I read on the forums tonight a thread titled "Who am I?"  It got me to question the same thing.  As the poster wrote.... What do I really believe? I hear what I say and I see what I do but do I really believe in what I'm doing.  I still ponder this question and actually have been for as long as I can remember.  She just put into words what has been on my mind for a long time.  Now, I believe in God, but do I believe in myself enough to follow through with home schooling?  I've rarely finished anything in my life..... does that make me a failure?  Now that I have a daughter, will her successes and failures reflect on the time and interactions I've had with her?

The longer I think about "who am I? What do I really believe?" the more questions I come up with.  More questions than answers.  Do I have the courage to give my worries and life over to God?  Why must I try to hold onto a shred of control instead of giving everything to Him?  See?  More questions.  It was easier with just me to take care of and worry about.  Actually I didn't worry as much as I do now with a little one.  But easier isn't always better.  I need to learn to trust in Him so I can pass that along to my daughter.  I just hope and pray home schooling is one thing I finish.

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