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• Nov. 8, 2008 - Hello
• Oct. 17, 2008 - Pain
The pain is there again. It is there in the morning when i wake up, like a reminder that I don't want. It is there when I try to go to sleep at night. How do you get over a heart that is broken...broken from missing my children so much that it hurts, but also broken from missing the one that I have loved with all of my heart. How do you get over loving someone still who doesn't love you anymore...sometimes it just doesn't seem real to me.
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• Oct. 14, 2008 - Trying Hard to Live This Life
I am trying so hard everyday to live this life...and it is so extremely hard. It is hard not having my little ones with me. I worry about them everyday. I worry about my son, who is in school, the things he is picking up from other children, and the influences he is coming under. I worry about my other two little ones in daycare...being raised the best part of their day by strangers and not their mother. And I struggle with this worry most every day it seems. I was reading on a friends blog about how she worries and then lays it at Christ's feet...I do this as well. I worry and worry then pray about it, and I am ok for a few days, then it starts all over again. It's hard for me not to worry about them...but I also feel guilty for not being there with them...even though it was not my choice to NOT to be there. I would give anything on this earth to be back with my children. I love them and i miss them so much. Little ones especially need their mother....and it is my goal in life to get them back. Please pray for this situation...that somehow the Lord would work it out...and to take this burden of worry and guilt from me.
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• Oct. 14, 2008 - Just An FYI
Just so everyone knows...the majority of my posts from now on will be viewable by registered users only, so if you come by and see that I haven't posted in awhile, try logging in...it has become necessary for me to censor my posts as in my case it is no longer a FREE country...and people who shouldn't be reading my blog are.
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• Oct. 12, 2008 - Please Pray...
I have some personal/family/legal issues I am dealing with...very upsetting, and very stressful. I can't go into detail right now because I am forbidden to, but please keep me in your prayers...especially tomorrow. I don't have the money for legal counsel, so the Lord will have to be my defense attorney. Please just keep me in your prayers. I would so appreciate it.
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• Sep. 9, 2008 - A New Morning
I have taken advice from everyone and am trying my best to focus on the Lord and not my circumstances around me. It is sooo hard. But He gave me these verses to lean on...
"For men are not cast off by the Lord forever. Though He brings grief, He will show compassion, so great is His unfailing love, For He does not willingly bring affliction or grief to the children of men." Lamentations 3:31-33
"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." Lamentations 3:22-24
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• Aug. 29, 2008 - Looking Up...
I am trying so hard to look up this weekend instead of letting myself get down about not seeing my children this weekend. I know they will be having fun...and seeing their other grandparents, so I am not worried about their missing me. I can still pray for them, and get busy with other things this weekend. I have to be out of this house by the end of September, so I really need to start packing AGAIN...as well as actually finding a CHEAP apartment. Please pray that the Lord will work my housing situation out. So, I am going to spend my weekend organizing, cleaning out and packing...and lots of PRAYING!
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• Aug. 26, 2008 - Wordless Wednesday......
• Aug. 26, 2008 - Simple Woman's Daybook
For Today...I am just so thankful to have a job that I love!
Outside my Window...you can hear the chirping of the crickets, bats flying low though the air, and the sweet sound of rain on my tin roof!
I am thinking...of just how much I have to do tomorrow...appt. at 9am, then to work by 10:30am, work until 5, and then go and wash clothes...will be a long day.
From the learning rooms...though I am no longer able to homeschool my children, no one says that I have to quit learning. I ordered some books awhile back..2 from Beverly Lewis, One max Lucado-3:16, and Walking with the God who cares.
I am thankful for...My oldest son Jon...he has created a bright spot in our home and gives me the will to keep on...also thankful for close frinds.
From the kitchen...just took out a batch of dried cherry scones to have in the morning for breakfast...they are so YUMMY!
I am wearing...a short babydoll nightgown
I am reading...in my Bible...Psalm 139, and Revelation 1-2
I am hoping...to see my three older children this weekend
I am creating...a soft and cuddly baby blanket for my son for his birthday, which will have embroidered on it..."Mommy Loves Daniel!"
I am hearing...rain tapping on my tin roof
Around the house...have lit numerous candles...and turned off all the lights..creates such a peaceful atmosphere
One of my favorite things...is White Tea and Ginger Body lotion from Bath & Bodyworks...I love to smell good!
A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week...Not any major plans...just working and finally getting around to doing some laundry.
Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...
I took my little ones to the park on Sunday and I think we pushed them in the swing for an hour straight! It was wonderful to spend some time with them! Have a wonderful rest of the week everyone!
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• Aug. 22, 2008 - A "New to Me" Shirt
The Lord never ceases to amaze me at the extent He will go to provide a need for me. As you all know, I just got a new job here in town as a waitress, which is going great and I really like it. I have to wear black pants, short-sleeve shirt and shoes to work. And a black apron. (Hey, it does make me look thinner ) I really needed another black shirt to rotate with, so I went to a goodwill store. I had in my mind what I would LIKE to find....a plain black v-neck with short sleeves. Would you believe the very first shirt I saw was just that, and IN MY SIZE, AND looks BRAND NEW! So, I got it for FREE! It really is mind-blowing to know that He even cares about the little things in our life. I just had to smile and send up a silent thank you when i found this shirt. What a blessing! |
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• Aug. 20, 2008 - Making Bread....
My son and I have been going through a really tough financial time here lately. I had to go for the first time to a food box distribution center just to get some food for our home. At first I thought it would be humiliating, but seeing the kindness of the women who worked there, I decided to feel grateful that the Lord had provided for us once again. I have been trying as much as possible to make everything from scratch and to make things last for several meals. I have also wanted to start making my own bread again. The only thing is I don't have any yeast right now, and can't get any for a week and a half, So, here's my question ladies...does anyone know how to make Whole wheat bread without using any yeast? Or even a yeast substitute. Any ideas anyone??? |
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• Aug. 19, 2008 - Home For Me...
Well just as sure as things start falling apart, then the Lord starts to re-work them out. I am getting ready to lose the house I am in because the owners are raising the rent from $500.00/month to $750.00/month. Way more than I can afford. I had applied several months ago for help with public housing here in the town that I live. They called me today and said that they could probably have us in a 2 bedroom apartment in another week. While the thought of moving again doesn't thrill me, just knowing that He has worked all of this out is mind-blowing to me. The owners had told me that I would have to begin paying the new price October 1, but Tennessee law states that if a single parent has any dependant children, then by LAW I have 90 days to be out as well as keeping the rent the same as when we first signed the lease. So, I will be losing my pretty little house, but I have decided that any place I live can be a home..if you choose to make it one! And that is not all of the Lord's work today...I had a job interview this afternoon..and the owner hired me on the spot. It is a small italian restaurant 1 minute from my house. It is called Primos. I can make a little more money per month working less hours than I am now, and no night shift! So those are my blessings from God today! Just had to share! |
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• Aug. 14, 2008 - Feeling Stronger...More Like the Woman God meant me to be Everyday!
• Mar. 26, 2008 -
| So many of you have been by my blog asking how things are. Probably the worst thing that could happen to me happened on Monday of this week. My husband filed for divorce. I won't go into all the details, but I would so appreciate you lifting up our family in prayer. Pray that we could work things out. Pray for my husband..he is under alot of stress. Pray for my children. Pray for me...to work out my problems, and ask Him just to support me through this. |
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• Mar. 10, 2008 - What's Going On This Week....Monday Meanderings, Menu Plan monday...

1. Bible Study: Currently reading in Ephesians, and really just making time is what i need to do!
2. Zone: De-clutter and clean out broken/un-used toys. Also move all toys to bedroom area.
3. Train Them Up: Working on being a servant to each other without expecting anything in return...ex-"I want to catch them doing something good for someone else."
4. Homeschool: We really need to get caught up this week on Math and Language Arts. I had a migraine four days last week.Technically, though, we're never really behind though are we? 

Monday - Sandwiches, pretzels, chocolate milk...thought we would have a REAL gourmet night! 
Tuesday - Catalina Chicken/Pineapple, Brown Rice, Steamed Broccoli, Crescent Rolls
Wednesday - Crockpot Chili, Corn Muffins
Thursday - Shrimp, asparagus, and Penne pasta with asiago cheese sauce, crescent rolls, fruit salad
Friday - Eat Out!
Saturday - Sausage, sausage gravy, biscuits, fried apples(a true southern delicacy!)
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• Feb. 27, 2008 - Feeling Better

I have a few minutes, so I thought I would give an update. I woke up Sunday morning not feeling well, and I had almost talked myself out of going to church, but something inside just kept telling me to get ready. I got my children ready and we went. I am so glad that i did. I felt like i had the entire world on my shoulders, and sat almost numb during the service. Something the Pastor said just spoke directly to me...He described someone, who may be in our congregation right now. This person was saved many years ago, but has always felt that God was far away. This person has screwed up so many times they may feel they are unworthy of being loved by anyone, especially God. It was like he was describing me EXACTLY! And then he said something that profoundly spoke to my heart..."WE CANNOT UNDO WHAT JESUS DID FOR US ON THE CROSS! No matter how many times we mess up or fail, there is nothing that can separate us from His love!" I prayed right then and thanked Him for loving me in spite of all my failures. And while I am still struggling with some issues, I truly do feel much better...I so appreciate all the kind words and prayers sent up on my behalf.
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• Feb. 13, 2008 - Wordless Wednesday....

I thought the perfect theme for this week's Wordless Wednesday and Valentine's Day would be pictures from our wedding on July 10, 2004. We had a very small wedding with only family and close friends. It was just beautiful...and truly was one of the happiest days of my life.
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• Feb. 6, 2008 - Adventures in Grocery Shopping

I am sure most of you have seen this already, but it really deserves a re-print. This is the "famous" ebay auction written by a mother of six children. I had read it before, but just really needed a laugh today...please take the time to read it...I found myself laughing out loud when I re-read it again.
I'm selling a bunch of Pokemon cards. Why? Because my kids sneaked them into my shopping cart while at the grocery store and I ended up buying them because I didn't notice they were there until we got home. How could I have possibly not noticed they were in my cart, you ask? Let me explain.
You haven’t lived until you’ve gone grocery shopping with six kids in tow. I would rather swim, covered in bait, through the English Channel, be a contestant on Fear Factor when they’re having pig brains for lunch, or do fourth grade math than to take my six kids to the grocery store. Because I absolutely detest grocery shopping, I tend to put it off as long as possible. There comes a time, however, when you’re peering into your fridge and thinking, ‘Hmmm, what can I make with ketchup, Italian dressing, and half an onion,’ that you decide you cannot avoid going to the grocery store any longer. Before beginning this most treacherous mission, I gather all the kids together and give them “The Lecture“.
“The Lecture“ goes like this…
MOM: “We have to go to the grocery store.”
KIDS: “Whine whine whine whine whine.“
MOM: “Hey, I don’t want to go either, but it’s either that or we’re eating cream of onion-ketchup soup and drinking Italian dressing for dinner tonight.”
KIDS: “Whine whine whine whine whine.“
MOM: “Now here are the rules: do not ask me for anything, do not poke the packages of meat in the butcher section, do not test the laws of physics and try to take out the bottom can in the pyramid shaped display, do not play baseball with oranges in the produce section, and most importantly, do not try to leave your brother at the store. Again.”
OK, the kids have been briefed. Time to go.
Once at the store, we grab not one, but two shopping carts. I wear the baby in a sling and the two little children sit in the carts while I push one cart and my oldest son pushes the other one. My oldest daughter is not allowed to push a cart. Ever. Why? Because the last time I let her push the cart, she smashed into my ankles so many times, my feet had to be amputated by the end of our shopping trip. This is not a good thing. You try running after a toddler with no feet sometime.
At this point, a woman looks at our two carts and asks me, “Are they all yours?” I answer good naturedly, “Yep!
“Oh my, you have your hands full.”
“Yes, I do, but it‘s fun!” I say smiling. I’ve heard all this before. In fact, I hear it every time I go anywhere with my brood.
We begin in the produce section where all these wonderfully, artistically arranged pyramids of fruit stand. There is something so irresistibly appealing about the apple on the bottom of the pile, that a child cannot help but try to touch it. Much like a bug to a zapper, the child is drawn to this piece of fruit. I turn around to the sounds of apples cascading down the display and onto the floor. Like Indiana Jones, there stands my son holding the all-consuming treasure that he just HAD to get and gazing at me with this dumbfounded look as if to say, “Did you see that??? Wow! I never thought that would happen!”
I give the offending child an exasperated sigh and say, “Didn’t I tell you, before we left, that I didn’t want you taking stuff from the bottom of the pile???”
“No. You said that you didn’t want us to take a can from the bottom of the pile. You didn’t say anything about apples.”
With superhuman effort, I resist the urge to send my child to the moon and instead focus on the positive - my child actually listened to me and remembered what I said!!! I make a mental note to be a little more specific the next time I give the kids The Grocery Store Lecture.
A little old man looks at all of us and says, “Are all of those your kids?”
Thinking about the apple incident, I reply, “Nope. They just started following me. I’ve never seen them before in my life.”
OK, now onto the bakery section where everything smells so good, I’m tempted to fill my cart with cookies and call it a day. Being on a perpetual diet, I try to hurry past the assortment of pies, cakes, breads, and pastries that have my children drooling. At this point the chorus of “Can we gets” begins.
“Can we get donuts?”
“No.”
“Can we get cupcakes?”
“No.”
“Can we get muffins?”
“No.”
“Can we get pie?”
“No.”
You’d think they’d catch on by this point, but no, they’re just getting started.
In the bakery, they’re giving away free samples of coffee cake and of course, my kids all take one. The toddler decides he doesn’t like it and proceeds to spit it out in my hand. (That’s what moms do. We put our hands in front of our children’s mouths so they can spit stuff into them. We’d rather carry around a handful of chewed up coffee cake, than to have the child spit it out onto the floor. I’m not sure why this is, but ask any mom and she’ll tell you the same.) Of course, there’s no garbage can around, so I continue shopping one-handed while searching for someplace to dispose of the regurgitated mess in my hand.
In the meat department, a mother with one small baby asks me, “Wow! Are all six yours?”
I answer her, “Yes, but I’m thinking of selling a couple of them.”
(Still searching for a garbage can at this point.)
Ok, after the meat department, my kids’ attention spans are spent. They’re done shopping at this point, but we aren’t even halfway through the store. This is about the time they like to start having shopping cart races. And who may I thank for teaching them this fun pastime? My seventh “child”, also known as my husband. While I’m picking out loaves of bread, the kids are running down the aisle behind the carts in an effort to get us kicked out of the store. I put to stop to that just as my son is about to crash head on into a giant cardboard cut-out of a Keebler elf stacked with packages of cookies.
Ah! Yes! I find a small trash can by the coffee machine in the cereal aisle and finally dump out the squishy contents of my hand. After standing in the cereal aisle for an hour and a half while the kids perused the various cereals, comparing the marshmallow and cheap, plastic toy content of each box, I broke down and let them each pick out a box. At any given time, we have twenty open boxes of cereal in my house.
As this is going on, my toddler is playing Houdini and maneuvering his little body out of the seat belt in an attempt to stand up in the cart. I’m amazed the kid made it to his second birthday without suffering a brain damaging head injury. In between trying to flip himself out of the cart, he sucks on the metal bars of the shopping cart. Mmmm, can you say “influenza”?
The shopping trip continues much like this. I break up fights between the kids now and then and stoop down to pick up items that the toddler has flung out of the cart. I desperately try to get everything on my list without adding too many other goodies to the carts.
Somehow I manage to complete my shopping in under four hours and head for the check-outs where my kids start in on a chorus of, “Can we have candy?” What evil minded person decided it would be a good idea to put a display of candy in the check-out lanes, right at a child’s eye level? Obviously someone who has never been shopping with children.
As I unload the carts, I notice many extra items that my kids have sneaked in the carts unbeknownst to me. I remove a box of Twinkies, a package of cupcakes, a bag of candy, and a can of cat food (we don’t even have a cat!). I somehow missed the box of Pokemon cards however and ended up purchasing them unbeknownst to me. As I pay for my purchases, the clerk looks at me, indicates my kids, and asks, “Are they all yours?”
Frustrated, exhausted from my trip, sick to my stomach from writing out a check for $289.53, dreading unloading all the groceries and putting them away and tired of hearing that question, I look at the clerk and answer her in my most sarcastic voice, “No. They’re not mine. I just go around the neighborhood gathering up kids to take to the grocery store because it’s so much more fun that way.”
So, up for auction is an opened (they ripped open the box on the way home from the store) package of Pokemon cards. There are 44 cards total. They're in perfect condition, as I took them away from the kiddos as soon as we got home from the store. Many of them say "Energy". I tried carrying them around with me, but they didn't work. I definitely didn't have any more energy than usual. One of them is shiny. There are a few creature-like things on many of them. One is called Pupitar. Hee hee hee Pupitar! (Oh no! My kids' sense of humor is rubbing off on me!) Anyway, I don't think there's anything special about any of these cards, but I'm very much not an authority on Pokemon cards. I just know that I'm not letting my kids keep these as a reward for their sneakiness.
Shipping is FREE on this item. Insurance is optional, but once I drop the package at the post office, it is no longer my responsibility. For example, if my son decides to pour a bottle of glue into the envelope, or my daughter spills a glass of juice on the package, that’s my responsibility and I will fully refund your money. If, however, I take the envelope to the post office and a disgruntled mail carrier sets fire to it, a pack of wild dogs rip into it, or a mail sorting machine shreds it, it’s out of my hands, so you may want to add insurance. I will leave feedback for you as soon as I’ve received your payment. I will be happy to combine shipping on multiple items won within three days. This comes from a smoke-free, pet-free, child-filled home. Please ask me any questions before placing your bid. Happy bidding! :) |
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• Feb. 6, 2008 - I Really Need A New Van...
The van I have now is a white Dodge Caravan. It has given us so much trouble since we bought it. I would really love to get a Honda Odyssey. Honda's are known for their reliability and lifespan. That's so important to me when I am out on the road with our family. I checked out a Honda at Car Prices, and was very happy to see that they will give me a free quote on a new or used Mini-Van or any other car I choose. The one I would really like is the Honda Odyssey...I think a blue one like the one pictured would be nice.
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• Feb. 5, 2008 - Update...
I have had several inquiries about my visit to the neurologist. I saw him a week ago and have to say I was really impressed with him. He spent about 40 minutes talking to me and my husband and doing all kinds of exercises with me. He said it would take awhile to weed out all of the symptoms I am having. I have to go for a sleep study, because we are quite sure that I have sleep apnea, which can cause alot of problems on it's own. I also have to have a couple of other tests done...and I have no idea what they are. After those tests are done, I will see him again, and then he will be doing a spinal tap to check for other conditions. He said that he has an idea of what is going on, but has to rule out as much as he can to be sure. He says that he thinks that I have a disease similar to Lupus...and I can't remember what he said it was exactly. That's about all I can remember. I appreciate so much all of you ladies who have told me that you are praying for me...Thank you so much. I will keep you posted as I find out more. |
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