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UGH!  I know that a complaining heart is not a contented one but (get ready to put the earplugs in)

I AM SOOOO FRUSTRATED!!!

Nothing seems easy today and it all started from the previous yesterdays in my life.  Dh's schedule is awful & I am not sure how much more I can take -- we get no time together and when we finally do, we usually overdue like staying up late to watch a movie when we really should be catching up on sleep or at the very least catching up with each other.  This is what happened last night.  Needless to say, we overslept and missed church.  I'm not sure about this but "When did church become optional?"  I think God understands when we miss church because Dh has to work or because we are sick but I doubt that staying up until 2:00 am because we were watching a movie qualifies (Duh? if it ended at two doesn't that mean we popped it in at MIDNIGHT -- we have Swiss cheese for brains). 

 But wait there's more...  

The fence actually fell down today and the neighbor put a temporary fix on it --- again.  Gee, I guess he doesn't like our dog in his yard any more than I like his in mine.  You bet dh will be hearing about this from our not so happy neighbor -- I've been hiding inside just to avoid the conversation.  Now this isn't like whooosh the wind came and down came the fence.  This fence has been falling down now for almost a year and yes, we worked a bit on it this past summer but somehow as is usual with us, it still isn't fixed.  Not sure I am blamning anyone here, just sick of the waiting for Dh to have the time, for Dh to have the energy, for Dh to have the money, for Dh to wait until I push him and for Dh to think that these things are priorities.  ARGH@! 

But wait there's more....

Two out of three phones in our house are broken, my almost 6 year old is still sleeping in a toddler bed, the couch is wearing to shreads, there is a broken down junk car for parts on the side of the house which I'm sure the neighbors are loving .... I still have allergies and I'm miserable on top of it all.  I haven't bought groceries and eating is starting to not be an option.  This blog site is so slow since they changed it and it is driving me crazy - I want to move my blog but I don't.  My kids still haven't done their school work from all week and I am fast falling into a dark pit of depression.  I'm not sure what God wants me to be learning from this.  I am sooooo sick of waiting for things to get done, I don't like seeing my house crumbling around me and I'm tired of being soooo fed up with my dh and my kids. 

I'm mad as H*LL and I don't wanna take it anymore!

I know that the things in my head are spinning out of control.  The only thing I can do about it is Pray and somehow pick myself up from my own bootstraps and what? -- I guess get after it.  I'm burnt out. I'm tired.  I'm fat.  I need a date, a vacation and carribean cruise.  I need a good cry and a good laugh.  I need money, answers and solutions.   I don't know how much more I can take yet I cry out and God gives me:

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths.."  Proverbs 3:5-6