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Just learning to be who I am..but still trying to find out who that is.
Love my kids, of which I have 6
Some are now homeschooled, and some are not.
Working, going to school, and trying to be there for everyone and everything.
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spoke with her
| I spoke with my mother yesterday. It was a great conversation. I only felt like crap a couple of times.
Example 1. She was explaining how even her raised daughters had a rough life, EVEN THOUGH she was by their sides.
I understand she was trying to help me understand that she was not being a great mother and that she gave me away to save me from that. She was upset that I didn't get the great life she thought I had.
So why did I feel bad?
Because they had her by their side. She was there. They had a terrible life, I had a not so great life, but they had their mother. I had no one.
Example 2. This on is hard to explain without going through the whole entire conversation. Suffice it to say, that we got on the topic of her sister, my aunt who was also given away to the same family.
I told her a little about her life (which was not good either) and wondered why my aunt continued contact with an afamily member who treated her so bad. I told my mother that I guessed she might be all alone and this family member is the only person she has a connection to.
My mother proceeded to tell me that my aunt just had to call them and that she had lots of family members who loved her. She said that they could call each other a few times and see each other when possible.
So, whats wrong with that answer? Nothing really except that leaving someone who you see on a daily basis, talk to on a daily basis for a family of strangers who might call you once in a while and who you might see every now and then is no substitute.
So even if this afamily member is terrible, she is there.
I tried to explain that to her, but I don't know if she understood what I was trying to say.
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Posted: 7:41 AM, Sep. 12, 2008 |
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