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Jul. 23, 2008

Photo Journal of Our Summer

For my son Andrews 21st birthday, and daughter Gabriella's 13th birthday, we took them all to Catalina Island for the day. My sons best friend came along. He is living with us until he and Andrew find an apartment to rent near the school they will be attending in the fall, which happily is near us!

Everyone with the exception of the baby was responsible for their own packed lunch and back pack for the day.

It was 10am when they dived into their lunch:)

 

Walking towards that caban at the end there for the tide pools and for the kids to kayak around the island.

A Carnival cruise ship was in harbor for the day.

I love the freedom homeschooling offers us. Adventures and experiences... together.  And on a weekday!

I am fortunate that my husband has a very flexible work schedule, and is always interested in finding  things to do as a family.

 

We found a stable on a walk towards the interior of the island.

This one loves to travel and is always the first one ready to go with dad on an outing.

And this one keeps up with the big kids and finds everything amazing.

Catalina is just 20 miles from our home. It's a nice little day trip. We take an express boat over which is half the fun.

Instructions for kayaking around the island. I was a little nervous as neither my husband or myself would be going. We intrusted our daughters to our son and his friend Chris. They are good guys. Smart, strong and level headed... most of the time.

By the looks on their faces maybe I should be worried... co-conspiritors.

It was a good day...

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Jun. 24, 2008

A Photo Journal of Our Summer

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I have not blogged in such a long time.  I really do miss it.  It has been hard finding the time ever since Bella arrived.  I can't say I have any more time now, quite the opposite actually. The older kids are so busy with activities, classes and such, and well Bella... is quite the handful!  She expects someone to participate with her in all she is doing.  I suppose the result of having so many older kids in the family who dote on her along with Momma and Daddy .  She can usually find SOMEONE to give in to her tugs and pulls and requests to sit and play with her.  She is really quite exacting on HOW she wants you to play too.. anyway... I hope to start blogging again despite the busyness.

I thought a good way to jump back in would be thru a photo journal of our summer. Little writing required which takes the pressure off of writing the days top blog best seller :)

So stop by when you can and see what our family is up to. Take the time to say hello and introduce yourself. I look forward to getting to know you while your getting to know me!

 Two days a week is violin practice. August is break time... I can't wait! (sshhh)

 

 

Archery lessons at the homeschool fair. My four oldest.

Left to right: Dominique-16 Gabriella-13, Andrew-21 (almost), Kadeeja- 14 

At the homeschool fair, each of the girls placed first, second or third.

 

Tia-age 9, won both first place in photography, and also in bread baking!                                                        

    

Dominique, Gabriella and Andrew are all aspiring writers.

Summer is well underway at out house.

We are continuing with a few subjects (math, science, latin and writing), but the pressure is off. No lesson plans have to be prepared... YIPEEE! The kids stay up a little later, sleep a little longer, and everyone is beginning to RELAX.

The end of the year for most is the last day in December... for me, the last day of school seems to be the closing of our year.  I look so forward to the break, but yet as soon as the lesson book closes, I begin to get exited about our "new year" and spend my summer plotting and planning; pouring over catalogs, buying new pencils and mapping out an idea of what next school year just might look like!    

We started homeschooling in 1995 and I still look forward to the first day of "school" :)

 Until then... come back and peek into what we've been up to this summer, and tell me how you and your family are spending yours!

 

 

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Nov. 8, 2007

Our updated photo's

My husband was able to help me resize the photo's so I could post them... thank you husband!

Julianna Bella Rose... we call her Bella

 

All of us except my oldest; and only son.

 

These pictures were taken aboard a Carnival Cruise line the first week of October.  My husband planned this HUGE trip for us, and worked hard for a year to pay for it.

We cruised the Mexican Riviera and had shore days in Puerto Vallarta, Mazatlan and Cabo San Lucas.

It was an amazing trip. The first time my daughters had been on a cruise.  There were so many things that made it enjoyable, but one of the most basic pleasures the girls and I wallowed in everyday was; Seven days of no schedule to follow, chores, school, cooking, cleaning or taking care of the dogs.

Seven days! I don't think I have ever gone seven days since having  children of not doing laundry! It was such a treat.

It was also fun to have the time to primp and dress up.  Very different from the norm :)

Bella did great even though she suffered some with her second tooth coming in.  I have lots of pics I plan on sharing and different blessings that came prior to our trip and during.

I'll give you a little peek to one of those blessings.. A few months after paying for the trip our finances were cut drastically. We didn't know how we could manage to still go, but it was too late to back out. God provided for us in so many ways that allowed us to go and go in style!

It is so neat to see my daughters watch the hand of God move on their behalf. Even in the little things that are of little importance. But our heart desires, no matter how insignificant ,are never overlooked by our loving Father.

Have you ever had a thought, not really ever put into prayer, just a little heart desire for something like wanting to paint your dining room but couldn't due to limited finances?  Then one day, completely out of the blue the Lord  orchestrates events in your life and blesses you with that little, insignificant desire you had??? One that you hadn't even really spoken out loud about?

Those are the times that really make me feel known, looked upon and loved by my heavenly Father.

It is such an adventure to be a believer and watch the hand of God move in our lives and the lives of others.

Walking with the Lord, being loved and led by the Lord, is never boring.

 

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Nov. 7, 2007

Coming Back

   

 It has been so long since I have written anything!

 

Hello my old friends, and hello to those whom I have yet to become accquainted with!

 

Life has been very busy.  All my friends here at homeschool blogger knew God had been very good to me and my family thru healed relationships and the arrival of a new daughter:  Julianna Bella Rose.  

She is beautiful and wonderful, and so enjoyed and loved. 

It's amazing how our hearts as mothers always have room to love another child. And still feel awe and wonder  watching that new life in our arms grow and become their own little person while still being tied to the hearts who conceived them, and the family' whose loved them.

A person. A new life. A part of a family. It thrills my soul.  I have loved being a mother.  I am so pleased with the position God has given me. Mom.

I hope you all enjoy seeing an updated photo of us. I know it is VERY late in coming. So much has happened since then. More growing. Many steps forward,  some backwards.  The Lord will not leave me unrefined... I'm thankful for that. 

 

(after writing this I could not post the family photo's as they are too big and I'm going to need help in re-sizing them so they will upload). Hopefully soon. Keep checking!

It's good to be back. I look forward to re-connecting with old friends, and making new ones.

Beth

 

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Sep. 29, 2006

Appreciation and Praise for Single Mom's

Last Sunday night I sat down and watched Extreme Makeover. It's a television show that selects  families in varying need and circumstances, then blesses them with a new house.

 


 Sitting still long enough to watch a tv show in it's entirety is a rare thing for me. But two things drew me to this particular episode: It was in Alaska, which I love ( I lived there for a short period in my early twenties), and the family being blessed was a single mom with a lot of kids whom she homeschools.

 

Most of you know I was a single mom for a long time with five children. As I watched this show I saw some of me, and many of the single moms I know, in this woman and the life she shared with her children.

 

I looked at what she was trying to accomplish while raising her children alone and  with so little.

Materialisticly(sp?) they had very very little, but where there was a lack of things, there was an abundance in relationship, love, loyalty and family.

 

The time and effort this mom put into the raising of her children was evident in the children's countenance, their open love and adoration for their mother, and their bright, bright, minds.

While I watched I reflected back at  what it took to have that with my own children and my heart went out to her, and to the other mothers out there who are living a life set apart, despite the trials, despite the lonliness and difficulties, to give their children their best. 

By best I mean the giving of themselves; their time, their love and committment to raising honest, loving, caring, and godly children.

You know when you have nothing, sometimes the best there is to give of yourself is more readily given.

Maybe theres something to that?

 

After the show I knew I wanted to post something on my blog to encourage and praise those single mom's out there who are giving their life despite the hardships, to the raising of their children.

I know what it takes, I know the moments of despair, the lonliness, the fears, and even the hard physical labor it takes to do it all alone.

 I'm praising you and thanking you for your love of your children, and your love and devotion to God. I'm encouraging you to hang in there to give those precious blessings the best there is to give:

 

Yourself.

 

You all are wonderful women. Your rewards will come and for many of us, they already have come by the love returned to us from our children.

Just that will make it all worthwhile.

 

Some women I would like to encourage, and praise publically for their love and devotion to their children are:

Lisa

Janet

MaggieRaye

Mary Jo

&

Theresa

 

These are just a few, there are many many in the world who deserve to be recognized.

If you know of one or some, take the time to love on them, praise them, and encourage them.

The line they tote is a hard one. Often times they feel overlooked and forgotten and feel terribly alone outside of their relationship with their children, and their God whom they hold onto desperately.

They are both mother and father, and have to be both man and woman in getting the daily needs met.

Don't forget them.

 

This is your day ladies.  Any of you and all of you who are walking that road of parenting alone:

 

I'm remembering you.

 

Your labor and love are known and appreciated.

Your efforts won't be for nothing. Your reward will be great.

 

I love you and am proud of you all.

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Aug. 22, 2006

Hoping To Be Back Soon!


Hi everyone,

I just wanted to post an update and let everyone know I'm still near, though not quite here!

I shared with you all of our new expected blessing, and with that blessing came extreme morning sickness and fatigue.
The first trimester has passed, and the feeling better days are starting to out number, the not so good feeling days, praise God!

But I am so ever behind in my house, and keeper at home ought to's, and want to's!
I am hoping to catch up here at home, get school rolling by the week of Sept. 4th, and be back here blog writing, and blog reading!

I hope you all have had a great summer, and if your anything like me, your looking forward to a new season; and the routine of being closer to home, learning, teaching,  and growing as a wife, mother, and family.


See you all soon
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Jun. 8, 2006

"The Kings heart is in the hand of the Lord, Like the rivers of water; He turns it wherever He wishes"... He turned his heart back to home.





The Lord has brought home my Adam.


 For many many months, I asked the Lord to bring him home. Reminding Him, in order for me to fulfill my role as Eve, I needed my Adam.  To be his helpmeet.
 The Lord in His unfailing love and compassion heard my cry.  And His response was,
 
"Yes, daughter, I will give you back your Adam.  I believe you know how precious this son of mine is to Me now, just as you are to Me. And you will take the things I've shown you these past months and love and serve Me better by loving and serving him with unconditional love, unconditional honor and unconditional respect.  I trust you to take the things I've taught you, even when it's hard, even when others might say you are a fool, and obey what you know is written in my Word regarding marrige and your role as his helpmeet.  I trust you to obey Me and submit to your husband, and trust Me with the outcomes.  I trust you, to trust Me, with his growth, his heart, his life. I trust you, that you understand, it is the Holy Spirits job, and only the Holy Spirits job, to convict and change him when and if conviction and change is needed.

I'll give Him back to you, now that I know I am your first love and you know all you need is found in Me and you will never again replace Me with another". 


Prayers do get answered. He does give above and beyond all we could ever ask, hope or think. 

He does care when our hearts are broken, He does redeem and restore our lives. 
Not only did the Lord bless our marriage and heal it, He blessed us in many other ways, some I will share at a later time. But one of the ways He has shown us His love and grace, was to open up my womb and bless us with a baby; due the first week of February!  We are both rejoicing, and  looking forward to the coming year, a little older... a lot wiser.


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Jun. 2, 2006

More Than Proverbs 31




Bless those who persecute you;

Bless and do not curse.

Repay no one evil for evil.
Beloved do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, "Vengeance is Mine , I will repay," says the Lord.
Therefore
          "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; If he is thirsty, give him a drink;
           For in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head."

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

...and on her tongue is the law of kindness.

Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.

Do not fret because of evil doers...

Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;
Do not fret, it only causes harm.

Do not let your adornment be merely outward- arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel-
rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God.

Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.


Oh Lord,

So many days  I strive to be like the Proverbs 31 woman.  It's easy to want to be like her.  She's strong, noble, talented,  loved and appreciated by her children and husband. 
Not all verses are so easy to follow, or even desireable Lord, especially when my flesh is warring with my spirit.

I spend so much time Lord trying to do as she would do in the caring of my family.   Often I falter.  I falter because I don't spend enough time  considering  and applying  many other examples of wisdom and holiness that are written throughout your Word.

When I feel unappreciated,  slighted,  taken for granted,  hurt,  or even unloved, I'm too  quick to speak and act impulsivly with words and actions that I think will protect, and defend myself.
I take my pain, hurt and frustrations and create more pain, hurt and frustrations  by giving those same feelings  back to the one/s whom I am angry with.  Sometimes it's my children Lord, or my husband. 

I know the answers aren't on the popular  television or radio shows.  Nor in the trendy woman's magazines.  Their words satisfy my flesh, they justify my feelings of being wronged, and they tell me how I can go about gaining the "power"  to better my situation, and set the people in my life "straight".   But those words are  contrary to Your Word,  and to my spirit.   How I am to be is written throughout scripture.  I fall so short Father.  I want to have a heart like Your's.  I want to have a heart  full of compassion for those who hurt or dissapoint me.  I don't want to repay  unkindness with unkindness, or hateful words, with hateful words.  I don't want to do, if only I'm done for. 

I want to be like you;
Quick to forgive. Full of mercy, grace, compassion and kindness.  I don't need to protect myself.   I just need to obey You.  And You will take care of me.  I don't need to defend myself.  I only need to love.

Playing games of "fairness" Lord with people is tiring.  " I'll scratch your back if you scratch mine",  " love me, I'll love you,"  "be good to me, I'll be good to you"... it's hard keeping up with who owes you what, and  being their conscience and reminding them that they are falling short, then tell them how they need to go about doing it right, and when they don't,   I have to withdraw my friendship, my time, or committment because the score is uneven and their not being "fair" to me.

I want to be done with that kind of living.   It's a horrible way to live.  It' s a horrible way to love.  Its  results are perpetual dissapointment, perpetual broken relationships, and it perpetually keeps me thinking about ME.

Pour your love thru me, to those you've put in my path.   Whether friend or foe.
I trust you Lord  to watch my back,  so I don't have too. 
Forgive me, for repeatedly taking back the reins of  comfort, protection, and provision, and control, because I think I need to take care of myself, because I'm not trusting that You are.  I am wrong when I do that.

My job here is to love, not be loved, or even liked.  Help me get my focus off of me. Keep it only on You, and the precious souls, and hearts of those  you came to love and die for too.

I don't want to be a Joan of Arc, or a martyr...

I just want to be a heartbeat of Christ.

 You gave me a life Lord to do something with.  Not for me, but for You.  Your purpose, Your glory.

Forgive me, and help me.



 


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May. 29, 2006

Two Things: Anyone Hear of RENEWAMERICA.US and What In The World Is "Illuminati"? And Does It Have Anything To Do With Biblical Prophecy Of The Events That Lead Up To Christs Return?

I would like to know if any of you out there in this cyber sphere of friends and fellow believers have heard of  RenewAmerica.us? The minute men and their work is some of the focus, along with Alan Keyes, and many others.

Have any of you seen their website, and what do you all think? There is an article also there discussing the UN trying to make homeschooling illegal. HSLDA is mentioned, maybe even quoated in the article.


Also, on a completely different note... I was doing some reading at organic consumers.org and tripped over some blogs that made refrences to "illuminati". I had no idea what the word meant so keyworded it on my computer, and some pretty weird things came up.
It appears, (in my very unknowledgeable understanding on this), that it is a conspiricy believing group that believe much of the worlds, especially the United States,  is being led into the one world order, goverment, ect. by the control of the very very wealthy who have ties into our goverment thru a secret brotherhood of some sort. Masons were tied to this "illuminati" group. And they claim it has been around for hundreds of years.

Anyone want to shed some light on all of this?

It appears to me, that this group wants to spread fear, and the only answer is in a political revolution. (considering the extremity of our nations current problems, I cant help but think a political revolution might be in order, but am not saying so as a support to this intity).
They do make some biblical claims, but do not point to Jesus as being the saving grace, nor the events being the result of the wrath of God that MUST come to pass to fullfill prophecy for His return.

Please send all your friends over to comment. Would love to hear some food for thought from someone, or someones who have an understanding on all of this!
Please know... I am ignorant in this topic. Just learned of it, so be kind in your informing :)




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May. 22, 2006

Home Again

We got back home late last night... We had a WONDERFUL time.
The girls were fantastic, traveled well and enjoyed everything we did. My husband treated us lavishly. We ate incredibly for three days. His generosity did not go unnoticed by the girls or myself.  We appreciated all he did to make our time together and in Vegas wonderful. It was. Every minute.  I will post pics when I can. My flickr account is all used up for the month, so will have to wait to be able to upload new photos a little later, but I will! We saw so much!

The best part of the weekend wasn't the food, the lights or the opulence of the hotels, it was being with my husband.
 It was hard seeing it come to an end.


"Lord, let my dh know somehow, someway, how much we enjoyed ourselves this weekend. Let him know it was being with him, and by his side, that enabled us to have such a good time. We were happy, we were together, doing something as a family. Let him know how much that meant to me. Let him know Lord he is better, than a thousand trips, or all the money in the universe, to this family. To this woman".

"Thankyou Lord for my husband. Thankyou for such a wonderful weekend with him. Thankyou for his job so that he can do all that he does for us. Thankyou for his love and generousity towards us".

"It was a good weekend Lord. A wonderful weekend. Lord I hope to go again one day, like this time, at the side of my husband, as his wife. Only next time Lord, I ask that we will come "home" together.




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May. 16, 2006





Oh the Lord has been good to me.
So I just want to thank Him.
For His unfailing love and for meeting all my needs. For  His giving above and beyond blessings that are better than I could ever ask or hope for, and for His tender loving mercies that greet me at the dawn of each new day, to see me thru the day.

"Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever"...

I am so thankful to know today, and everyday, I have just what I need, and always will, according to His will and purpose. In this day, and my tomorrows,  and throughout all eternity.
Because of that, I can lay my head on my pillow at night, and have peace to sleep and greet the morning with a greatful heart.

Because of all He has done and will do... I think the least I can do, is greet my Lord each day; my husband and children too; with a smile on my face. :)

  Then devote my heart and hands to give back, that which  has been given, so generously unto me...



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May. 11, 2006

The Day's Happenings At Our Home.

The alarm went off at 3:50am. I got up to see if my son had made it off to work yet, which he had.
I then walked into the living room and checked on our big, gentle giant, Sampson. He is suffering with hip dysplasia in both hips. His days with us are dwindling, as  we know he is really suffering. He's an extremely large dog. Part lab, and mastiff. He has been a good dog for us, and has been wonderful with our kids, and everyone elses. We will miss him when he's gone.
I then checked my email, to see if I had anything special waiting for me. I didn't. So went back to bed, and spent some time in prayer for my family and friends.

Afterwards, I got back up, began a load of laundry, checked my menu plans for that day, then wrote up my to do list of things I wanted to get done.
I then went back to the computer and got caught up on some emails, and read some favorite blogsites/websites on cooking and homemaking.
It's a  nice time to do that, in the quiet of the morning, breakfast started, laundry going, kids and dogs still sleeping....:)

Had my student boarders breakfast ready by 6:30. She leaves at 7 for school.

Generally I walk about 6:30-7:30am, but have had a weird quesy tummy lately, and haven't been feeling myself. So the past couple of weeks, I have instead, enjoyed the quiet of the mornings, to pray, study, and read. It's been really nice, but I miss the walking.

Got the girls up at 7. Had oatmeal for breakfast, then they got right on their journaling and devotions.
While they got going with their things, I sat down with Tia to listen to her read. She is coming along nicely. She then went to set up, and practice for a puppet show she is putting on for us later tonight, and I went to go help the girls with their math.
We are reviewing already learned concepts, and practicing some new. Mastery of these concepts is what we're aiming for as they will be tested in a couple of weeks. Making sure they all can without mistake, compute all the binary operations in fractions, along with mastery of decimals and percentages. Still careless mistakes going on. I tell them, if you  can get them all right the first time, we won't practice it again! Ironically, it's the younger of the three who generally hits the nail on the head the first time around, rather than wasting time by having to do it twice!  The older two hate math, and are easily distracted, loose focus then make silly mistakes. So there we are, doing it again!
But they are progressing. They are applying themselves a little more each day to get them right the first time, so they dont have to rework them.

The baby girl I care for Monday-Thursday comes at 8, but goes down for her first nap upon arrival! Like clock work:) It helps with our morning routine in keeping things on track so we can finish up with all the "have to's" early.

While the baby was sleeping, Tia was playing and the girls were "reworking" their math problems, I scrubbed the kitchen and laundry area from top to bottom. Using a solution of 1/4c. vinegar, 1T. of bleach and a bucket of water, I washed down all the walls, trim, cabinets, fridge, microwave, stove, including the oven. And mopped the floors. I then gave my miniature rose bush that blooms deep red blossoms a manicure as I had spotted a mildewy, something or another on it's leaves. So I cut it down, watered well, and am hoping it will come back ok,
My kitchen colors, are cream, olive green and red. I love red. I love colors. As an artist choosing a favorite color is hard. I like most. I generally wear, neutral colored clothes, which is kind of weird  but like vibrant colors in the house. I gravitate to warm colors, like desert reds, yellows and oranges. In our previous house, it was totally southwest. That is my favorite look and I love the desert. But my husband is from here(LA). So I try to make a home that he will like and enjoy.
I am working towards a vintage feel 1930's country  kitchen, and throw a little italian countryside, rustic pottery into the mix! Ok, maybe more eclectic than vintage.
But what ever the outcome, I want it to look like and feel like a warm, bountiful, nurturing, and nourishing area:)

I made a veggie stir fry and put over noodles for lunch, took out some ground beef, and pork chops from the freezer to thaw to use on the new grill my husband bought last weekend!
He's the grill chef, but he showed me how to use it, in case I wanted to when he's not able too.
But it was so nice of him to do that, and help me with it. I like him in front of the grill, he knows what he's doing, and the food is great.  But I am willing to do it and will enjoy it, until he can do it for me.

For dinner tonight my son picked up burgers at a local grill that has a "burger bash" on Thursday nights for $1.00! And these aren't Mickey D burgers! They are big, and GOOD!
So house is clean, kids fed, school done, and it's only 5:50pm! What am I going to do with myself tonight???

Well, I think I am going to paint. I have started on a peice I dragged in from the garage.(furniture) Something the previous owners left behind. So I am transforming it into something new, and usable, and am hoping to sell it this weekend. Will post a picture of it when I get it done.
Realators in our area are hosting a  yard sale for our entire street this weekend.. Lots of foot traffic. I don't have much left to sale, but I have a few things  left over from a previous time, and my daughters and I,  are going to bake up some things, and try to make some money selling something.
Any ideas????????

We are trying to raise some extra money for a trip my husband is going to take us on next week. Vegas! We will be staying at Circus Circus. It is a hotel that has a  five acre amusement park along with a circus, inside the hotel!
I'm not a gambler, but the food, and shows will be alot of fun! We are so exited to get to spend time with him again. It could be Siberia and I would be happy:)
So the girls and myself would like to pick up a few new things before we go, and for them to have some extra spending money while there.
Anyone got any ideas on what we could bake or make for this sale on Saturday????
We've sold brownies and cookies before and they went fast. Was thinking of cinnamon rolls, or even pies, and selling them by the slice????


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May. 5, 2006

Who I Love And Why

                          



I love my husband because he is strong in strength, and character. He is a man loved by many as he has a compassionate heart, is generous with his finances and gives generously of his time and talents and never complains..
He loves me with a tender quiet love. I love the way my hands feel in his. And I'm on top of the world when his hand reaches for mine.
 He works with his hands, and it's his hands I fell in love with, then his heart :)
He tells me, he fell in love with my mind first, then my heart, so guess were both kind of weird ;)

He excells in his work,  introduced me to barbecue, and when the computer wants to make a mockery of me, and I am ready to throw it across the room, he quietly will come in, gently lead me away, and sit down to fix the problem. He truly has been my night in shining armour. I've always known his shoulders were strong enough, mind bright enough, and heart big enough to take my burdens, and make them his own. I knew it before he was even mine. Thats how I knew he was the one for me. I loved him first. From the top of his head, to the soles of his feet.
At a distance. As a friend. Then one day, he loved me back.
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May. 5, 2006

WhoI Love And Why

 

My son. My only son, and my firstborn.
From day one, I knew he was special. He came in quick, fast and furious, but with wise eyes. Eyes that would always see beyond his years. Eyes that are intimately connected to his heart and soul.
He never cried as a baby, and has been the constant man in my life for 18+ years. He's been there with me thru thick and thin, always loving, and always helping.
He's a reader, a writer, an artist and musician, and when he wants to dodge correction, a comedian.
 He can sling a load of dirt, fix fences, dig ditches, care for wild and wounded animals. He can sit in gutters alongside the poor and needy, and offer companionship, friendship and care. He can stand infront of an elite audience, dressed to the nine, and convince you he knows more than he knows on any given topic. He fits in everywhere. The Lord has granted him favor with people.
He prefers to be alone, although his phone never stops ringing. People seek him.
He seeks alone time. To read his never ending stack of books, strum his guitar, or start  writing on a new book, or a new poem. He's tough but kind. Strong, but gentle.
And best of all, he loves the Lord. And is always willing to be obedient to His Word. Even when he doesn't want to.
He is one of the toughest and most courageous kids out there.. Born with what some would call a serious birth defect, he doesn't see it. And lives his life with grace and enthusiasm. Not even one speed bump in his life due to it.
He also has God's favor. God's face shines on him.
I'm a fortunate mom.
He's been there for me, his sisters, and loves, prays, and cares for his stepdad.


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May. 4, 2006

Who I Love And Why



My peacemaker :) and first daughter.
She's the quiet in the storm, the quiet strength, the constant. Beautiful girl, beautiful heart.
I love her for her thoughtfulness of others, and her willingness to be the first to volunteer to do what it is, no one else is willing to do. She has a meek and quiet spirit which is precious in the sight of the Lord, and precious to me. But underneath all that is determination and strength. Lots of it. She's not a quitter, but stands firmly and diligently, step by step, to accomplish whatever it is, she wants to learn and do. She doesn't look to be in the spotlight, although she deserves to be there.
She is a fantastic artist, an avid reader, and good writer. She has been there for me, to pray for me, to be a help to me, and to love me. She has faced some fierce storms with me, with such faith, courage and strength that awed me. She would stand in front of a lion, and cast him away, to protect me, without ever saying a word.
I have a lot I could learn from her. Such calm, so much wisdom.
Grace and mercy are ornaments she always wears around her neck.
I am blessed and love, my beautiful, talented, kind, and giving daughter.
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May. 4, 2006

Who I Love And Why



This is the one who gave the peacemaker her job :)
She wanted to come into the world in her own way, fighting with the doctors for hours and hours. And just when they thought she would co-operate and come according to the book, she'd go right back to fighting for her own way to have the birth experience, SHE wanted to have :)
She and the doctors were reading different manuals on how it should be done.
It took patience, perseverance, and a firm, but kind hand, a hand and heart that was willing to take the time, to repeatedly ask, show, prod, and tell, how it was going to be. And how she was going to come into the world: The right way, the safe way, the way that was best for her. What a patient doctor God bless him.
Of course, I wasn't just an innocent bystander.  I did my part.  I worked  at pushing, breathing; resting, hoping, trusting, BEGGING, for her to come, and to cooperate. Finally, many hours later and  both of us exhausted, I met her for the first time, on a cold beautiful, autumn New England day. We barely said our howdy do's, when we both nodded off into a deep spent sleep.
I laugh now, because not much has changed. This daughter let me know from the womb, she was strong, and independent and had a mind of her own.
It was and is, the reason I love her. Her strength. Her creativity. Her exuberance. Her independence. Her smile. She's smart. Doesn't miss a thing. Can't get anything over her. Brutally honest, but honest :). If she wants to learn something, she just doesn't want to know about it, she wants to master it.
Beautiful. Fiercely devoted to her family. She's an intricate part of us. We wouldn't be who we are, without her. We need her. Everyone can depend on her to do what we cant :)
I love her so.
She loves languages, is learning Japanese all on her own, and studying the culture.
She's an excellent artist, and has a passion for becoming an artist. Gymnastics is also a love, and a sport that gives her the physical and mental challenge that she needs, and wants.
I am fortunate to be the mother, of such a talented, beautiful, devoted daughter.
She loves me mightily, she loves her family. Whether they are absent or present. And hopes silently, that her little girls dreams, of  family, home and goals, will be something she can firmly and forever hold onto.

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May. 4, 2006

Who I Love And Why

  

Our home school prodigy :)
I love this little girl. She is soooo smart, independent, helpful, resourceful, competent, capable, and caring. Everything seems to come so naturally for her. She's a natural kind of girl.
Loves people, but especially the outdoors, and animals. Loves vegetables. Loves them so much, that even when she was very little, her requested birthday cake  would always be carrot cake :)
Her tears flow easily, her heart big and generous. She is a nurturer, just as her mama.
Instinctivly she knows how to soothe, and comfort. She is a second mother to her little sister, and anything, or anyone else who needs some companionship or care. As I write this, a baby starling sits in a box, that she has set up for it since it fell out of its nest, high up from the fronds of the palm tree in our front yard.
She faithfully feeds it mealworms round the clock with a pair of tweezers. This isn't her first wild orphan baby she has brought in and restored it's life.
When she's not sitting up in a tree, or with an animal, she is humming a new tune on her beloved harmonica, or reading a book to her little sister, or drumming up new business for her entrepenurial idea of the week. Or maybe writing a new poem, or working on her comic story and illustrations.
She's the one that follows her brother up the cliffs, and into the canyons. She loves to explore and enjoy God's creation.
She loves the Lord, and loves and cares for her family deeply. Like her stepdad, she is very generous with her resources. She's a good friend, and likes to talk with and meet people of all ages, race and creed.
She's easy to like, and even easier to love.


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May. 4, 2006

Who I Love And Why

  

Her name is Tia Noel.
But from the first few days home from the hospital, I wished I had named her Tia Rose.
She is a rose, beautiful, fragrant, brings joy and much happiness into the life of our family.
She is so unassuming, yet captivating. She doesn't ask for anything. Expects nothing, And accepts what is. When her heart is broken, she'll  suck it up, and deal with it even when she's not expected or asked too.
 She seems to not ever want to be a part of a problem, or the cause of it. So she complies. Her hope is peace, and love. She'll sacrifice her own little will, for that of someone elses. Sometimes it seems heroic, and I admire it. Other times it causes me to grieve for her.
Emtionally she's very  brave. She loves people, and can see right thru them.. She seems to have a discernment for the reality of a situation, and the character of a person. She knows more than she ought to for a little girl of barely seven. But she will never use what she knows, to tear you down. She'll only use it, to lift you up, and make you feel better.

A case in point: A while back, she and I were alone for the weekend. The older kids were away.  I had spent the majority of the weekend crying.  I could of spent that time making it special  for her, but I couldn't. We were in the car and I was driving around looking for some place to taker her to get  something to eat. The car was silent. I was silent. The only thing that moved were the wheels under us, and the tears that continuously streamed down my face. It had been like that for the whole weekend.
She quietly put her hand, over the top of mine, as my hand rested on the gear shift and looked up at me, and said, "mom, thanks for such a nice weekend". My heart sank. Shame creeped in. And then gratitude.  When I looked at her, all I saw was a trusting, peaceful, believing, little girl.
It wasn't a lie. Not to her. She knew me. She knew the situation. But she chose, and chooses to look at a persons better side. Believing there always is one. So she doesn't panic when things are rough. Yes she's hurt. Yes she hopes. But more than hoping. She believes. She doesn't blame, and she doesn't question. She just accepts, and loves and appreciates what she's got.
What a kid. But thats who she is. God knew what kind of character she would need, to get by in the world and the circumstances she would have to face.

I love her, she is an encourager, and a believer in people.She doesn't wait to be reached for, she'll reach for you when she knows you need her too. She'd be the kind of preacher that wouldn't wait for you to get to the altar to hug your neck. As soon as she saw you coming towards the aisle, she'd go to you, and walk to the alter with you.
 She loves the beach. LOVES it. She loves her sister Gabriella, and her stuffed animals. She would rather have a stuffed animal that she can make believe with, than a toy that can only be used according to the manufacturers design. She avoids anything that might cause her physical pain. Emotionally she's tough. Physically she's not.  She's hardworking, doesn't complain; but boy a skinned knee, or the sight of blood will put the fear and tears into her and out of her!
She's my only girly girl. Loves new clothes, and all the things that makes a girl feel like a girl.
 She has captured the heart of those in our family.
She doesn't have to ask, she's given. She doesn't have to expect anything, because we will and do, anticipate a need or situation and act on it in her behalf before she has time to realize she has a need. She came to us asking nothing, and still asks for so little. But we want to give her everything. We want her family, to be a soft pillow she can land on, and rest in, when things around her, and inside her are hard.


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May. 4, 2006

Who I Love And Why

 

Sampson, the big yellow dog, Lola the bird, and Sheba, the watcher over the home and protector of  those who dwell within :)
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Apr. 26, 2006

Toils and Snares

Light has dawned in the darkness.
Darkness that tried to overcome me these past two days.
When the sobs quieted, and my flesh was tired of wrestling, I laid still, opened my eyes, and saw Him. Illuminating the terror of the blackness all around.
Fear fled, pain subsided.

I know he was always there. My flesh just didn't want to see Him, or acknowledge Him.
When I got tired of myself and reached for Him,
He reached back.
The poor, pathetic, undeserving sinner I am, He reached back.

The tears still fall,
But I can see Him through them,
His light shines ever before me.
He sees each one, and the broken heart behind them,
Then captures each drop in a bottle, not missing a one,
And tells me:


" Those who sow in tears, shall reap in joy.
He who continually goes forth weeping bearing seed for sowing,
Shall doubtless come again with rejoicing,
Bringing his sheaves with him".               Psalms 126: 5-6

My tears are hot and warm on my face, but they bring me comfort. In them, one day, they will bear testimony, of His promises to me.


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