Apr. 27, 2008 - Healing
I am back to my blog. A world where I can write without hesitation. I need a place to pour out my relief today.
Last week I published a video montage about my daughter who is almost one year old. She is a beautiful, healthy, vibrant baby. I am so blessed to have and to hold her. Last summer, a few weeks after I began this blog, my 8 week old, 9 pound baby had surgery. I'm sure the doctors and nurses all thought it was minor but it rocked my world. My daughter had a cystic hygroma, also known as a lymphangioma. A fluid filled benign tumor/cyst that grows and grows. It was a malformation in her lymphatic system and every time she got even mildly sick it would grow. She was 3 weeks old on that Saturday morning that I first saw it. I knew it wasn't there the day before and the sight of this lump made my blood run cold. She is my fifth child so I have seen lots of bumps, lumps and such but none like this.
It took us from that moment at 3 weeks until she was 8 weeks old to have surgery. Can you imagine how sleep deprived we still were when we had to juggle appoinments and learn all about this. I must have spent hours doing research trying to fill in the gaps left by hurried doctors appointments and shell shocked moments not even knowing what to ask. Have you ever been so concerned about something that you didn't even know what to ask?
I am glad that summer is behind us, but I wouldn't trade the experience for anything. I leaned on Jesus so much during those weeks. I clung to Him in prayer in overwhelminng confusion and panic. I was able to tell so many about God's love for us and His mercy.
Anyway, this video has been very cathartic for me. It still brings tears to my eyes to see her and to see me. I remember how scared I was. It is done and I feel refreshed. I am so grateful to all of our friends, family and strangers who prayed for us during that time.
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