I was going to come and blog about something.  Anything other than adoption.  Anything at all.

Like, how my car broke down.  Like how my dh passed his 3rd phase of his PO course.

How my day was..how I am hoping I can afford a new family car.  Maybe alittle on the Ike refugees here in SA.

Anything but adoption.  But then I watched law and order.  Sara Gilbert was a guest star.  She played a birthmother.  She gave a great peformance.  Heart wrenching. 

Not only that..I spoke to her again.  Twice this week. 

She seemed very happy to hear from me.  I think my feelings have finally stabilized. 

I think I am already in the pulling away phase.  The I don't need this relationship phase.

I went from wanting to move ASAP to be near her to wondering when I can get on with my life without her.  Sad, but true.