Aug. 19, 2008 - A time to live...
Life can be strange and ironic, can't it? My nephew, Levi, has a new son. It doesn't seem like that long ago that I was holding Levi in the hospital. I remember feeling so nervous. I was 15, he was only hours old. His feet were so small. I also have an older sister (through my adoption...so actually my aunt) that I never talk about. I've never spoke of her because we've never had relationship. Our family is broken and full of hurt and bitterness. I never really knew her. She is dying. I went to see her in the hospital. I am so glad I did. I have nothing against her. I am sad at a relationship lost. I know she finally found a good man to stand by her. When I saw her in the hospital bed I was reminded of our mom. This particular sister looks like our mom. That was hard. I don't know if it mattered to her that I came to see her. I may never know. I don't know what to think about the experience. I have always wanted to be loved by her. Maybe I am.
Comments
Aug. 20, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Rebeca
Wow, I can't believe Levi has a son. Isn't he only 7? :> I'm sorry about your sister Dar. I love you, and was just thinking and praying for you this morning. Give the kids my love. Beca
Aug. 20, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Your Sis Laurie
I'm wanting to tell you I don't feel any hurt or bitterness toward Margo.
She was such a stranger I feel.....nothing. I know that sounds horrible. I had just learned to expect nothing concerning her. Except.. the only time I saw her or spoke with her was when someone was dying or dead.I just could not keep up this strange kind of circle of dance.
I Love you, and ask for your forgiveness. If I have hurt you. I won't ask for you to understand. You are a strong beautiful person and a Joy to have as a sister!
