Is it just that I am pregnant, or is it more than that? Before I became pregnant back in March I loved to spend time with the Lord in prayer and Bible study. But ever since I was about 6 weeks pregnant I have not been able to.
I had really bad morning/afternoon/evening sickness and absolutely no energy ... not even mental energy. All I wanted to do was sleep ... and when I wasn't sleeping I was watching somthing mind-numbing on TV. My husband bought me a book that I wanted for Mother's Day and I have yet to pick it up and read it.
A dear friend encouraged me with Isaiah 40:11 ... that the Lord had been gently leading me and that He understood. And I have all along felt His guidance, His love, His conviction as I have needed it. I have not felt particularly distant from Him and He has given me some good insight into some things over the past couple of months.
During this time I have learned an awful lot about myself and how my priorities have been so out of whack, and now my focus is so much more on my family than it ever has been. And yet ... I feel as if the Lord is gently calling me closer - back to our sweet times together in prayer and reading His word. But I cannot seem to get motivated ... I cannot seem to "find my way back" so to speak ... I guess I need to just do it.
But the seed on good soil stands for those with an honest and good heart. They hear the message. They keep it in their hearts. They remain faithful and produce a good crop.
The Dirt On Me
I am a husband loving, child adoring, homeschooling, grace-based parenting, nature loving, organic gardening, flip flop wearing, wheat grinding, bread baking, art enjoying, music loving, free thinking, God worshipping, prayer believing, status quo challenging, whole-food eating, home loving, always questioning, truth seeking, Jesus loving, blessing claiming, over analyzing, continually growing, Scripture studying, overcoming, ever wondering Daughter of the King, wife to one wonderful & wacky husband, and mommy to 2 lovely & lively princesses (and a crazy beagle too!)
• Little Buttercup = Our oldest Daughter (6 Years old)
• Baby Buttercup = Our youngest daughter (10 Months old)
• Buttercup = ME
• Farm Boy = My Dear Husband
• If you don't understand the names "Buttercup" and "Farm Boy" then you simply MUST see The Princess Bride ... our favorite movie!
and absolutely no energy ... not even mental energy. All I wanted to do was sleep ... and when I wasn't sleeping I was watching somthing mind-numbing on TV. My husband bought me a book that I wanted for Mother's Day and I have yet to pick it up and read it. 
