We went to see my Great Grandparents last week so that Alatariel could get some info on the photos that she didn’t know about.

We found out that my Grandma’s sister, Lillian, had died early that morning. She was my Grandma’s older sister right before her. All of the siblings died in the order of birth. So my Grandma is the only one in her family that is still alive.

My Grandma did not have a very good relationship with her sister. I guess my Aunt Lillian was a person to get under people’s skin. I was told that she would give keepsakes and if the receiver didn’t like the advice she gave they were told to give them back. Or she would tell someone something, like they could come stay at her house for awhile and then when they got there something would happen and she would be like, “What makes you think that you can barge in here without giving notice” and stuff like that. She was a person who spoke her mind no matter what she said even if she hurt someone.

Something happened in like the 80’s with them and they hadn't spoken for awhile. So I asked my Grandma if she had been to see her and if everything was amended. She didn’t really answer. The only thing she said was, “I went to see her a couple weeks ago.” The reason she went to see her was Grandma was in the hospital the same time Aunt Lillian was, so Grandma stopped by there when we was there. But I don’t think she forgave her for the offense Aunt Lillian made to her.

And as I sat there all I could think was “How could that be the kind of relationship you have with a sibling?” “How could you let something like that be the end of your relationship?” And then you know she is gone. And my Grandma was not in the slightest bit upset that she died, at least she didn’t act like it. She was telling us all about the mean things that Aunt Lillian did that my Grandpa had to tell her to stop. He said, “The woman just died. Stop talking like that about her.”

It just tore me apart to see that this was the type of relationship that she had with her sister. I can’t imagine being like that with any of my siblings. I mean yeah sometimes I just wish they would all leave me alone, but I can’t see something like that.

I am so thankful that I have a really GREAT relationship with Alatariel. We do EVERYTHING together. And I can’t ever see us like that.

I guess what I’m saying is if your sibling/s and you had a huge fight and you hadn’t spoken in a long time and that sibling died tomorrow would you care? Would you be upset that you hadn’t forgiven each other?

I am thankful that I have my siblings. And I pray that nothing will come up that will tear us apart and have there be so much animosity between us.

I have learned that I need to make sure that if I have a problem with someone I need to go to that person and get the truth.

Having a friend is more important than being right and holding my right to be right!

This verse will defiantly encourage you in your walk if you are having this problem.

You have to let go of your anger, or it will consume you and you will be a very unhappy person.

I have been reading King Arthur and His Knights by a Mr. Gilbert. It is an older book so it is prob true.

Anyway, the story that I am at now is where Sir Gawaine is so mad at Sir Lancelot that he wants to kill him. The reason for this is because Sir Lancelot killed his 2 brothers in battle. Sir Lancelot was trying to save the Queen from burning at the stake. And in is rage of saving her he killed anyone in his way. Now Sir Gawaine’s brother were taking the Queen to the stake. But they didn’t want too; they were only carrying out the orders of the King. So Sir Lancelot killed them on accident and because of the situation that the Queen was being burned for, Sir Gawaine did not believe him. Although the youngest brother that was killed was very much loved by Sir Lancelot.

I haven’t finished the story yet to see who kills whom, but they were as close as brothers and just because some evil knight spread untrue things about Sir Lancelot, Sir Gawaine vowed that he would not rest until he kills Lancelot or Lancelot kills him. But Lancelot doesn't want to fight him. And he avoids fighting him at all costs, but in the end they end up doing battle.

I would recommend this book to read it has wonderful stories about chivalry, maidens, knights, loyalty, love, charity, (which are not the same thing) and other such wonderful things!

It is a great book. I like these kinds of things so I guess it depends on what kind of books you like.

God’s laws are like His law of gravity—It can’t be changed!

He says to forgive, to love unconditionally, etc.

You can’t just not forgive because someone wronged you. Remember you wronged Jesus first with the worst wronging there is possible, and He still forgave you.

You can’t just not love someone because they don’t love you back. Remember not everyone loved Jesus when He was here, but He still loved them.

Remember to always:

LOVE

FORGIVE

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