BOOK REVIEW: Transforming Church in Rural America

Posted on November 11th, 2010 in Uncategorized by Robyn

I got this book through booksneeze.com to review.  It seemed like the perfect pick because we go to a small country church in “Rural America”!   In fact, our church is very similar to the one described in the book and the book had me chuckling at the similarities.  Sad….but true!! :)    The book provided a very encouraging story of a pastor who moved from a large urban church to a small rural church of only 30-40 people.   The church has now grown to involve many campuses and reach many people in other countries through internet etc. 

It did provide the basic information and tactics he used to encourage the growth of the church.   While much of the information was overall very helpful, it did lack details that I wish would’ve been there!   The author does have a website with more information and  videos to help fill in those blanks.   I would say it could be a great place to start for a pastor of a small, struggling rural church to get some fresh ideas or at least some much needed encouragement.   And, even though I am not a pastor or pastor’s wife, it was still an encouraging and, in places, humorous book for me to read.

The latest news from our family

Posted on August 28th, 2010 in Uncategorized by Robyn

I can’t believe it has been over two months since I last posted.  It’s been an incredibly difficult 2 months filled with heartbreaking decisions but we also have some good news.

First the good news…..we are expecting a baby.  I am 19 weeks pregnant now and due somewhere between Jan. 18 and 25th (I’ve heard 3 different due dates so far!).   All the girls are hoping for a girl.  We may find out at our next ultrasound…scheduled for this Wednesday. 

Now for the not so good news…..As you well know, we have been struggling for quite a long time with our adopted daughter Leona (age 8).   After some improvement in late 2009, things really took a turn for the worse at the end of January this year.   We prayed a lot and loved her through all her behaviors while still giving consequences for them.   But things just continued to go downhill.   It was no longer safe to have her in our home.   The older kids were just so worn down emotionally and she needed constant supervision around the younger children.  She was spending large amounts of time in her room cleaning up messes and making more messes to clean,    destroying her things, and harming herself.   It was not a good situation.   After much prayer, we finally came to the realization that it would be best for her to leave our home.  We considered the possiblity of residential care first but they could not take her as soon as we needed (I had all-day morning sickness and her behavior was becoming increasingly worse).   We were heartbroken.   We prayed more and felt that the Lord wanted her in a new family.   We found one within a few days.  My husband took her there 2 weeks later (mid-July).   Words cannot express how difficult it was to make that decision.   But words also cannot express how much relief our family felt after she left.   Later, when I was explaining to  my 4 yr. old that Leona would be staying at her new home forever and would not be coming back, she said “then she can’t hurt me anymore”.   I had never mentioned that Leona “hurt” her, only that Leona was not being nice……these were her own words.  It made me very sad to hear them but confirmed to me that we made the right decision.   We are thankful that Leona has a chance to “start over”….a new beginning.   I have talked to her twice since she left and she seems to be doing well (for her anyway!!). 

You might be wondering how Josephine is doing since Leona left….she is happy her room smells a lot better.  In fact, she told me to send Leona to a new house quite a few times prior to her leaving.   She did ask once if she would be staying and I told her “yes”.    It seems the hormones stay under control pretty well with the birth control pills.  We are now looking into possible underlying causes of her hormone issues.   We are probably going to be sending her to a school for the deaf, which unfortunately is residential.   She would stay there for 4 nights and come home on the weekends.  She desperately needs to be surrounded by people who speak ASL fluently.  We had the best intentions of becoming fluent (I’d say we’re somewhere between beginner and intermediate..hopefully closer to intermediate)  ASAP but our family situation just didn’t allow for it.  I am hoping to take classes while she is in school.   Also, the battle for her to get her schoolwork done was difficult on the whole family although with her hormones in check, I think she would be much more cooperative. 

We thank all of you who have been keeping us in your prayers during this difficult season in our lives.  We ask that you’d continue in prayer for the situation with Josephine and her medical (which in turn causes emotional!) issues.  Have a blessed night!

What NOT to say to an attachment challenged child…and what TO say

Posted on June 22nd, 2010 in Uncategorized by Robyn

I know…People who don’t have to live with it can NEVER understand.  BUT…….well, I wish they did because that would make life a lot easier around here!

For instance, most people want to be encouraging to children.  But strangely enough, for an attachment challenged child, this is REALLY BAD….REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY BAD..Ok you get the picture.   It is for this reason that my hubby and I take turns in the nursery sitting with our toddlers AND our attachment challenged child.  Too many people told her she is “so well behaved” and gave her the wrong kind of attention.  But, alas, this week someone found me in the nursery and decided to chat. 

Impressively enough, Leona admitted all her faults to this person without prompting (instead of her usual pretending to be a perfect angel)..yes, thats right…she told all about how she pees and poos in her pants, fights with Mom, is NOT responsible, doesn’t make good choices, and how she can be very mean (she did leave out a few things but..hey, this is an improvement!).  But then, IT happened.  The person decided to be “encouraging” to Leona..i.e.  told her she was “beautiful” and “good job” that she was learning how to read some words.  Yes, to a NORMAL child this would be wonderful.  Heck, even Josephine can handle praise and I wouldn’t exactly consider her normal! :)   I just cringed when I heard all these things, knowing we’d be in for it later.  And we were.

It began Sunday afternoon.  She sucked her arms until they turned purple.  Then Monday morning, she was all wet with pee.  She cleaned the pee mess and later, when I made her rest for a few hours, she really went to town.  Pooped on her bed and ripped her shorts.  Smeared the poo on herself, put the tag from the shorts in the “pile”.  When I say ripped her shorts, I mean she ripped them in half and somehow got the elastic band out of the waist and somehow shredded them in one spot.  Needless to say, she spent another good bit of time in her room cleaning.  Today, when she had playtime in her bedroom, she dismembered her doll.  Yes, that’s right Cinderella only has one leg left.  This would be the same Cinderella that got a buzz cut recently because I couldn’t get the poo out of her hair.  SOOOOOO people, THAT’S what happens when you “ENCOURAGE” an attachment challenged child!!  I actually took pictures but I decided not to post them because of the “gross” factor. 

Now, you ask……why would she do all these things??  To prove the person wrong.

SO, maybe you’re wondering what you SHOULD say to an attachment challenged child?  Well, here are some pointers:

**You have such a great family!

**Wow, your Mom and Dad really love you!

**You have such a great family!

**Wow, it’s so nice you have such a great Mom and Dad who want to teach you about love (and/or Jesus)!

**You have such a great family!

**You have such a nice Mom and Dad!

These are things this kiddo (and others like her!) need to hear!  That’s because they don’t like their families, they don’t want to be part of them, and they do everything they can to hassle them!   They are also great at trying to get people to feel sorry for them and trying to fool others into thinking their families are mean.   If you say one of the above mentioned phrases (or similar), you won’t become a “SUCKER” (someone who will believe the childs facade).  Leona usually LOVES to find a sucker who will believe her little pity party or someone she can fool into helping her with something she doesn’t need help with.  These kinds of kiddos also love affection from anyone BUT their families, so it’s best to never hug or touch them.  And, did I mention, DON’T feel sorry for them (at least outwardly!)!!  :) 

So, there you have our latest update!

One good thing….it seems that the birth control pills are working to even out Josephine’s hormone swings.  So far, so good…..praying it stays like that!

June update..what a month!!

Posted on June 3rd, 2010 in Uncategorized by Robyn

Well, here I am finally to update. We have had quite a month here….3 ER visits…one hospitalization….the vomiting sickness…3 birthdays….one graduation…and lots of ugly behavior from our adopted children.

One of the tough days went like this…..the baby was hospitalized for intestinal intusseseption (blockage). I stayed in the hospital with him overnight. Eric picked us up and as soon as we walked in the door, Sydney vomited on the table, and pee started dripping through the ceiling in the family room. UGGGGGH!! Yes, I know your thinking the pee was from Leona, BUT to make matters worse the pee was actually from JOSEPHINE who was going completely off the wall during her awful “hormone” time. Just to put things in perspective, that was the SECOND time Josephine had wet her pants that day (she only wet a total of 3 times in the 2 1/2 years prior to this!) and Leona had also wet the bed that day too. Did I mention that this day was also Ian’s 8th birthday? Poor guy didn’t have too much fun but did manage to open his presents and have ice cream and cake which Leona and Josephine were not invited for. On the funny side, even though I discourage “revenge”, I do think that Josephine was justly repaid on HER birthday when Ian vomited all over her feet (and the dining room floor…during dinner…..EEEW!!)

The other ER visits were Ian breaking his collarbone and also Ian getting dehydrated from having the above mentioned vomiting illness that turned into strep.

Other than that, it was much wetting and pooping by Leona. Many more rages by Josephine. Leona has temporarily stopped her wetting/pooping in favor of ripping her clothing to shreds and pounding on the bedroom wall while I am sleeping. Of course, she always enjoys vomiting up her last meal and rechewing it too. Josephine’s hormones have really been surging and we really need to look into balancing them somehow. The dr. had to increase her dosage of Prozac (worked right away thankfully) which I hate. BUT I am enjoying more normal behavior from her since a few days ago she was again raging (rolling all over her bedroom floor, kicking, screaming, and punching the walls/bed) for a few hours. And last month she was doing the same and trying to break their beds (they now have mattress on the floor), wetting, being extremely defiant, ripping clothing, putting small holes in the wall, making herself vomit, purposely hurting herself. We felt it necessary that they should each have their own room and built a wall down the middle of their room. Also put linoleum and lot of caulk in to prevent the pee dripping into the room below (AGAIN!!).

The birthdays we celebrated were Ian (8), Sydney (4), and Josephine (11). And Bailey (15) graduated.

Well, my time is up for now! Going to see if I can watch the Dr. Phil special on adoption. Thanks again for your prayers…as you can see we really do need them!! :)

VACATION

Posted on April 13th, 2010 in Uncategorized by Robyn

We finally went on vacation….we’ve been promising the kiddos for a looong time!  We managed to keep it somewhat a secret (the older kids knew) so it wouldn’t be preceded by A LOT of bad behavior.  We got them all up at 3 am on Easter morning and headed to Tennessee and then after a few days, we went to Ohio to the Creation Museum and to see Tim Hawkins at the homeschool convention there.  I even got to meet a fellow adoptive mom in person(their family adopted children from Liberia around the same time that we did). 

The kids had a great time (well, most of them!)…even Leona and Josephine managed to have fun for a few days before totally losing it.  I put Leona back in diapers along with the rain pants and rubber boots…that helped a lot.   I’m sure everyone wondered where the rain was…I had my answer all ready "It’s in her pants, silly!"  No one asked though!!  I even let her go swimming…of course she had to wear a swim diaper under her bikini bottom (with a rashguard top).  Not even one kid laughed at her…gosh I was so disappointed!  Wait, did I say that out loud?  I’ve decided she will be wearing diapers until she is 18….I’ve had enough floods.

This is a picture of everyone at the Ripley’s Aquarium in Gatlinburg.  They have awesome discounts for homeschoolers…only $7 admission (regularly $20 for adults). 

They have a tunnel that you can walk underneath the shark tank..pretty cool. 

The place we stayed in TN had a jet tub that made some awesome bubble baths!  And, by the way, DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO FIND A PLACE TO STAY FOR A FAMILY OF 12???????  I think I am going to invent a "BIG FAMILY" friendly motel chain!  In Ohio, we squeezed into 2 little adjoining rooms that each slept 6 (2 queens and a sofa bed in each…Yikes!.  Shaun and Rebekah made me a birthday cake and brought it along!  We won’t talk about Leona’s present for me (OK, I’ll give you a hint..it was yellow! And, no it wasn’t matching rain pants!) 

A bad picture at the Answers in Genesis Creation Museum.  (No, I wasn’t kidding about the rain pants being yellow, I just turned them inside out so she didn’t rip the rubber part!!). 

Here’s a nice pic. of everyone in the bus.  Eric made of few modifications to the bus…a table and a few switched seats.  Those totes fit under the seats nicely but the ones with the snacks in didn’t stay there for too long!

So, that’s it for the vacation update!! 

As far as the adoption update, please keep praying!!  We could really use your prayers!  Thanks so much!

Have a blessed night!!

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