I owe you an update... so sorry I haven't made it back before. There's no good reason apart from tiredness and a bit of time needed to get to this point mentally.

Things are going a lot better - the big reassurance came from Mum's lovely cleaner who rang and told me that, having spent a couple of hours with mum, she was vastly improved on how she had been before hospital. Mum still gets very tired but at least she has accepted a couple of hours' help from her cleaner on another day so I know she gets some input three days out of seven. I do hope and pray she will make this a permanent arrangement and add in a Saturday, which would break up the long run of days when she manages on her own.

N is soooo much better and back at work. Today he went for a cycle ride - the second since being ill. After the first he decided he had a way to go to get fit again, but after this one he seemed to recover more quickly, though I suspect he will feel it later. At present he is taking J on driving practice.

H has a hacking cough but otherwise seems fine - I think he has whatever N had but it hasn't got as much of a grip on him. L has a cold - she seems prone to them as I was at her age - but I don't think it's anything out of the ordinary.

And it's spring. It's definitely spring. It decided to be spring on my birthday, which was a good day for it to happen! I no longer feel I am straining in the dark for something that looks like hope. I saw just one glimpse of it just a couple of hours before we had the phone call from Mum that set this whole thing in motion. I was tense and anxious, being unable to get through on the phone and knowing mum was in very poor shape physically, and N took me for a walk across some farmland and up into a little wood. There I saw sunlight shining through the trees on the path ahead of me and to me it looked like hope... nothing had had quite that effect for some time and it came just when I needed it, because after that came a time when I needed it. Now there are signs of hope all around: the white tips on the damson branches, the daffodils, the warmer air, the fact there is still daylight at six o'clock in the evening. It all makes it much easier.

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Posted by deedeeuk

That she is doing better. Praise the Lord! I'm enjoying the breath of spring down here too. Now if that wind and rain would just stop for awhile it would be nice! LOL!

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