this blog was inspired by some dear women sharing their homes, through pictures, on a cyber home I belong to. Most of these homes were organised, tidy, homey and beautiful.
Do you know what all these pictures of your homes make me want to do?
Hire a dumpster.
And.
throw everything, except appliances and absolutely necessary furniture ... in it.
Toys. extra furniture, clothes, dishes, shoes, boots, hangers, even books (not all of them, save the good ones, and the school ones - but everything else GONE). Every thing, in every room would be stripped down bare. Then, maybe, I would have a home worthy of taking a few pics and sharing. 
I've been trying, since the first one was posted a couple of weeks ago ... to be able to get to the point of taking a picture to share. Trust me, it would be an uncomfortable thing, indeedy, to just walk in to any room in this house (that's all 10 rooms, 2 bathrooms, hallway, stairways and entryway) and just click a picture and then blissfully go and upload it here - or anywhere. I wouldn't be able to just say 
please excuse the drying dishes on the counter, or the fixings for breakfast, or the magazine and load of laundry, or small toys or whatever, in the picture. We haven't done our morning chores yet.
HA! You, my dear beloved sisters and friends, have NO IDEA of what messy, dirty, unkept can be. Not if I go by the pictures I saw here.
I really really wish I had the guts to just do that. Hire a dumpster, and just go through each room systematically stripping it down to barren, utilitarian needs only. I'm thinking, specifically, of the Convent our Women's Retreats are held in. The rooms are quiet, dignified and just what you need, nothing more. A small bathroom off each, a single bed, comfortably made up with solid good blankets, a pretty coverlet. Nice matching curtains. A small chair to sit in, a desk to write at, and a small bureau. Nothing else.
Now, lest you think I thought any ... I mean ANY of your homes looked that way ... sort of utilitarian, and plain - NOT AT ALL. I thought they were lovely. Most were attractively set out, with little touches of individuality showing through - even in rooms housing many children.
I was, I have to admit (seems a day for admitting things, for me.) envious of just about every home displayed. The home-i-ness, the order, the peace, family, contentment .... I don't know .. just that 'it' that homes with lots of love (for the members of it, and their 'space') show.
I'm not doing a very good job explaining this ... but I know in my heart, what I'm trying to say ... and it is good (about your homes 
).
No really point to this entry ... just sort of ... wistful and longing, for something I clearly am not good at accomplishing - over the long haul. (I can often get it in gear for short periods of time ... but that's about it).
Thought I should note:
Just so no one worries, this is not about being down or depressed. Trust me, since I've actually been through depression, I do know what that feels like. This is not that.
it's more about a waking up, looking around, and just not liking what I see, where I'm at. Feeling somewhat overwhelmed with how to get from here .....................>to there. I mean both with my weight and our physical home.
It honestly isn't a pity party ... more of a Get With it Party. But how do I get with it, and what do I bring to the party? 
I'm not sitting here all mope-y, sad and down, thinking dark thoughts. I'm really just at a place where I crave change, and am having a very difficult time dealing with how to satisfy those cravings - needs.
Comments
Jun. 13, 2007 - me too
Posted by Anonymous
I want a dumpster too. Too much stuff to have to take care of--simplicity is what I long for.
:)
Kerri