Tuesday, April 25, 2006 - Shedding
I think I'm going bald.
I wish I were joking.
I gave birth to Paige, well more acurately I was sawed in half and she was ripped from my body, on December 4 of this last year. That makes her about 4 1/2 months old. A couple of weeks ago I started losing some hair. This isn't unusual, I always lose a few at this postpartum point, but it seems much worse this time. It comes out by the handfuls! I have always had extremely thick hair, so I know that I can afford to shed some, but I'm wondering at this point if I should start saving all my hairbrush and stuck-on-my-shirt findings to fashion a wig for future emergency use.
I also seem to have shed a few brain cells this go round as well. I live in a fog of "mommy brain" lately.
My best friend told me once that you lose 25% of your brain with each birth....
I now have 5 children. You do the math!
At least I seem to be shedding a few pounds, now that I can use!
I had gained 20 pounds just before getting pregnant this last time, all that soap watching and bon-bon eating you know, and then I gained just shy of 30 pounds during the pregnancy. I'm already several pounds below the prepregnancy weight and now the challenge is all the weight I already had to lose in the first place.
The darn zipper on my fat suit seems to be stuck!
My husband loves me as I am. That's sweet, but it doesn't help...
Thankfully our Father loves me too much to let me stay as I am. He convicts me and challenges me daily to keep shedding all the things that are really weighing me down...
The bitterness.
The selfishness.
The unforgiveness.
The shame.
I can't wait to see what I look like once all the shedding is done and all the blurry images are clear.
I have a hope of someday looking more and more like my Daddy.
Now that I'd post a picture of!
(that is if I can ever figure the whole file loading thing again!)
Comments
Tuesday, April 25, 2006 - Yer just awesome
Posted by authorDonna
Thanks so much for your encouragement. I read today's post and couldn't help but be uplifted by it. You are so right that God works at shedding off the things that weigh us down. It is pleasant either. I needed your reminder that in the end we will look like him.
As for the hair thing, if you can, get a hold of Nioxin shampoo. I had the same problem and it took a couple years but I have hair again.
Have a great day :)
Tuesday, April 25, 2006 - baldness
Posted by kkccmom
Well, Trish, welcome to the club. I, too, am losing hair. Gobs of it. And I'm "2" years post-partum! I also have nice, thick hair so its not noticeable, but how long can that go on??
Speaking of "bondage" - re: the weights that so easily beset us -- here's what Beth Moore has to say in "Breaking Free":
"A Christian is held captive by anything that hinders the abundant and effective Spirit-filled life God planned for her." I think you've cover all the bases here...and I'm with you in the goal of cutting off the ball and chain to each of them...
Whew...what a lot of work, eh?
The weight-loss thing is as difficult as any; maybe more so because we can actually SEE it. Easy for me to be discouraged because I see so little change over such a long time...so I must keep my focus on doing the right things, in heart and body. Matt 6:33 -- Seek God first, then everything else will fall into place.
Hang in there...oh, btw, Paige is a little punk'in!
Kim
Tuesday, April 25, 2006 - God's grace
Posted by Lissa4Jesus
I too feel weighed down from time to time, usually from internal struggles like you mentioned, in addition to goals far out of reach which are hard to achieve. I feel like I have had about a year and a half of those type of struggles, but one thing I know is God's grace that is so abundant and amazing. It is only through Him that I make it and keep going with joy. One scripture that encourages me over and over is Isaiah 40:11 "He will feed His flock like a shepherd: He will gather the lambs in His arm, He will carry them in His bosom and will gently lead those that have their young." God is so gentle...and I too struggle with my hair thinning and know that God must know those things too. Doesn't he know the number of hairs on our head? :0) Love in Christ, Melissa
Tuesday, April 25, 2006 - hee,hee,hee!
I guess the hair thing bothers me so much cause I always felt that it was the ONE thing I had going for me in the physical beauty department.
You know every time I whine about it around here, my dh teases me and says, "Well at least you know the Lord is paying attention to you today, having to keep up with the hairs you are losing!"
When I think about that I always picture the Lord with an abacus or a calculator, pencil behind His ear, adding and subtracting with His tounge poking out the side of His mouth, like I do when faced with numbers. Somehow I always picture Him with glasses, which I'm sure my Perfect Lord doesn't need, just part of the image in my head...
I so love that scripture of how He cares for those caring for young (a gross misquote on my part, I'm sure), I saw it in the front of the new Bible I bought for my son recently, and it really touched me.
You blessed me today my sisters!
Thank you.
Edited by tallenmomof5 on Tuesday, April 25, 2006 at 1:58 PM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by MommyHAM
I love the way you tied this post up, my sweet soul-sister! So true...
As for the HAIR thing, you'll be happy to hear the scientific cause for this phenomenon - explained to me years ago by my OB when I went for my pp check after dd was born. When we are pregnant, the body loses the normal mechanism of ridding itself of hairs - normally we lose several hairs a day during normal brushing, washing, moving, etc. This is part of why everyone thinks pregnant women look so good - their hair is thicker and fuller than normal. However, when post partum, and the body levels out the hormones - which takes time, especially when nursing - it goes, "I have WAY too many hairs on my head!" and proceeds to kick them out. Mine fell out in huge gobs and clogged the shower drain for months after dd was born. I didn't go bald! However, several months after the loss of hair, new hairs grew in the places where the old hairs had been, and I had a fuzzy little "halo" for a long time. If it's not one thing, it's another, lol :)
