I have found myself so unmotivated for the last few weeks. We worked very hard to redo the kitchen and living room several weeks ago...and I had hopes that the redo would motivate us all to keep it picked up and clean, but I was wrong. It stayed nice for a while but now it's just ick.

I'm gone from home quite a bit right now, 6-7 hours on days that I have to take FIL for his treatments, and with the farm related work that we *have to do* it seems that I just cannot find time to do what I need/want to do inside. It's to the point of needing more than just maintenance, and I can't even seem to make myself start on the days that I am able to stay home.

I checked out Flylady's book, Sink Reflections, from the library  hoping that would motivate me...but I haven't even been able to force myself to dig into it.

A few years ago I used my timer daily. I would set the timer for 30-45 minutes and work diligently during that time..then I would set it for another 15-30 minutes to take a break (most of the time online). That worked really well for me, maybe because I knew that there would be an end and a *reward*. Kind of like a child, huh?

Along with the timer, I developed a system of cleaning...starting at one end and working to the other, doing things in each room. Most of the time it would take around an hour of  working to be completely done with the indoor things (minus laundry..). I don't expect that to be the case while I'm trying to recover the house though.

So, I've decided that I'm going to dig out the timer...tomorrow.  My husband will be taking FIL for his treatment tomorrow and Friday(I've been doing it even when he could to *bless* him...but right now I just need to be home  ), so I will have Thursday-Saturday to accomplish what needs to be done. He will leave at 6:30am each morning, and be home between 12:30 and 1:30. I will need to work diligently during that time because he will have things that he needs our help with when he gets home.

I'm thinking that I need to stay offline some...I've been using it, along with movies, as an escape lately. I am not going to punish myself though...don't really feel like I've been naughty or negligent..just going through some tough things right now and it's effecting different areas of my life which, in turn, has pushed me to seek escapes. Not saying it's healthy...but it is what it is.

I sat down earlier to make a list of things that need to be done, but I didn't get very far. I think it might be better if I just pick a room to start in, and work through it. None of them are horrible, but look a bit neglected.

I'm also not sure about enlisting the help of the boys. Sometimes that works out great, but sometimes it's just better if I do the work myself...and when I am done I can show them the results, explain their responsibility and walk away. Now is probably one of those times...I'm thinking that I may have them do certain jobs before I send them out, and then I will *do my thing* afterward.

Maybe I will update later, or tomorrow, with a list of things to do...for today, laundry needs to be caught up so that won't be part of the list.