Mar. 30, 2008 - GRR.
>.<
I can hardly explain myself right now... >.<
FIRST. My friend who ran away with a guy is now DATING him. They were all touchy feely during the concert last night and she brought him to church today and I'm really not happy about this at all. DDD=
psh. It was also gross because I had ppl making out like right in front of me during one part of the show... BLEHHHH. 0_0 EW GROSS. DDDD= But on the good side, the concert was pretty freakin awesome and I had an awesome time... although... I got smooshed and kicked in the shins a few times. 0_0 I feel SOOOOOO short when I go to these type of concerts. 0_0 There are so many tall ppl there... or at least... taller then me.... =PP
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AND THEN THE NEXT THING THAT HAPPENED was someone at our church came up to me and was all like... "I'll be praying for you. How are you doing?"
"Good actually"
"Really? You don't look that way? What can I be praying for you for?"
"Just life and stuff."
"Well don't get too crazy, even though it's really fun... too much craziness(craziness as in piercings, music, hair coloring, black clothing, skateboarding, ETC.) can draw a line between you and people."
".... yeah."
GAHHHHHHH! I just want to cry and scream and pull out my hair right now!!!!!! JUST BECAUSE MY DAD IS THE PASTOR DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING. I CAN WEAR BLACK IF I WANT TO. I DON'T WEAR BLACK BECAUSE I HAVE PROBLEMS!!!!!" DDDDD= DON"T YOU PEOPLE GET THIS?!?!?!?!
... DDDD= I need a hug. >.<
This guy also has asked me when my 'semi goth' period will be over...
I'm tired of this whole thing. I'm definitely not going to change for anyone. I like what I wear and black just happens to be one of my favorite colors, but to be judged and generalized over really hurts, stings, and makes me feel like dirt. Even though people's intentions are meant for good, it really is not necessary right now and makes me feel worse then I already do feel.
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