Aug. 9, 2008 - The latest news...
In my last post I said that I would tell you why the website www.dayswithmyfather.com was so special to me, but it will have to wait. Sorry. Some of you may already know.
Today I want to give you an honest and true update on what is going on in our lives. We need your prayers. Sometimes I don’t know how to pray.
First of all, I’ll give you the good news. The adoption of my children is finally official! I am so happy. We had a small celebration on the day we found out. I will write a more complete post on that at a later time. It is SO good to be done with DHS! Technically, I am still a certified foster care provider, but I won’t be taking in any children at this time.
I’m not exactly sure how to say this or what to write. I will say that I know God is good ALL the time and the He WILL be glorified in all of this. I think part of me is afraid to talk about this because it is so personal and I’m afraid of being judged or blamed. . .and especially criticized. However, I know I am not the only one going through such a thing. I don’t know anybody else that is experiencing this exact thing, but statistics show that I’m not alone. I hope that this can be a place of encouragement. I may need you to remind me of the Lord’s goodness from time to time.
My husband and I are no longer together. We have been married for over 13 years. This is not my desire. He has chosen someone else. I will freely admit that I was not the model wife. I don’t wish to cast blame here, though it is so easy to do. I find it incredibly easy to go through the “what ifs”, but they all go unanswered. I cannot change what has happened. Some have asked if they should pray for reconciliation and restoration. Sure. I’m not going to get in the way of God’s work. My flesh doesn’t desire it. I have Biblical reason for divorce. However, he is planning to divorce me. My children are hurting. I am hurting. Our lives have been turned upside down. I don’t know what will happen with the house or the debt or anything.
I do know that God has been so gracious to me in the past couple of months. He has never failed me in the past. God is my provider, my shelter, my deliverer.
Pray that I have the heart of God in this. Pray for my children. Pray for my husband. He needs Jesus, too. Oh, you can also pray for my husband’s girlfriend. She needs the Savior just like the rest of us. The only difference is that we know we do and she doesn’t. (Just so you know, I am not always so nice about all this, but I figured that it would be easier for some of you to pray for them than it is for me to do so.)
I don’t know what else to say, but in future posts I will share how the Lord is blessing me in so many ways!
Comments
Aug. 9, 2008 - Praying for you
Posted by ccparker
I am so sorry to hear about you and your hubby. Its always sad when people divorce especially after being married so long. My prayers are with you and your family.
-Colleen
Aug. 10, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Anonymous
Glad to see a new post. I know you've been busy. I'm so excited for your adoption to be finally complete! Yeah!
I hope you had a wonderful, restful time in Eugene. I think of you often and hope we can get together soon! Praying for you all! Love, Shannon (td)
Aug. 11, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Anonymous
Oh, Dar, you know I love you so much! I know what you're going through and my heart aches for you and the children as well, but I know you see God working in all of this and I know you have complete trust in Him. You have always been such an example to me and even moreso now! I love you! -Rachel
Aug. 11, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by JADsmama3
Oh! I am so sorry to hear this!!! I will be praying for you, your children, your husband and his girlfriend.
Congratulations on the adoption being finalized, though! That is great news!
Blessings,
Vania
Aug. 14, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by AsLivingStones
Oh man, I am so sorry, Dar!! Praying.
