Wednesday, June 21, 2006 - Story of a Crazy Lady
Once upon a time there was a lonely, overwhelmed, opinionated housewife...a mother of 5 who needed some creative outlet in her life that she didn't have to take too seriously and that could be whatever she made of it.
Enter homeschoolblogger...
"Wow, what a great idea!", thought the crazy lady. "I'll blog interesting, inspiring things everyday for the rest of my life!", she vows.
At first it was a dream...a wonderful dream come true. She couldn't wait to blog and was so thrilled to find that her peers were quite accepting of her.
That isn't always the case IRL for crazy lady.
And the comments! Don't get me started on the joys of getting comments!
Then one day crazy lady is feeling things that should have been long ago buried. These feelings are further triggered by teaching she reads online and disagrees with. Suddenly crazy lady is angrily blogging and picking the scabs of the old wounds.
She begins to become bitter and it spills over IRL. She is overeating again, she cries alot and her husband and children fear that aliens have taken over her body...
Crazy lady hides from friends, family, and church traveling further down the path of self destruction.
Crazy lady feels like the pit of depression is closing in and she cries out for help.
Crazy lady is Heard!
Just as things seem on the verge of spiralling out of control for our dear crazy lady the clouds melt and things begin to become clear to her once again.
Crazy lady is not alone. Crazy lady is loved, cherished and needed and her crazy existence does have a purpose.
Crazy lady is not crazy...
okay, so that is yet to be determined but I'm hopeful.
I am striving to get my focus back in the right place. I will no longer be a slave to my past or the sins of anyone else...Not because I'm strong enough, but because He is!
I am in the middle of purging things from my life that are of no gain...Things that have held me down that I have no need of holding on to. I have asked for your prayers before and have prayed myself of course, but now it's time to show God that I'm serious.
I have been fasting for a number of days now. I don't say that to appear spiritual, but because I need prayer to continue.
I feel a set number of days in my heart due to scripture that the Lord opened to me. It seems like an impossible amount of time right now to my flesh, but that's kinda the point.
This isn't about weight loss, though that might be nice of course.
I need prayers to keep my focus on the Lord and how He is going to change me through this and prayers that I will not listen to my very hungry flesh.
Also if you would, please pray for my dh. He has been pretty freaked out by my fasting thus far and is worried about me. I just pray that the Lord will give him the peace about it that He has given me.
The kids haven't been told and don't notice and I hope to keep it that way.
Right now I am hungry, but not miserable by any means. The hardest time is when I'm making meals for my family...like right now. I get a bit grouchy, but I'm trying to keep that in check. Just more of my flesh crying out I guess.
So stay tuned if I haven't scared you away and I'll let you know how it goes.
I'll share a story about Prissy Nicole's bad day with you tomorrow.
For now let's just say that your ear is not a handy place to store small objects.
Comments
Wednesday, June 21, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by flapjacks
{{{Hugs}}} and prayers Trish :-)
Alice
Wednesday, June 21, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Lilliepad
I think the crazy lady has quite a way with words and expressing her feelings so that other crazy ladies get the benefit of enjoying reading her blog ( I mean her personal creative outlet). This crazy lady is praying that you will get whatever you're meant to have out of the fasting experience and will listen closely to the Lord as He speaks to your heart. Ain't it great to be crazy?
Wednesday, June 21, 2006 - Hang in There!
Posted by LittleEblingsAcademy
HANG IN THERE!! Trust Him!! Wherever you feel Him leading, go...
And... Small things in ears?? Oh, no!!
Blessings! ~Beckie
Wednesday, June 21, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Titus2woman
(((((Crazy Lady)))))
Wednesday, June 21, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Anonymous
So grateful for you, Trish. Your hurting heart is also a giving and empathetic heart. God Bless You
Thursday, June 22, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by ktneis
Crazy Lady get closer to God in their hurt. We seem to do things to ourselves but then the light comes on and God is waiting with the answer to our anguish. May God Bless you with peace.
