Mommy At Heart

Well here is a very recent picture of me….look much better than I used to. Stress will do that to you. I saw my ex-husband for the first time in three years on Tuesday…seriously it was the first time I have laid eyes on him in that long. I’m happy to say I am completely over him. He looked good…but I don’t feel sad anymore. That’s a good thing. I think there is a part of me that will always love him. He was my heart for so long. I hope we can eventually become friends again….but maybe that is hoping for too much. I am separated from my husband now…I can’t handle the violence and abuse anymore. I never saw myself as an abused woman…but my friends helped me realize it. I still have a major problem feeling safe by myself. It really helps to have my college kids home for the next month. I love my kids so much. Just wanted to say hi.

Well I’ve been trying and trying to insert a recent picture but it has been so long I think I have forgotten how. My baby that I wrote about last time is now 19 months old and he is the light of my life. His name is Curtis. I am a single mother, getting ready to go through yet another divorce. I work M-F at the Olive Garden. Curtis is in a wonderful daycare…never thought I would ever hear myself say that. The last few months have been really terrible for us as I have been in a very verbally abusive relationship with my husband and this past friday he tried to kill me. He strangled me until I went unconscious. I was able to get out safely and am now in a safe place. I never thought before that he was capable of ever hurting me even though all my friends and family have told me he was dangerous. I know now and am very ready to get out.
My other children are all doing very well. Jon, 20, is in his 3rd year of college. Charles, 18, just started college this year. My two girls, Zoe,16, and Madeline, 15, are both in high school and loving it. My younger 3, David, 9, Daniel, 8, and Rose, 6, are still living with their dad, but I see them as much as I want and we have a very good relationship. And then Curtis is my heart! He is such a precious child! Anyway, If I can figure out how to upload a picture on here from facebook, I will do it. If you would like to see pics of my children, find me on facebook under Holly Alexander Burton. Have missed everyone!

Just wanted to let everyone know that baby "Curtis Alexander Burton" was born February 9th at 2:07am.  He was 7lbs. 8oz. and was 19 3/4 inches long.  I was induced 3 and 1/2 weeks early due to preeclampsia.  I ended up having to have a c-section after 17 hours of labor.  He is just beautiful and I am so happy he is here. 

Just though everyone might like to know that I am expecting my eighth child in February 2010!  I am so excited and happy, but a little scared also.  If anyone has any cloth diapers/accessories they would like to get rid of, please do let me know!  I donated all of my cloth diapering supplies to Abortion Alternative, so now I am starting all over.