenly Father. I have noticed that when I do this my day doesn't always run smoother, but my attitude does.
  • 2. My Internet connection. There are soooooo many free resources out there!
  • 3. My Magic Bullet Blender..."WHAT?" you say. YUP! My oldest boy has hit 11 and he can run that blend on his own therefore making a quick, healthy and simple snack (smoothy) on his own. AND he can drink a smoothy WHILE he is doing school work. No more interuptions every 10 min. with "Mom I'm hungry, what can I eat???"
  • Do you have a favourite/favorite book about homeschooling?
  • No but I do have a favorite website which has a TONE of articles for every homeschooler at everywalk of their homeschooling life.
  • http://www.homeschooloasis.com/article_chart.htm
  • Where do you go for support?
  • Other than God? My Hubby. He is my biggest supporter and fan. Without him I do not think I would ever make it thru. I also have a couple of friends who homeschool or have homeschooled who can deal out a little insite now and again.


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Aug. 26, 2006
Potty Training Trials...

Posted in Spiriual Life Lessons

    I have 3 boys   and then my little princess. 
My two oldest boys both potty trained at the age of 3 in one week night and day. My youngest prince charming at 3 1/2, again night and day. My mother told me "Oh your girl will potty train sooooo easily. You and your sister were both trained before you were two!"
    What joy I had as The Little Princess in our house was approaching two.  I thought "How nice this will be to have it all done in just a couple of months!"
HA! Well, it didn't go exactly like 'I' planned. Two came and went, then three  and now we are four months away from 5 and we are still working on the day time thing (nights are mostly done).  It is close, but we still need reminders.
    You see, when I started this whole process, I was really good at reminding her for a week and then when she still wasn't getting it I just gave up for a couple of months. Then I would try again. This last Februrary I decided I would just be potty training FOREVER. I made up my mind that this would always be how it is until she gets it. I STOPPED putting a time frame on how long I thought it should take. Then I did one more thing I should have done from the beginning.
    I recognized that with 3 older children and homeschooling them I didn't have the time to put towards her potty training that I did with my boys. So....I prayed ...imagine that, prayer...lol. Well it worked! I asked God last February to speak to me throughout the day and remind me to remind her. I haven't one time remembered to remind her. However the Holy Spirit has. Every time, out of nowhere, that little still small voice has said "Michaela needs to go potty" and I have sent her she has gone. Every time I haven't obeyed, she has had an accident within less than 5 minutes of my warning from the Holy Spirit.
    So here is my encouragement for you, are you having potty training woes? Is your child truely ready for training, but not wanting to "grow up"? Stop now and ask the Holy Spirit to help you. He will and the Lord will remind you to tell your little one to go at just the right times. Take it from me though, follow thru to obey is VERY important if you don't want to clean up a mess.


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Jul. 16, 2006
A Daddy's Heart

Posted in Lets Get REAL

This week has been an amazingly emotional week. I have cried till I just didn't have any more tears to give and I still wasn't done. My poor dear husband own's his own business in the computer/IT industry. This is not a mom and pop shop, but an sub-contracting on-site services to small - medium sized busnesses. That means that if a server goes down then he must stay till it is back up again as the employees of that company cannot work if the server isn't up and running. So now, after that long explanation, you are probably wondering what this has to do with a Daddy's heart. Well this last week was a very long week for both my hubby and I as he had some very long hours. I was frustrated and getting depressed because I was having to "do it all on my own" and even the evenings when he left saying he would definately be home that night, SOMETHING somewhere went wrong. Then the one night he was able to make it home the poor thing just numbly and blindly led himself to bed and I think he really did fall asleep before getting there....
So as I said, I was feeling sorry for myself and a bit angry at the situation. I felt like the old Twylla Paris Song "The Warrior is a Child". I had laid down my sword and cried, but unlike the song I didn't do it at the Father's feet. In fact I hadn't been spending any time with the Father for a while. This week, Daddy put me on restriction from all relationships (except one very wise and sweet fellow TOGger and one actress) to remind me that He wanted me to draw closer to Him (thank you Gilda and Lisa Welchel for allowing Him to use your voices as my physical reminder when I was just staying clueless).
You see, as I begain seeking Him, my daddy showed me the places in my heart that He wanted to "hang" with me but I was still guarding them for fear of  rejection and abandonment. I knew God loved me, I knew He was my heavenly Father, but my heart was afraid to find out these things as there had been abandonment in the past by my biological father, sister and brother. Though I do not remember my biological father abandoning our family, I vividly remember (esspecially my sister) my siblings abandonning our family. This was very hard as they had been my second parents since I was two and they were 11 and 12. They left once when I was 5, and again when 6, and my sister one last time when I was 7. My mom had become a christian and they didn't want anything to do with it. My mom now regrets how she handled it  and says she would do it differently if she could do it all over again. I personally wouldn't choose to live it over again at all. It has effected my relationships with my mom, my step-dad, my husband, and mostly my Jesus. You see, I laid down my weapons of destruction and I was afraid to let Jesus love me. I knew He did, but I have been too scared to really know how much. I have stayed pretty dull to this emotionally and just been a STRONG WARRIOR! Infact, most people would know me as a fighter, not one to give up. You could even see this in my previous post here. But the my Daddy in heaven wanted me to see His heart for me and at this I was not a strong anything. On the contrary, I ran as fast as I could, for I knew that my love for Him was not equal to His for me. Nor had I earned His love or felt deserving of it. Isn't that how it is in human nature? We work hard and feel we should be able to earn a decent living from it. I wanted to work hard for Jesus and earn His love. I know I need His love and now after battling that depression and sending it away (to understand this more read my entry on "Freedom...Do you have it?") I have asked that the Lord would so graciously show me His love. That He would help me to accept it and know it in my heart not just my head. I must say that His love is GREAT! It is deep, gentle, sweet, joyful, concerning, His heart for me is bigger than I could ever imagine! His smile tells me He is a proud Daddy of His children, and I can feel His embrace.
Are there areas in your life that you isolate from Jesus? Are they just so ugly that you are telling Him "give me the chance to straighten up a little before I let you in here."
Do you have CHJOS (can't have Jesus over syndrom)? I would encourage you to use the four "R's" that I describe in "Freedom...Do you have it" and go to your Daddy and tell Him you are ready for His love to fill you up. Even if you are not sure that you are ready to be vulnerable with Him (that was my problem) do it anyway (I did so I know you can) and I will guarentee that He will be so gentle and loving that you will weep with joy and He will give you the ability to love Him back. You can not earn His love, it is a free gift (isn't it nice to know that God shares our love languages with us...). I urge you now to turn off your computer and go to Him now and lay down your sword at His feet and let Him wipe away your tears. He will and you will be the better for it. Oh, and those places you would just like to straighten up a bit before He comes to visit, it is MUCH easier, and more fun, with your Daddy's help.


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Jul. 11, 2006
They are growing up...

Posted in Reflections of a Homeschool Mom

So today I left my boys home alone with the oldest for the first time. WOW! how scarry I felt and anxious to get home was I. They did just fine of course but the first time is always the scarriest, right???? I am sure that if you have been leaving your kids home alone with an older sybling for a while you are chuckling at me right now as it also brings back those memories for you too.
I wonder if the mama birds get a bit nervious when it is time to teach those youngin's to fly? Do they get a bit scared that they will fall straight to the ground and break a wing or something worse? I am sure we are the only creatures in God's beautiful creation who have these feelings. I am frightened to let go but excited at the same time.
Lord, help me not to tighten the reigns too tight but also at the same time not to dish out more than what they are really capable and mature enough to handle.


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Jun. 30, 2006
Freedom...Do you have it?

Posted in Diving Deeper

Some may answer that question with "Well of course! I live in America, duh!" I am not speaking of freedom of speech or anything 'constitutional'. I am speaking of true freedom in Christ. Now others might answer "Yes, I know Christ as my savior so I have this same freedom." Okay, you are getting closer, but how many of you understand that with Christ comes authority? Jesus told us that He gave us the authority to trample on snakes and scorpions with out getting hurt (that was Patty's paraphrasing).
What are your scorpions? What are your snakes? What areas that you know you should be a victor in that you feel you are not conquering? Is it anger? Or maybe passivity? maybe you struggle with apathy? Or fear? What ever it is Jesus said He has made you MORE than a conqueror. You are victorious in Him. Here are some tools that might come in handy in the war zone. They are gifts given to us at the time of our spiritual birth, yet so many of us are either unaware of them or we know they are tools but are unsure as to how use them. Or what to use them for. I liken it to having given a tool box and either never opening it so you don't even know what is in there or opening it but never getting instructions on how to use what is in there. Therefore you grab a wrench to hammer in a nail. Although it might do the job, working under grace, it may not be the best tool to do the job and it doesn't always work well. Also it is VERY important for you to speak out loud, yes out loud, these things as the enemy cannot read your mind and he must know that you mean to evict him today. You must let him know that you are NOT his playground any longer. Also there is awesome power in the spoken word; I think we have all witnessed this before. How many times has praise from your mouth motivated your husband or child to do something that nothing else has? Or just the opposite how many times out of anger or frustration have you said something that you didn't really mean but now you cannot take it back and it takes time and work to make things right again? Well then, there is my point with the spoken word. Show the enemy you mean business and God too. What is spoken aloud is a commitment, what if we never "spoke" our wedding vows? How would anyone know that we really meant what we thought? Even your fiancι wouldn't be sure, would you if your fiancι only thought their vows on your wedding day? God wants to know your commitment to Him.
Here is the first tool
Repent - Ask God to forgive you of your sin of fear, anger, apathy, passivity, depression, etc. Did I say depression? Yes, I too have dealt with this and it was hard to understand how it was a sin. Well let me explain. It wasn't depression itself so much that was the sin as the fact I was allowing it (yes it is a spirit that was hovering and influencing me) to control my attitude and life. I asked God to forgive me for allowing the enemy in this area. Now before someone gets angry at me let me also explain that there can be physical causes of depression and you must ask the Lord to speak to you about whether you are struggling with this physically (hormonal imbalance or otherwise) or whether it is spiritual. Don't just take the easy way out however; if God is truly telling you that it is spiritual be willing to get into the fight. Remember that where you are weak God's strength is able to shine the most. Fighting a war is not fun to most people, but it is crucial to the Christian.
Your next tool is...
Rebuke - Tell the enemy (fear, depression, etc) that you have had it with him. Serve notice on him today. Let him know that you know the power that is within you is greater than he. Remind him that Jesus has given you all authority over the enemy and you will no longer let him play you like a set of chess pieces. Tell him he is through and send him to the foot of the cross to await his judgment. Do this by the power and authority that is invested in you by the blood of Christ Jesus your Lord and Savior!
Third tool...
Receive - This can be the toughest for some. Receive God's forgiveness. You have been forgiven and now you must forgive yourself to seal it.
Last but not least, infact I would say this one is extremely important...
Replace - Jesus spoke of the house that the 'bad guys' come in and wreak havoc then when made to leave come back to check on the house only to see it has not had anything to replace what was there and then they bring in 7 times what was there to begin with. Well, the enemy sometimes leaves and lets us alone without much fight because he knows if he just lays low for a while he can come back with 7 of his friends and make it more miserable for us than ever. All because we forgot to replace him. Now that your 'house' is cleaned up, replace that fear with love, power and a sound mind. Replace that apathy with a boldness to be not only an example but to speak the truth where ever you are. Replace depression with the Joy of the Lord till it overflows like a mighty river to everyone around. Replace passivity with a determination to accomplish what God has given to you to do and not to give up because it seems like it may be too difficult or others may oppose you.
Be blessed my sisters and brothers in the Lord. Put on the full armor of God. Take the gifts He has given you and take out the enemy. Take back the territory that the enemy has stolen and give it back to the Lord ten times fold! Hold the Lord's standard high and let the enemy know that you mean business and won't stand down!


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