Just call me lazy I guess. I have not put a post on for a long time and have no reason other then I have been lazy.

I am working on a couple of things for church, a couple of things for my local Little League, a couple of things for myself musically, but most of all trying to get myself organized . It is very hard trying to get organized when you suffer from depression and ADHD and you run out of medication. Its like you are sitting in the middle of a forest fire, trying to figure the best way to escape death and thinking about what is that flower doing here, why doesn't that bird fly out of here, who the heck started the fire in the first place, what can I do to put it out, why did I leave the light on my nightstand on, who left the dishes in the family room and what the heck did they eat, and so on and so on and so on. All of this within a 3 second timeframe and it repeats over and over and over and over again, all the while the fire is getting closer and hotter and you can't think a bout what is the thing that will impact your life the most within the next moment. I DON'T HAVE A CLUE WHAT I AM SAYING ANYWAY............

I have never been good a setting priorities. As you can tell from the above, my priorities are totally wrong. Now I know what my priorities are supposed to be. God first, then my wife, my children, my family, my church brothers and sisters, my friends, my work and then anything else comes last. But you know what; I can never get them in the right order. Sometimes I do it right but more times than not I get them wrong. We had a guest preacher in church today and he said something I have heard many times before but it really hit home today. If I am not fully repentant of all of my sins and ask for forgiveness and help to not turn to the same sins again, God cannot work in or through my life. He will be there saying, “I Love You, please come closer to me, I will heal all of you pain”.  If I allow the same sins to permeate my mind, I may have divine protection for a small season, but eventually, sin will slowly take hold and blind me from my priorities.

So what am I to do???/ PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY.   That is the most important advice I can give to you, my family, or my friends. PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY. Now please excuse me while I go PRAY. One thing I will be praying for is the resources to be able to get my medication so I will actually be able to post something that is coherent.