• Friday, December 5, 2008 - A Few Ramblings: From A Tired, Old-Feeling Mother
As I rocked my now two year old to sleep tonight, I pondered on the many different hats that I have worn as a parent. I have worn the "do-it-by-the-book" hat, the "I'll do it my way" hat, and the "do what gets you through the day" hat. :)
As I sang to Callie tonight, I contemplated how many changes I have been through since my first child was born. Here are the differences in a nutshell:
I've put the baby in the baby's room, where the baby goes.
I've put the baby beside our bed so that night time feedings are easier for me.
I've put the baby *IN* our bed because that's where babies belong, and I just love sleeping with my babies.
I've fed the baby every single bite so that a very minimal mess was made.
I've handed the baby the food and said, "go for it!".
I've handed the baby's older sibling the food and said, "Aim for the mouth!".
I've washed the baby in the specially designed baby bath tub with special baby shampoo.
I've washed the baby in the shower with me, and snuggled while we bathed.
I've washed the baby in the bath while bathing the older children, and felt fortunate to have accomplished that!!
So, as I think back about my motives in the early days of parenting, it pretty much sums it up by saying I survived it. Now, I relish it. Not ALWAYS, necessarily, but I've learned to see less of their need of me, and more of MY need of them. And to parent less by what is convenient for me, and more of what is best for them.
With my first few, I did what I thought would make my life easier. Now, when I hold what could be my last baby, I do what makes my heart lighter....I love a little more, and scold a little less.
Isn't it amazing how the Lord teaches us through these wonderful little blessings from above!
• Friday, November 14, 2008 - Please pray for this young girl!
Dear friends,
This very brave girl has been fighting an incredibly hard battle, for a very long time. She really needs your prayers as her condition has left her paralyzed, yet without a diagnosis. Please keep her and her weary family in your prayers.
• Tuesday, September 9, 2008 - Please pray for the Jones family.........
A friend of mine was taken off of life support this evening after suffering a stroke this morning. She was a homeschooling mom, and fellow Sister in the Lord. Her name was Rhonda. Please pray for the husband, children, friends and loved ones that are left behind, and will miss her terribly.
And, yet, we rejoice for her. For she is with her Savior! Praise His name! For He is worthy!
Thank you for praying for Callie. Please continue to pray for Rachael, she is dealing with a lot of pain on a daily basis.
On a homeschooling note,
our family is talking a lot about politics and such with the election coming up soon. So, I have been wondering what have your families been talking about that you probably otherwise would not be discussing?
My friend, Marsha, and her dear family need our prayers. Dozer, her three year old son, died in a drowning accident last night. I can't begin to imagine the heart break and agony of losing a child. Words seem so useless, but prayers are powerful!
Callie did really great the first few days, and has been up and about quite a bit. She has climbed, and also fell some already. But, for the past couple of days, she has been really edgy. The least little thing just sets her off.
I am assuming that it is just the frustration of having the cast on.
Rachael has not felt great today, she was able to make it to our church's first service, though. But, then she had to go home shortly afterwards.
Hannah has felt horrible all day long, and was not able to go to church at all today.
Luke, Abby, and Lily have been fine.
Joe Ray had to go back to work today (which he really did NOT want to do) because his vacation was over.
As far as homeschooling,
Luke wants to learn how bees make honey, and he wants to take a tape player apart to figure out how it works.
Abby worked some on her letters this past week.
Lily has been coming to me and spelling a few words.
• Tuesday, August 19, 2008 - More of Callie's Surgery Journey
Well, she is getting to go home today! Yesterday we could have gone home, but Joe Ray and I did not have peace about leaving the hospital just yet. One of the major reasons being that we live about three and a half hours from the hospital. Plus, we would have had to added an extra hour to gather the other children and our things.
Thankfully, the doctor was very understanding of our concerns, and had no problem with keeping her for a night. And, it has made the world of difference. Now, she is eating, drinking, playing, and back to being her independent self. And it is sooo good to see her personality back.
Here she is right after they brought her back from recovery
And here she is feeling so much better!
Notice her pink cast!
Here she is talking to her Dadda on the phone
And here she is talking to Hannah on the phone
Back to her old self!!
Now, to keep her happy while we make the long drive home!
• Monday, August 18, 2008 - Callie, IV, Incision, Cast....Aaack!!
Callie is having surgery on her leg today! We had to drive down last night, because we live three hours from the hospital. We left after church, and got in about 10PM last night.
Since Callie had slept some in the car on the way there, she did not want to go back to bed when we got in. After a snack, I got her ready for bed and got the other children settled. (We only had Hannah, Luke, and Abby with us.) When it was time for Callie to get settled in, she really was not interested in sleep. She thrashed and rolled and kicked until about midnight. This was especially hard for me when it came time to get up at 4:00AM!
We arrived at the hospital just before 6:00AM. We got to go straight to the pediatric floor, and then had a nurse help us get registered in. Here is a pic of Callie when we got to our room. Can you tell that she is making herself at home!?!?!?
And here she is getting some sugar from her Dadda!
Then, it was time to change into a hospital gown. This was not well received by our little princess! She really did not want to wear the gown. It didn't matter how cute is was, or what it had on it. She did not want to put it on.
She wrestled with it for a while, and then eventually ended up with it turned around backwards. This made her a little happier, because at least she was wearing it HER way!!
Here she is playing "shy"! We know the truth, though!!
Her nurse had noticed her sucking her left thumb, and wanted to make sure that this thumb was free and available for comforting her after her surgery. So, she wrote on her hand, "sucks left thumb"! I thought that was sweet of her to think of that.
Then it was time to go back for an MRI. They had already given her some "happy meds", so she was floating at this point.
We just got a call from her doctor, and she is heading over to recovery. He removed the tight band of tissue around her bone that was pulling and causing tension which made the bone grow crooked. She has a cast for now, and no hardware in her leg! So, we will just wait and see how long it takes for her bone to grow straight on it's own. Please keep us in your prayers! I don't think she is going to be very happy about having a cast.
I, again, apologize for neglecting this blog. I do not have any excuses other than LIFE. Our life has turned from being focused on homeschooling and training our children; to keeping up with doctor appointments and surgery dates.
As time allows, Id love to go back and fill everyone in on all of the details and such. But, for now this entry of way-too-many pics will have to do.
Rachael and Callie
Rachael and her cousin, Ellen
Rachael and LilyGator
Rachael is fourteen ,and growing into a beautiful young woman. She is taller than I am, and I am very proud of her. For those of you that are new to my blog, Rachael was diagnosed with Chiari malformation and Syringomyelia last year. She had a brain decompression surgery in October.
She had began taking piano lessons and was excelling. After only 19 half hour lessons, she had began to work on Fur Elise! She amazed her piano teacher and I with her natural ability and devotion to music. I never had to remind her to practice. She loved it. But, sadly, because of her shoulder pain, she had to set piano aside for a season. We are hopeful to find the cause of her pain so that she can return to her beloved piano soon.
Hannah
Hannah playing her guitar
Hannah and Rachael
Hannah riding in the car.....taken by Hannah!
Hannah is growing by leaps and bounds. She is eleven and is a joy and delight....most of the time! She is loving having a sewing machine and enjoys cooking very much. She is quite good at it, too! Sadly, Hannah has started having some symptoms of Chiari. We pray that this is not the case, but will have her evaluated since it is a genetic disorder.
Luke the brave with his adoring sisters!
Luke with his catfish (she was pregnant!) O.O
Luke and Abby
Luke is eight and such a helpful young man. He is our resident trash man (for the fee of $1 a week), and he is great at helping to take care of his younger sisters. He has really come a long way in helping out and is a huge asset to our family. He loves to draw and play any type of sport. He also enjoys music and astronomy.
Abby
This is Abby(left) and Hannah(right).
Abby on her birthday!
Abby is six, but is more like a teenager than a little girl. She wants to grow up way too fast. She is loving and enjoys helping me in the kitchen. She is like a shadow some days...but I know that there will come a day when I miss having her around.
LilyGator
LilyGator is four and so very smart. By three, she knew all of her letters and sounds, and could even sight read some words. She is just so bright. There is not much time right now, but when I can I try to spend some time working with her because she loves to learn so much. She even says her ABC's in her sleep!! Other than eczema, her only issue would be some Sensory Integration that I am seeing. It explains alot of things that I have wondered about. Also, if I can better understand her, then it helps me to help her.
Callie
Callie and her Dadda
Callie: "I'm innocent.....really."
Callie on the fly!!!
Callie: "I'm just cool that way!!"
Callie.....hmmmm. She is a very busy and smart, yet mischievous, little girl. She will turn two soon, and is quite a handful. I love her energy and spunk. But, I can't wait until she is cleaning more messes than making! (: Our lives would be quite dull without her.
Callie will be having surgery on Monday for a leg deformity. Her left tibia is growing with a curve because of fibrous tissue adhesion that must be removed. This has caused her legs to be uneven in length. Hopefully, this will be a minor surgery.
• Saturday, October 27, 2007 - Yet another MASS update.......
MASS as in Many-A-Seasons-Since I have posted!!
Ok, I'll leave the humor for the professionals! Anyhoo, I just wanted to bring my blog friends up to speed on what all is going on with us.
My oldest, Racheal, whom was diagnosed with Syringomyelia and Chiari malformation had decompressions brain surgery on the second of this month. The surgery went very well, and she is recovery nicely. She has noticed many improvements and is better. However, she still has Chiari, and will have to deal with the symptoms on a daily basis.
For the past few days, she has been waking up with a terrible headache (not pressure like before, though), and has back and shoulder pain. She is better, but she just stil has symptoms to contend with.
Hannah that had the hip fracture from a trampoline accident, is continuing to have pain from that hip. She has been on and off of crutches since July. We are hoping to find a doctor that can answer our questions about why she is hurting.
Luke is showing some signs that he may have the Chiari like Rachael. We are debating on whether to hurry up a visit for him with Rachael's neurosurgeon in North Carolina, or whether to give it more time to see if he improves or worsens.
Abby is doing well. She is becoming more helpful and mature each day. She is so good to help me with Callie. That is until something more exciting comes along!
Lily is good, too. Thankfully, she has not had any more tonsil episodes so far. We are watching her and hoping that she won't have to have them taken out like Rachael did. But, if they do need to come out it would be easier while she is younger, rather than waiting til she is older.
Callie is pulling up and crawling so fast all over the house. She came back from North Carolina with such attitude and personality. The other kids were just amazed at how much she had changed in the three weeks that we were away.
Well, other than having some hair fall out, trying to keep my sanity, and never having time to do my nails, I am doing good. The Lord has been so good to me!!!
2.)Hannah is back on crutches. We are so sad that our tigger has yet again lost her bounce.
3.)Callie had tubes put in her ears this week.
4.)Lily, Luke and Abby are hangin' in there....bless their little hearts!
5.)I fell and cracked my ribs (not officially confirmed, but some things you just KNOW!!!) a month ago...I still can not lie down in bed at night. So, I am having some sleep deprivation issues. Do you think lugging a 22lb chunk around could be contributing to this??? Hmmmmm....
6.)We have lost a vehicle. My very first (and only) mini van finally had to be let go. The transmission in it gave up the ghost, and so we were forced take what we could for it. It was sad seeing it loaded up and hauled off. For some reason, my vehicles mean something to me...I get so sentimental about them. I really do love my suburban, though.
7.)My parents just recently returned from an mission trip to Russia.
8.)In homeschool news, Lily is learning her letters and sounds, whether I teach them to her or not. She has an insatiable desire to learn them. Abby is having a few speech issues that I plan to work on....like saying "t" for "ck" sounds. Luke is learning everyday, and still love money counting above all other activities!!
Thanks for reading, and I will try to not go so long without an update....I said I'll try...make you no promises, tell you no lies!!!
Callie is going to have an eeg to make sure she is not having seizures. She probably has acid reflux, but I do not see this being the cause of her episodes of screaming. If not seizures, then possibly night terrors. I assume these would be caused by the memory of her traumatic experience in the hospital having the spinal tap, IV, and catheter all in one day!
Lily, Abby, and Luke are doing well, other than some dental issues that Luke is having.
Hannah can now walk without her crutches!!! We are so elated! She still does limp some, but hopefully that will resolve with time. She still hurts occasionally, but is so thankful to be better. So much so that she rode a bike around a lake this weekend!!
Rachael is still having head pain, dizziness, and nausea. We learned that her MRI revealed that her pituitary gland is enlarged. We are working on getting her into a pediatric neurologist.
• Wednesday, March 21, 2007 - Caution: Scary post ahead!!
I wanted to blog about all of the things swirling around in my head. I need a "notepad" to jot all of the junk down on...so my blog seemed like the perfect place. Since, it is MY blog after all. But, I wanted to give everyone advance warning so that they can choose to stop reading at any point. Ok, you were forwarned!
Where to begin.....
Callie -
Callie is my ideal baby. She is very laid-back, and rarely cries. Many times I feed her just because I know she needs to eat, not because she has let me know that she's hungry! (Insert a jaw-drop emoticon here!) I have never had such an easy baby!! It is just wonderful, BUT it makes me feel so guilty. I feel such guilt for not being a better mom to her. I worry that she won't develope properly since she is spending so much time in a swing or car seat. She gets pushed to the back burner so much these days....not a literal burner, of course! She has had these strange episodes of whimpering in her sleep, and eventually leading into a full blown scream. When I try to console her, it does not seem like she even recognizes my voice. I have to get her to wake up before she will smile at me. It is really disturbing to witness.
Lily -
Lily has ecsema, a cold, and string for hair! Really. That childs hair gets so mangled, it takes me almost an hour sometimes to get it all picked out!!! So, I have this debate going on in my head over whether or not to cut it. It is so beautiful, but the torture of having it brushed out is horrible.
Abby -
Abbs is my clingy child. She loves to be with me, and share my personal space as much as possible. I am concerned about having shoes for her, and sometimes feel like she needs more of me than what I am able to give. She does not have any physical problems, thank the Lord!
Luke -
Benjamin Luke had a tooth pulled the other day. Yes, in the midst of therapy and Rachael having a migraine headache, I had to drive 45 minutes to take him to the dentist because of an absess. He has had many dental issues that I just didn't feel like were being treated aggressively enough by our current dentist; so, I decided to switch him to a pediatric dentist. It is hard to make the drive (especially twice in a week), but I think this dentist will be a better fit for him. Plus, he loves to go there because of the toys and cool games to play. Poor little fellow has had so much discomfort and pain from his teeth. Like I have said before, they are just going to rott out!
Hannah -
Well, my Hannah is scheduled to have a cortisone injection in her hip. I am so worried about her. She has already been through so much pain, I just want her to be able to wake up in the moring pain free. I also am considering trying another children's hospital to see if they can help her any. I don't want to leave any stone unturned when it comes to getting her the help that she needs.
Rachael -
My soon to be a teenager, is having so many symptoms right now; I don't know where to begin. Her sleep pattern is off, the headaches are debilating, dizziness, and she is just wiped out all of the time. She is like a totally different person than she was a few months ago. Of course, my mind runs the spectrum of all of the possibilites, and then I worry even more. And so, as soon as I can get to it, I need to have her ENT look at her and see where we need to begin. We are trying an anti-inflammatory diet, and so I am having to buy new foods for her to try. I am also trying to just buy healthier foods for all of us because I know it is the best for my family.
Joe Ray -
He is working long hours, and we do not see him very much.
Me -
I need to :
catch up on laundry
catch up on housework
do spring/winter clothes swap
clean out suburban
deap clean house
clean and organize the garage
clean up yard
get the toilet in hall bath fixed
get the living room fan light kit fixed
get back to walking every day
have the suburban fixed
check on bills to be paid
balance bank statement
find bank statement
make a trip to the grocery store
do my nails
try to plan a trip to the hands on museum so that our membership isn't a waste of $$$
straighten my desk
clean the church - and pay Ricky for mowing the church yard
Buy more acidophillus
reschedule my song recording
remember to check calender for dr's appts
remember to check calender for birthdays
Ask JR if he wants to replace our mattress now or just wait
write long overdue thank you notes
send pictures of kids to our friends/ family
need to get Callie's pictures taken and write in her baby book
think about upcoming birthdays
call my mortgage company about them paying someone else's tax bill with my escrow
The list could go on and on, but for time sake, I will just end it here. These are just some of the things that are just constantly swirling about in this mom's head. Is it any wonder I call my children by the wrong names?
Ok, now about the singing thing. I truly do not know what song I am going to sing. I can't even begin to select one, since I don't know what music they have, and I don't really know how much time I will have. I also am just not at a point right now where I feel like singing. I go to bed late, and wake with Lily early every morning, so I am exhausted. These constant trips to the ER and doctor's appointments are just wearing me out! My house is so neglected, and I don't feel in a singing frame of mind right now. However, I will do it, eventually.
It does feel better to clear some of this stuff out of the forefront of my mind. IF you read through it all....bless your heart! I know my whining doesn't make interesting reading! If you happen to think of us, pray, please! We truly need them right now. Thank you.
• Sunday, March 11, 2007 - Taking my spiritual temp....
Lately, I have really been convicted about the spiritual temp of our family. I see the effects of the world starting to creep in, and I am very concerned. I am made to ponder on whether or not we are living for Him or for ourselves. Have I given my whole self and family over to Him? Am I holding on to some things that I need to give to the Lord? I grieve for how my sin and flesh may be hindering my prayers. My heart has become cold and indifferent. Oh, how I long for a revival in my heart. I yearn for a renewing of my mind and soul. May the Lord finish the work that was begun in me, and not leave me in this state.
• Friday, March 9, 2007 - Uncharted territory.....
Ok, I am going to share here something that I have not shared with very many people. Thankfully, very few people I know IRL read this blog, so I feel safe!
I have decided to try to record a song. There is a little theatre in a small town near us that actually records songs for you in an actual recording studio. I have always loved singing, and secretly dreamed of being a professional singer. I consider myself a singer already, but not a very good one! There has been a constant struggle in my mind whether or not it was my flesh, or a call from God.
Well, after much prayer and consideration, I will attempt to record a song, and just see where it goes. I have NO preconceived notions nor expectations. I really am just looking forward to actually hearing myself to "see" what I sound like.
My desire to sing is strong, but my desire to serve and honor the Lord is stronger!
• Wednesday, March 7, 2007 - Entry for a neglected blog.....
Well, I am trying to do better. I don't have much to blog about, but I can at least recount the last 72 hours!
Well, to start with, we had a bit of stomach bug to go through out house last week. It was one of those deceiving type, where you think you are better but your not. So, we were on high alert, and bland diets for a while.
Thankfully, we made it through 48 hours of noone getting sick, and so we felt safe to take a mini-trip to a town not far away. The hotel we stayed at had a heated indoor pool that was very nice. The children just wanted to swim all of the time. They had such a blast, and we really enjoyed the time with Dad.
Well, we decided to eat lunch at a New China Buffet type place. Rachael decided to try all kinds of things, including clam. Sure enough, by that evening she was having stomach pain and nausea. It also concerned me when she broke out into a rash. I then decided to give her a phenergan, and let her sleep it off....for by this time it was 3:00am. Today, she had some more tummy troubles, and was pretty weak all day. Quite odd to me!
Our neighbors invited the kids over to go to the mud hole (go 4-wheel riding), and they also got have cake an ice cream that was left over from a birthday celebration. They came home with lots of stories to tell.
I have mountains of clothes that need to be sorted and packed away. It is that time of year where some days are down right hot, and then some are cool. Very frustrating!!!
Hopefully, I will soon figure out how to post pics straight from my camera, and be able to tell about a massive hair ball the LilyGator managed to get in her hair! 8-O
A day in the life of raising these Young youngins that the Lord has blessed and entrusted us with! May His name be glorified in all that is said and done!